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1) the only medication i've bee allergic to ever was acyclovir. it caused me to break out in hives all over. And it's funny when i was noticing i was allergic to acyclovir, i went to my doctor and asked if i could go on Valtrex( i would look on the internet for medicines that work the best) and she not only said no, she didnt even look to see that the problem had gotten worse. she just gave me a bigger stronger dose. 2) from where i wrestled for 13 years my back was already in need of some help, but my lower back consistantly hurts, not on a severe level, but strong enough for me to notice it about every single day. 3) and man my whole life is spelled STRESSED. i just recently got over an addiction problem; i went to rehab and got my body and life back on track, but in the past 8 months, i've been homeless, lost almost all my friends and family members, lost my job because it was too rough on me. (i love being a hands on person, but now im very limited to what i can do and i hate it), my granny is on her deathbed, my grandma on my father's side isn't going to survive too much longer, and he already lost his dad on my 18th bday, my grandpa on my mother's side's blood sugar on average is 560, and my other grandma is an addict and i have no idea what goes on in her head, my only brother resents every part of me, my uncle is going through a bad divorce, and so on and so on. i could keep going to the point you wouldnt want to read anymore but yeah haha i have stress like no end.... I do not smoke a lot, maybe 4 ciggaretts a day if that? and im trying to quit. and lol, i admit my diet isn't all salads and carbs, but i by no means try to surround myself with junk food. 4) man i had no idea, lol i was in some serious pain and i didn't know what was gonna happen because some days i was so weak i struggled to get out of bed. but i like the whole concept of thinking of it as a health barometer.. pretty cool actually. It's easy for me to say i can open up about having the virus, plain and simply because i live it a very small town, Franklin County, virginia... and let's just say the girl who gave me the virus decided to openly discuss how i had it to everyone she could. So i have grown used to society not accepting it, I have no idea why people are so scared to admit it, when i did for the first time, it was like lifting a huge weight off my shoulders. and What are the statistics of men giving it to women, and women giving it to men?? I have read so many different one's i dont know which to believe, if any.

thank you, the_H_Opp, and granted i didn't exactly always go for the "cream of the crop" lol... but it just feels like it makes me have to scrape the bottom of the barrel now. the truth is i myself dont know enough about the virus. believe it or not i actually had doctors lie to me, (no shocker she was fired by her company) i was allergic to acyclovir, and my doctor paid some much attention to me she didnt notice and just put me on a larger, stronger dose.. so my herpes experience has kinda been a non stop downer as of today. and i have spent countless hours on the internet looking for the right statistics, the right information, but looking for the CORRECT information is like trying to find a needle in a haystack.. my family itself is not doing to well, my grandma bless her heart will not be with us much longer, plus my family isn't exactly got spare change lying around the house, so i cannot make it to the seminar in october lol but hopefully one day i can because it sounds awesome. i have tons of questions about it, 1) What is a strong and good medicine to take while i dont have the outbreaks themselves? 2) Is the virus causing my lower back to hurt all the time? 3) have you ever heard of a first outbreak lasting as long as mine? 4) Can this disease kill me? but sincerely, thank you so much, the_H_Opp, that link helped out a lot, and i hope to hear back from you!

Okay so my name is James Smith. i am 20 years old. i wrestled for 13 years, and in doing so i met a good person, and great girl (she was at that point in time at least) ... Needless to say, we went on our separate ways and lived our own lives. after i dated her i met my ex of 3 years, and she lived quite a distance away from where i live so i was never at home so i had no way of keeping in touch of what went on in everyone's life. well eventually me and my ex broke up and i ran into her again, she was NOT the same at all, she fell hard to drugs, and in doing so lost her kid. and i guess for you to try and understand you have to know that my dad died when i was 3, and i have never had a father figure. i know it was not my business to try and help her get her kid back, but she was a great person once, and everyone had turned their back's on her. but i couldnt, i don't know why, im by far no great guy, i just wanted to at least try for her sake because i knew what her kid would feel since i have had to live that life. Anyways, there i was trying to juggle her addiction, paying bills, living on my own for the first time, and still trying to help her get her child back. i ran myself into the ground, hard. but one morning i woke up and noticed a bump after we engaged in intercourse the night before, and i was a little confused to say the least. i had asked her several times if she had anything and she always answered "no" and i dont know why but i believed her. well, one night my cousin came up to me and told me the story. she had cheated on me, caught HSV 2, and decided not to tell me, and sleep with me on purpose knowing she had an outbreak. i immediately went to the doctor (not even going in to ask her or tell her where i was going) and i told them to test me for everything under the sun. sure enough a couple days later the test results came back and i had HSV 2. but by then i had already known it. i endured about 30 genital lesions, so i went to my family doctor, the free clinic, the emergency care center, all of them told me i had it, and each gave me medicine for it, i got acyclovir, creams, you name it. but all in all my first outbreak lasted for NINE MONTHS and i was in more pain that i thought was possible. i have not had an outbreak since, but the first one was bad enough, and i have yet to be able to tell someone i have HSV 2, without them vanishing from my life. i have lost so much to this disease. i am extremely family oriented and its so hard that i cant even get a girl to give me a chance because i tell them i have HSV 2 every single time. you see, im in that persons shoes that doesnt get told.. and i could NEVER EVER do that to someone.. id rather die. i will never hide i have this , but i dont understad how i can get someone to give me a chance; yes i have it and always will, but i am more than just a vessel with herpes, i am still a good person. But the longer i go down the road the more i feel like giving up. If ANYONE has any suggestions for me or words of wisdom please, please share them.