@looking I've been trying exercise and yoga and just about anything to keep my mind off of it but it's really hard to pull myself out of it. I even wrote down all my thoughts on paper, all my fears, goals, and feelings. It made me feel a little better but now I'm back at square one. I joined an online support group for hypochondria as I believe that's the root of my anxiety, but nothing seems to be helping. I have these symptoms that I don't know if they're all in my head or not. Everyone tells me it's all in my head but I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm shaky, feel like jello, it's like I can constantly feel my blood rushing through my body, my ears are always ringing, heart rate always feels escalated...
I went to a walk in clinic yesterday because I thought I had high blood pressure from the anxiety. I ended up breaking down and crying in front of the doctor, even though my blood pressure was normal. Everyone is telling me I'm making myself feel like this and the more I think about it, the worse it gets. I can't even go out for drinks with friends without thinking about it and feeling uncomfortable. I'm living in my own personal hell right now and hoping that my zoloft starts working soon, because I've only been taking it for 5 days and it's a low dose.
I just feel terrified, exhausted, and alone. Sorry for venting, I don't really have anywhere else to talk about this.