Thank you :) it feels so good to have new perspectives about h. Before I found this place I felt so alone and helpless. After reading other people's stories and hearing all of the positive and encouraging words, I have the confidence in knowing that even if it does not work out with this new guy, that when the guy is right for me he will not disappear. I'm not sure who I contracted it from, I had my first ob within a week of a new partner. I told him, and he was beyond surprised. Needless to say I never saw him again and he basically disappeared and will go on believing he did not and does not have it. I was looking to a guy to accept me and love me so that I could love myself. I've figured out since then that no man can do that for me, I need to love myself even after h. Each time I have an ob (3 times) I repeatedly tell myself it doesn't define who I am as a mother, a sister, a daughter, so why should it get in the way as a lover? Anyway... :) I am excited about this new experience and I will share my success story when it happens. Thanks again!!