First, I'd like to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for this wonderful website. It has been an amazing to have a place to come where I know I am not judged or alone. To see others have gone through this experience before me and come out on the other side and used this "dis-ease" to open themselves up and find self love. In doing so, many have attracted a wonderful mate who accepts them for exactly who they are, regardless of having H and the fearful stigma society has created about it.
When I was first diagnosed with H, I had a whole bunch of fear based thoughts running through my head, I'm sure everyone reading this can relate. Why me? Will anyone ever love me again? How the heck am I going to tell someone this and have them accept me anyway? Why didn't I do this or that differently? Wow, this shit is for life! I could go on an on... Those thoughts started to get momentum and uh oh, I realized it was all I was thinking about day in and day out.
Then, I had a new thought. What if I consciously decided to think something different? A thought I could identify with that feels better than those thoughts, it didn't have to be so far out there that I didn't believe it. However, what if my new thought pattern sounded more like this - I am not alone, many people have H. It is certainly true, we are all on this website for that exact reason. -There are people before me that have had the same diagnoses and found love. True again, take a look at the success stories section. What if I gave these new thoughts momentum? They would in turn produce more loving thoughts. I have the power within me to stop the negative broken record and put a on a new one. I like this idea, it is empowering and gives me hope.
Today is a new day to begin and change the record. I know there is a beautiful gift in all this. Possibly I needed a wake up call, I may have wondered off path headed down the wrong street in a bad neighborhood and boom, H!! Guess what, now I'm listening! There is no way I am going to give up on my dreams because of this, why? Those are my dreams, I deserve every single one of them and the ones I haven't even dreamt yet!
I will embrace this journey as I learn to love myself more fully and more than I ever knew possible. I will accept this "dis-ease" since I can not change it and acceptance will give me peace. Then I will allow the universe to show me all my dreams, better than I ever imagined.
Namaste