StrongAndHealthy

LOL Herry. The Twinkie is solid, and must be protected. Thanks for the insight Ashley. One of the unknowns for me is what would happen if my immune system is heavily compromised, maybe for a long period of time and no suppressive meds are available. But worrying about it won't change anything. I appreciate the kind words.

I like to think I can do all kinds of stuff. For instance, say like being Navy SEAL. Or sometimes I picture if the SHTF and I'm roaming around earth like the Walking Dead or sometihng. (I have an active imagination.) So what would Herpes do? If I'm training to be a SEAL or something extremely demanding, I would assume as my body adjusts it would breakout pretty hard. But to what end? Eventually my body will fight it off right? Then what? Stays down, pops up on occasion, constant outbreaks for years? Or what if I'm nearing the end of my life in a bed fighting Cancer or something? Am I also going to have constant sores? For the sake of discussion, these scenarios will be outside the possiblity of suppressive drugs.

Those are encouraging words. Thank you guys. Sometimes I feel buried in this disease and other times I forget it's there. Guess I'm just getting used to it. I trolled this forum a lot when I wasn't sure if I had it, and then when I was. I decided to join so the community can grow and I can contribute and maybe help some others out. A community I have lifetime membership in now. :)

It just seems like a stretch that anyone will be accepting of it. And I would feel horrible if I gave it to someone. I mean, truth is it's pretty sissy overall. Yeah it hurts a little, but mainly it's a big shot to my pride, and the stigma surrounding it is where the damage is. Physically, it's really no big deal at least in my case. Baby powder kept everything pretty mild. I do see the point of view that I am now forced to pursue deeper relationships and H acts like a filter. Right now I can't think of anything I can share with someone that's more intimate for me. Gotta stay positive I guess. (pun intended.) Thanks for the kind words Willow

Also, it seems like everyone around me is all about sex sex sex. I can't stand it. First of all, I've never been that way. I am stupidly faithful, and want a traditional marriage. I fin d myself not wanting to be around these people anymore. Their stories about dating sites and hooking up really drag me down for some reason. Also, I was surprised how strong that first OB was. I was literally laying in bed thinking, now I know why they say "flu like symptoms." My whole pelvis area was throbbing. This time, I felt it coming on a day or so before. Textbook Tingling in the nerves around my left leg. So far, I've put aloe with powdered Vit C on it. Seems to help. I experimented a lot my first time around. Baby powder was great once the blisters were broken. But I kept the later ones from breaking by using the Aloe and Vit C. Also started juicing. Anytime I get sick I can get better in a couple days with juicing. Seems to be working here too. This OB is fading fast on day 2. Sorry, just random thoughts after the post.

Trying to stay positive, which I do pretty well. Even in the face of Herpes on the doctor panel that I received. My ex GF didn't know she had it and passed it on as far as I can tell. Really makes no difference if I'm moving forward. I actually tested negative once when I had a small red deal that healed wierd, not like a zit or something. I got a physical and the doc said she'll test for HSV2. Negative. 6 months later, I spend an entire day moving all my stuff and my bro's stuff into our new house. I was physically destroyed, and didn't sleep much, etc etc. Woke up with blisters. One of which turned into the open sore, pretty big and scary looking. I didn't need a doc to tell me what it was. A month or so after it cleared up I was at the doc and got a test done. Positive HSV2. That would have been right before Valentine's Day, (of course.) Pretty rough time all around. I was motivated to try for a new girlfriend, and had a new area and new house. I'm not great at approaching women, and can be shy and nervous. So this is just one more thing that sets me back. In spite of it, I decided to get on a dating site and met a girl who I liked. After a couple dates she slept over and I had planned to tell her that night. It got to her having no shirt on pretty fast and I stopped everything and laid it out. I know, great timing. Anyway, she didn't leave or whatever but there sure as hell wasn't going to be any sex that night. She came over a couple more times and we fooled around and stuff. Then it went to cold text and no texts. Pretty devastating there too. All that passed and I figured since I eat pretty healthy and my immune system is good I probably won't really have to deal with this much. Had to get really run down to get an OB, and I may have had this for up to 2 years previously without knowing. So I've been leaning out a bit, tired of being over 20% BF. I lift weights so it's great for that, but not for looks. The danger zone is when I cut cals and I know it. It's the only time I get sick. I drink beer every weekend and caffeine daily, and really don't experience any problems. So here is my 2nd OB. Almost 4 months to the day of my first. It was not minor either. I saw it coming and got on the Valtrex quick. The blisters haven't advanced or anything so it will probably not last a month like last time, or be as bad. But damn if it doesn't drive me straight into feeling bad. I'm already run down from the cal deficit, then this just smashes what life I had in me. My biggest concern is how to get a partner. I am basically thinking I'm stuck to dating sites that center around HSV. Which maybe that's not so bad. But I have been offered to meet friends of friends and I just don't know how to go about that. I can't see myself disclosing this to people. The only people that know are my doc and that girl. Feels good to be able to be among people who know this pain though. Thanks for letting me bend your ear. :)