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Gonzales523

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  1. Is anyone out there searching for a cure!? Anybody?? What are the latest updates on it? How close are they to finding a cure? Why is this so hard to cure?
  2. So, I've been OB free for about 3 weeks. I feel like myself except that I am taking acyclovir 2 pills 3xs a day which SUCKS but I'm just curious. The day I was diagnosed with herpes... my doctor's first reaction was..."oh, hun these look like infected hair follicles" so I had a sigh of relief. She did a swab test. 3 days later exactly I kept calling and calling and calling the hospital to find out my result. Receptionist told me they were really busy but she told me to remember "no news are good news" but I still just really wanted to HEAR the nurse say..your results came out negative. I wanted to hear it so bad. After 5 hours of calling and approximately 5 voicemails... around 7pm I figured they just had came out negative because it was so late and no one called me back. I ran home and I was just soooo happy. At 7:30ish the nurse returns my calls and says.. I am H positive......I felt like everything around me blacked out and my heart dropped I even dropped my phone. I took the news so hard because I was so positive that I would be fine. I prayed every night to God for a second chance. All because I was never educated or warned about herpes as far as I was concerned, it was only an std that you could get rid of. No one ever taught me that, cold sores on the mouth were herpes. I never knew exactly what it was. And so for those three days before my results came in I did research asked questions and learned tuns of things I was never aware of. So for those three days I prayed that I could have a second chance. I told God that I learned about it. And that I would be careful if he just gave me a second chance. Truth is my boyfriend gets cold sores.."herpes" around his mouth but truth is I can't remember if he really ever gave me oral sex with a cold sore! Because honestly he won't even kiss me when he has one! He thinks it looks nasty and he doesn't want me to kiss it. I've only had sex with only him for two years now. And I made him swear to me that he didn't cheat on me. He cried and looked me in my eyes and he said "for this very reason is why I never have cheated on you, because I love you and I would never put you in any harm of that type, I can't even look at other women. I am in love with you and you are all I need and want" I believe him. But how did this HAPPEN !? I'm LOST. I am AFRAID. I just want to know....could that test have been wrong?!?!?!?!?! Is there any possible way that I could still have a second chance. I got the test done at an ER and I have NO insurance. it's been a time before where I was told I had a kidney stone but I didn't! so I was told that some ERs will tell you anything to get you out if you don't have insurance. Then I went to my primary care doctor and I told him I was tested at an ER. He prescribed me with the acyclovir and and told me he'd give me a blood test in October which is when my next depo provera shot is... so, when I get the blood test results back.... is there any way...that I could have a second chance? I mean I just really fear that if my boyfriend and I ever DO breakup what am I gonna do? How will I ever attract someone with a contagious virus. I am afraid of rejection. And even now when people compliment me when I'm out, I feel ashamed. And different. My anxiety attacks have gotten worse because of this. And my doctors won't prescribe me with anything. I am just afraid...I want to feel like myself again..because honestly I haven't. Some days I can keep myself really really busy and get through the day...but some days I take deep thought about it. How did I contract this is my main concern...even tho I am aware that no doctor will ever be able to answer that. I just think about it every day. I stayed with one man and one man only and tried to be careful and tried to be safe...so how is this happening. :( ugh...
  3. Thank you all for your help I highly appreciate every single one of you @LookingForAlaska @victoriaxxx @WCSDancer2010 @Noel XOXOXO
  4. @Adrial (Mr. H Opp) So can I take either or do they work alike as far as less OBs? The doctor told me that I'd be taking the acyclovir for less outbreaks? So isn't that what L-Lysine is for. I really hate taking medications so which would be best to take? Or best to take both?
  5. @victoriaxxx I do get sick very often I do have a weak immune system so you're telling me that because of this I could get constant OBs or?
  6. @victoriaxxx thank you so much. Where can I get these antivirals and or L-Lysine from? Are they prescription meds or over the counter? Are they expensive. Also my doctor has me taking acyclovir three a day for ninety days I am actually going to go pick it up in a few. He said it could help with OB prevention or less OBs. Can I still take L-Lysine if I am taking acyclovir or is it basically the same thing?
  7. @WCSDancer2010 oh my God I really didn't think anyone would respond to my post. You have no idea what a great help you were and how appreciative I am for your help. Thank you SOOOOO MUCH :-) Yes I feel that at a younger age I would've been more informed and prepared for herpes yet I was only taught about things such as HIV and gonorrhea, chlamydia etc. Never really about herpes. I never even knew that cold sores were herpes! Until 3 weeks ago. In a way I try to have a positive out come in all of this. I kind of look at it as, now that I have it and I know much more about it I can now educate my younger siblings as well as my future kids. Well actually now I have another question lol how exactly will that play out in the future? Me having kids with herpes?
  8. Okay so I was diagnosed with genital herpes about 3 weeks ago on my first outbreak. It lasted two weeks so I've been clear of my sores for a week now. I can say that I do feel more like myself now. I've been with my boyfriend for two years now and this all happened because we had oral sex while he had a cold sore. After being clear of sores for a week, my boyfriend and I had unprotected sex last night. And it was very painful. First question: was it normal for sex to be painful? I mean I waited 3 weeks for sex my boyfriend and I usually had sex 5 to 6 times a week so I felt sexually frustrated and I was very horny yet I WAS worried for him the whole time which leads to my second question: is he going to be okay? What are the chances that I passed it on to him? My doctor told me that since I only have the first stage of herpes it wouldn't be as easy to infect my partner. I'm worried for him. Also I'm having a really hard time trying to cope with this. I never would've thought something like this could happen to me.
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