Faith512

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Thank you @positivelybeautiful I'm really grateful for finding him :) and thanks so much for changing it to a success story @adrial , it really means a lot to me to try and give others hope like some have given me here :)

So its been a while since I've been on here and a lot has happened in the 3 months I've tested positive for ghsv2. Although it took me some time to accept it, these days I hardly think about it. Shortly after I contracted it, I started dating a guy I had been friends with for about a year. We were both always in relationships so the thought of being anything more than friends never crossed my mind. After my ex bf and I broke up (I didn't get H from him but a guy I slept with after), he started pursuing me. I knew as soon as I accepted our first date, the subject of disclosing would eventually have to come up. But for the time being, I was going to see where this thing was going to go. I was very upfront on our first date, stating I was not interested in anything sexual for a while and wanted to take things slow so if he were just interested in a casual hook up, I wasn't it. Fortunately, he wasn't. He wanted something deeper which I was surprised and excited about. Now, we're all adults here so I'm sure we ALL know after some time, things get a little steamy...lol ;) I could only take making out so far until we wanted more. Heaving petting and some oral activities later, it was only natural to take the next step: sex. I was terrified. Now during all this, I hadn't had any issues with OBs just mainly prodrome symptoms so I was able to "hide" my H from him. I was also taking my meds regularly so I was careful that I wasn't putting him at any risk without telling him the truth first. I knew once we reached that "we're gonna do it" moment, the disclosure talk was quickly creeping up on me. Then it happened. We had reached that moment once again and I pulled away. He simply asked "Why don't you want me?" And. I. Lost. It. He knew something was wrong. Once I composed myself, I said "There's something I need to tell you." It was the longest conversation I had ever had. The majority of the initial disclosure was me trying to allow "I have herpes" leave my lips...but I couldn't. So he said it for me. He knew where I was going with my rambling and hysterical crying. I sat there for, what felt like forever, waiting for him to be completely disgusted by me. But I was wrong. He told me a mutual friend we had worked with previously also had it, so it wasn't his first time being introduced to it. He began to rub my back and say "babe, it's ok...everything is ok." Those words meant the world to me. That's all I needed at that very moment. He cuddled me until I fell asleep and I felt accepted. But then the morning came. Being so overwhelmed, I couldn't tell him all the information I wanted to make him feel better about H, like suppressive therapy and lessening the transmission. As I left his house, I asked him if I sent him a link to a website, would he read it and he said of course. So I sent him here :) He watched Adrial's video, read other stories and got the facts. I felt so much better. However, it wouldn't be another week until the subject was brought up again. I didn't want to pressure him to talk about it because I understood how intense the subject was. So another week goes by. I needed to know what he was thinking so I made him talk to me. I realized he still had sooo many unanswered questions and I was starting to wonder if he wanted to continue things. After a long Q&A session, I gave him the option to leave the relationship, no hard feelings, no harm done (even though it was going to hurt...a lot). He answered surprised me, once again. He wanted to stay. He wanted me. All of me, H and all. In that moment I realized, "Wow, that's a real man. That's a good man." I've never felt so lucky :) We've since had sex (with protection of course!) and things couldn't be better or more normal than any other time I've slept with someone pre-H. Now, I must admit, it was a little uncomfortable the first time. One part being that it was a little sore feeling and the other part being that I was just nervous! I felt kinda like a virgin lol. But we got a better handle on it now :) The moral to my story? DON'T EVER think someone won't accept you. Because someone will, maybe not today or tomorrow, but I promise you it will. When I found out I was positive for HSV2, my world crumbled and assumed I'd be alone forever. I never thought I'd be on this forum telling other people out there that there's hope. I never thought I would be THAT success story. And I am :) So don't give up kiddos, have faith, and please, don't let a small bump (pun intended lol) run your life because you are worth so much more than that! xoxo Faith512

Omgosh @HerryTheHerp I'm dying lolol

I believe you and I have the same meds: acyclovir right? I take mine twice a day too, one at 8am and one at 8pm. Both times are usually on an empty stomach and I have no side effects from it. It might be because I'm nervous about getting dehydrated from the meds so I make sure to chug like two bottles of water within the same hour. How much water do you drink throughout the day?

I constantly have a burning, tingling sensation but no actual ob

Wow thanks for that last link @wcsdancer2010! That was an amazing post as well as an eye opener! It really makes me realize I need to make sure he and I are on the same page about a real, committed relationship first before any further steps are taken. We were already friends for about a year before we started dating so we know each other pretty well but it is a little different once you start dating.

Wellll he doesn't yet :/ that's something I'm trying to build up the courage to tell him but he's a great guy so I feel like it won't be an issue (fingers crossed). But I read that transmission is also possible if there is skin contact so how does sex work if there's no skin to skin contact lol?

Thanks @greeneyes87 and @wcsdancer2010 :) so should I just wait about 6 months until I even consider having sex?? I'm dating someone right now who is h- and obviously I will disclose when the time comes but is it safer to wait until I build a stronger immunity?

So I've been diagnosed for about two months now. Since my initial ob, I've had one tiny other ob (literally one bump) that lasted two days. I'm on acyclovir 2x a day. Lately I've been getting pains and tingles as if something is gonna happen, but when I check things out there's nothing going on...So my question is, is it possible to have signs and symptoms without ever experiencing an actual ob?

I'm on acyclovir 400mg twice a day for suppression. I was dianosed back in August and my first OB was awful but I did recently get another. Ten times less intense but it still has that burning feeling. I did up my dosage to three times as well as well taking 1000mg of l-lysine too.

Haha!

Ok thanks @WCSDancer2010 :) I've been kinda nervous to put any kind of cream or ointment on my sores because I was scared it would make it worse but I'll definitely give it a try! And yes I'm commando a lot these days now lol who needs underwear anyway?!

Le sigh... :/ so I just got my 2nd OB (1st one was almost two months ago) and it's definitely less intense, praise the lord! Underwear is the devil these days but my sores feel awful "blowing in the wind," especially when I'm wearing my work pants. What does everyone else do??

Thanks @willow I've recently started seeing someone and wanted to know if oral sex on both our parts would be an option if I'm the only infected one

@rumi12 I was wondering the same! I have ghsv2 as well but am not sure if that automatically means I have it orally too?

@wcsdancer2010 @seeker @notperfect714 I'm a little confused. Ok so if I have hsv2 and my partner gives me oral sex, is he not likely to contract the virus because it "doesn't live" in the mouth?? Tell me that's too good to be true....lol sorry if I sound dumb but I'm still trying to learn!

This is amazing! Great find!!

1. Not sure. Could have been my ex who had "mysterious" bumps on his penis but convinced me it was a heat rash OR could've have been a guy I had slept with after, which is when my symptoms started. 2. With my ex- several times. New guy- twice (2 years ago the first time) 3. Nope (hand to face slap) :/ 4. They were both unaware. Still wish I could figure out who I got it from but I know that's just a waste of my energy

Is there a difference between lysine and l-lysine?

Same thing happened to me! It was almost like I did an intense leg workout and my muscle is sore. I haven't gotten the pain since my first OB though

Maybe I'd be a little less embarrassed and ashamed that I have it if I knew people who did but its not really something you go shouting from the mountain tops lol. I'm definitely not comfortable enough to discuss it with anymore people in my life other than my mom and sister. Luckily I can just hash out all my confusion and questions here :)

I just recently got diagnosed with genital HSV2 and its been very emotional. I don't have insurance or a doctor either so I went to Planned Parenthood for my exam and test. I was given a prescription for acyclovir for 10 days, taking a pill 3xs a day. I asked them to give me a prescription for other OBs in the future and only pay $17 for 30 pills. I got mine from my local grocery store that has a pharmacy but I believe they have it at Walgreens or Walmart too but may vary in price. Hope that helps!

@chinup yes! I get so nervous every time I'm sitting down and feel a burning or itchy sensation. It's the worst. I have an ongoing conversation in my head saying, "you're fine, relax, worrying will only make it worse." But it's good to remind myself that it's not as bad as it seems! I am so thankful I found this website and been welcomed with open arms by everyone. Sometimes all you really need is to know YOU ARE NOT ALONE :)

Love this!