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Hmmm where to begin. Well I feel like a shitty person right now. Last year I had a break out and every sign pointed to herpes. I went to get checked out and the doctor said it may be but the nurse said it's possible it wasn't bc I didnt have bumps that looked like a herpes break out. They did cultures and my results were for a bacterial infection that has the same effects as herpes and when I was tested for herpes it came back clear. I do know from reading numerous post on here though that if you're newly exposed to herpes that it is very likely your test can show you don't have herpes even though you do. I neglected to go back and get tested again for herpes bc it was just easier to tell and convince myself I didnt or don't have it bc of both results I got. I hadn't been active since last year but recently I met a really awesome guy and we started a brief relationship. we always used protection although yes I know you can still transmit it although you do. He texted me the other day and said the last 2 times we had sex he had a brush burn mark above his groin area. He said it goes away but happened after our last two encounter. I concluded that it must be from the friction. From everything I read I don't think I've ever seen a symptom of herpes being a "brush burn mark" that happen after ex unless I'm wrong. Is that a possible symptom. He didn't say he had bumps or flu like symptoms or anything else really except for what I mentioned. Has anyone heard of that being a symptom? I mean if it were it wouldn't only occur after each sexual encounter would it?

So I felt a mild discomfort earlier today and thought I was having an outbreak. When I was finally able to further examine myself I just saw and felt a rather big lump. It's overall painless and under my skin but i can feel its presence whenever I move. After I conducted much research and viewed countless pictures. It looks like I have a bartholin cyst. I have all the symptoms of it and it looks the same. I will consult a doctor but for now I am just curious can herpes cause bartholin cyst. I read it would become infected by sti's but they only mentioned gonorrhea and chlamydia. Since I've had my first out break I haven't had another yet but now I'm wondering if this is signs of an outbreak starting

I feel myself shutting down because I may have spotted signs of a second outbreak. I'm freaking out right now praying it's an ingrown hair or something else. I have been doing fine my solution to this was forgetting it existed. Keeping myself extremely occupied with numerous activities. I've been working like a mad woman and I seem to be buried in school work. But I'm okay with that. No time for my mind to wander off where it is now and no time for me to begin a relationship with anyone. Like all my problems I try and run from them, ignore them, I'm just praying this one isn't catch up with me. Maybe one day I will be able to deal better. That day sounds like it'll never happen. But there's always room for hope

Well when I looked at the results uploaded online I just saw the Streptococcus pyogenes, under the culture results. The doctor just told me he was going to do a culture . I assume he def swabbed for herpes bc I mentioned I was sure that's what I had. I literally had every symptoms if herpes but looking up information about this bacteria it has the same side effects as far as lesions, fatigue, flu like symptoms . I'm just so frustrated bc I can't get answer now and after becoming more knowledgable about herpes I don't want to get my hopes up after discovering how common it is.

Okay so im not sure how to feel right now. I got my culture results back and it said I had a bacteria detected called Streptococcus pyogenes. Granted I got my results via an email although they told me to expect a phone call which I never received. I literally just saw the email tonight and since it late I can't call the doctor and through much google research I found the bacteria can cause lesions and give you the same symptoms as herpes however I didn't read anywhere That it caused herpes. I got my culture done during an outbreak which I read is of course the best time to get it done. Or what I thought was an outbreak I should say. I know the next effective way of knowing if you have herpes is through a blood rest but if I did contract it, the results may come back negative right bc I just recently got it? I'm so confused and I don't want to get my hopes up I keep researching this bacteria and causes I know this isn't a medical sit but does anyone know if the bacteria causes herpes? When the doctor checked me out that day he said he did believe I have herpes while the nurse tried to calm me and say it may not be because they weren't blisters just bumps. But herpes does come in many forms right? I'm just freaking out over here and am in an odd situation .

Ugh well I really feel crappy I have an apt soon I've been seen once already. My body feels like it's shutting down and I'm loosing so much weight bc I have no appetite and I feel sicker when I do eat

Almost two weeks now and I get random aches in my leg, back, and my inner thigh just like shooting pain that goes away eventually

Since getting H I always feel sick. I know having flu like symptoms is a symptom but goodness how long do the symptoms last? I'm sure it varies from person to person but I'm so fed up with feeling sick. It's making it sooooo difficult to not let the fact that I have h consistently occupy my mind. I think about it so much I feel like other ppl just know I have it but I know they don't know. Since getting this I'm just so drained and it's hard to carry out my everyday activities and it interferes with school and work. I think my first OB is over but I keep getting random aches and I just feel weird all the time.

Yes seeker the only thing keeping me semi grounded is that I know I could be faced with other bigger things in life. Good thing is herpes isn't life threatening but the bad thing is it's something I have to live with forever . And I have no clue why I'm so obsessed with dating when I don't even want to date anyone until I come to terms with this . I guess I feel like I'll forever be alone with this. And yes dancer you're right. I've already done a lot of soul searching already since finding out and no I don't deal with my emotions. I must say that yes this is a huge realty check for me. @chinup after educating myself about the statistics of herpes and how common it is every time I'm out now I look around and say things to myself at least 4 other people here have herpes its okay lol it sounds crazy writing this but it's what ive been doing hoping it would make me feel better about it. I want to take the time to educate others but it's at expenses of everyone knowing my status. But this forum is great and I live all the feed back and I do feel a bit more uplifted now just expressing all of this and getting everyone's perspective

Thank you seeker. I think the hardest thing about coping with it is my age I'm so young for whatever reason I feel like I could cope better if I were older. People my age I don't feel would understand and just pass judgement if I told them I have herpes. And I don't think being with a guy that has H is a bad thing and you're right maybe this may be the thing in life that helps me find my soul mate who knows... I'm not even interested in dating but these thoughts are eating away at me nonetheless

Okay I am having the hardest time getting use to knowing I have herpes.... I'm trying to stay positive but I think about it 24/7 and I cry about it everyday. Granted I just found out a week ago and in time who knows maybe I will be okay with it but that's hard to imagine. My ex finally started speaking to me and all I ever wanted was to be back with him but I can't allow myself to be with him now knowing i have HSV2. Sad part is the only reason I contracted this is because I thought dating another guy would help me get over him but the only thing it got me was herpes. Now the asshole that gave me H won't speak to me after I asked him about it and he said he would go get tested. He won't respond to any of my calls or messages with me just asking did he get tested yet which makes me think he knew he had it all along. My self esteem is shot every time someone flirts with me I just shut down. And I know I keep reading stories of people with herpes being able to have a relationship with someone who is negative for H but I just couldn't date anyone who was negative. I couldn't allow myself to put someone else in danger of contracting H from me. No matter what precautions I take I know there's a possibility I could pass it on to them. I couldn't deal with myself knowing I'm putting someone at risk for getting H the emotional drain I'm experiencing I would never want anyone to go through and also the pain itself of having an OB. So I feel like my only option in the future would be to date someone who is hsv2 positive like me but then I feel like I'm settling with someone because we have a shitty virus in common and that fucking sucks. Excuse my profane language but that's the way I feel about it. I just can't deal with this and reading the uplifting stories are inspiring but I feel like I'm not being realistic believing them. Like I really can't wrap my head around the fact that this is my life. I've say back and reflected on all my wrong doing to seeif this is karma coming back to me but nothing I have done in my past is deserving of me contracting this I just don't understand. The doctor told me this could happen to anyone but I don't understand why it just so happened to be me

Thanks everyone I'm trying to keep my head up high but I keep falling back down at times. This site is really great though and uplifting

Upon finding out that I genital H I have been depressed. I try to get out of my runt but then I randomly breakdown periodically. I keep trying to be positive. My appetite is completely gone though. I read that this was a symptom of H. I try and force myself to eat but that only makes me feel sick as if I will vomit it back up. Also I have a few other questions so you can have herpes for years and not know correct ? But I keep seeing diff story of how effective getting tested for it is. If you never had an OB and you get testing done through blood work will it correctly diagnosis you? The person I'm sure I contracted H from says they never had an OB or anything and that he would get tested but will it come back negative since he hasn't had an active OB I'm just really confused on how that all works

Well I went to go get checked out and I was a mess at the doctors crying the entire time. Told me it def looks like herpes but now I awaiting the result of my test and I prepared myself to know I'll see 100%proof that I have it. The lady was nice gave me a huh and told me I was beautiful and should not let this keep me from anything. I couldn't help but cry though here I am only 20 years old and my life is changed forever now I've been obsessed with reading about heroes reading up on status of a cure and my life is consumed with only these thoughts now. I'm still angry and mad sad and depressed. I want to tell someone so bad just to have that support but I'm in fear it will someone get out to more than one person and I'll be known as that girl with herpes. I don't want to be known just as that girl with herpes. I've been so distance from everyone... I already suffer from depression so everyone is just worried I'm in a depressed state of mind which I am but they don't know why... I know I'm worrying the ones around bc I all do is cry and stay to myself they probably think I'mon the verge of suicide which surprisingly I haven't felt that way yet. I'm stressing myself out with this which I know is more than likely contributing to my outbreak. But how do you not stress over something like this

Thank you for all the advice whitedaisies I will def kept all that in mind when I get tested Tomm. You all are a great help

No I haven't been tested yet but every symptom of herpes I have my on Lola just like pictures, spreaded to every area I touched, had flu like symptoms, random aches that hurt like hell as well and the sires are painful and uncomfortable. I tried to tell myself it may be something else as well but I don't want to get my hopes up I'm like 100% positive I have herpes. Tomm will be so embarrassing for me but thank you for your kind words myfiercecalm

I am still in disbelief. Last week I was fine and now my life has changed forever. I've been crying day and night. I'm surprised I even have tears left. I am in utter shock this is my life and I don't think I will ever be able to be okay with the fact that I have herpes.... I've read so many discussions and great positive people assuring it will get better but I just don't see it, unless the day comes that they find a cure. I'm do lonely the only person that knows us the person I contracted it from and it will more than likely stay that way. I don't want to date, have kids or even go on with my day... I am dreading tommorrow I am going to get checked out so it can be confirmed I have herpes.... I know I'll cry and I know it'll be hard now that I was able to express that this out break is killing me. I am in so much pain. It hurts to walk, sit, basically do anything. I have an extremely bad BO I'm sure I caused it to spread, prior to me realizing I had herpes I touched my BO and touched other areas of my genitals unaware I was spreading it. The first BO was right on my anus. It is an absolute nightmare when I have to use the restroom it is so painful that I'm praying I get stopped up. It doesn't hurt to pee though since the is no ob in that area. And the amount of discharge I am experiencing is unbearable. It's so much I feel as if I'm starting my cycle but I'm not just discharge. Will it always be like that even when I go seek medical attention Tomm and they prescribe me with what's needed? Please I need ways to help cope with the pain, discharge, and my mental breakdown I'm on the verge of having!

Well I'm pretty sure I contracted herpes. Going to get seen Tomm to get a final verdict but I already have it in my mind that I know what the news is and that is that I have herpes. I have all the symptoms and they all appeared shortly after I had the last sexual encounter. I'm just trying to prepare myself for the conversation I will need to have with him as well. I know I contracted it from him because. Prior to our encounter I had routinely went to get tested for all stds and it was negative. I'm so angry at him and I feel foolish for allowing myself to be involved with him. I feel ashamed, embarrassed, and gosh it hurts so bad. I break down crying every where. I already suffer with depression and gosh this will not help at all. I just can't believe this is my life right now. I've been reading through different forums trying to find hope but it's not helping at all. I'm just so down and discouraged from perusing anything.