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I've gone off acyclovir completely (been 3+ years) because that shit gives me headaches. Sometimes I can feel the virus stirring up in the base of my spine. Full-blown OBs are maybe 2-3 times per year. So far no transmission ☺️

Thanks for sharing your experience. May I ask the name of the doctor you mention here?

I suppose you are right @Ishmael : I don't have to say "God brought me a man", rather I met a man and cultivated this relationship.

If blood tested negative on 2/12, over 2 months after potential infection, then I'm thinking you probably do not have HSV, right?

I would like for my infection to just go away as well: a bit late for that now! Abnormal discharge has not been part of my experience. Blaming HSV2 for every little health issue including my poor attitude sometimes HAS been part of my experience. Hang in there!

I love this that you wrote @unbreakable : You describe your tough situation so well. If I were in your shoes, I would insist on "setting him free". If he really does want you and love you all the past complications notwithstanding, he will come and get you. Then you'll KNOW that he wants you for you not because he HAS to be with you. I would need that reassurance for myself. That way, when he does come back looking at you like he would give the world just to have you, you will be able to say to yourself, "Yes this is the awesome dude who LOVES me and WANTS me" Guilt solved and you can go forward as equal partners to build a great future.

I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so down @TequilaGirl I've had many a day in the dumps as well. Sometimes resignation came over me like, "Oh well, say goodbye to my sex life." Fortunately, those negative thoughts were oh so WRONG.

I had a really bad outbreak when I contracted this virus as well. I was super angry and bitter at the ass who infected me. Then I started to take responsibility for my bad choice: I knew he wasn't trustworthy and I went forward anyway. God didn't make me get involved with him. I was careless with my sexual health and now I have HSV2. Fortunately, after 6+ years, God brought me a man who is completely into me and also is the best lover I've ever had. I disclosed my status long before we got naked and now I'm so grateful for my life, even if it does include fucking herpes.

Acyclovir gives me headaches so I don't take it.

It is most definitely a shitty condition. And still, after 6+ years of fighting this fucking virus, I have found a partner who adores me and fucks me like there is no tomorrow. I do my best to take care of my health and refuse to let HSV2 steal my joy. Some days are better than others.

@Taki10 I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Please don't give up hope. Please focus on taking care of yourself physically and emotionally. I am sending you positive vibes!

@Michgirl73 and you too will be able to find love and move forward with a successful relationship. Also, you don't "have" to feel like you are some disgusting person because you are not. You are an honest and loving human who will make a great partner to a worthy man ❤️❤️

My first outbreak was horrible as well: I went to the emergency room twice because I could NOT urinate. I felt run down for several months after that. Plus I was furious and devastated and all that crap. I never have tried restricting my diet and acyclovir gives me headaches so I refuse to take it. Now I'm 6+ years out and just began the best relationship I've had in my LIFE. I disclosed early and fully clothed. He bangs me like there is no tomorrow 😁😁 and I am soo soo happy

Congratulations! So happy for you 😊

Thanks for the feedback about suppressives headaches going away @2Legit2Quit. Maybe I'll give it another try. As it turns out I ran away from that relationship for other reasons so we were not together very long just one month. I should really write a separate post about disclosing because I was so afraid and it went really well. We were talking about past relationships and lessons learned. I just told him that my ex had not disclosed and given me herpes, and that I didn't want the same to happen to him. At the time I was taking suppressives and told him the stats. He remarked that he may well have been exposed already (crazy post divorce sex life) and maybe he was immune. He also took the opportunity to share some of his "secrets".