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Theo1824

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  1. Hey! Think positive. At least your guy is sticking around and wants to be with you. That's great! I wish for that myself some day
  2. @COA... I mean this in the nicest way possible, but why are you on this forum? You do not have H, correct? And many things you say, though well intentioned, seem to bring a bunch of us dealing with this disease, down. We are having a hard enough time as is..
  3. First, you don't have to take meds daily. You could just start them if you feel an OB coming on. At least that's what I gather. And I don't know how to help you with the emotions. Only three weeks in, but I'm in the exact spot you are. How it gets easier, I don't know :(
  4. My flu symptoms arrived the night before I got my first OB. I'm new to this, but I don't generally think systemic symptoms last that long
  5. I asked him about Skype. He's staying with his parents while he's visiting and they don't have very good internet or something. And I just have this picture of me just grabbing his hand while bawling my eyes out and telling him. Maybe get the pity card? Ha jk We've only known each other for about a month, give or take a few days.. So while he says he likes me, it's hard to think he is into it that much that it wouldn't be considered false pretenses. Makes me wonder about dating in general. I think I'll always feel like I'm leading them on... Like please awesome guy, start liking me a lot! and then I'll tell you this secret about me. Sigh :(
  6. I've just about had enough of all the different emotions I've been feeling. It's like PMS on steroids. The emotion of the day today is guilt. Guilt because, even though he is most likely the giver, he is out of the state and I just can't have this talk on the phone. Guilt because I feel like if he falls for me it is under false pretenses. Guilt because I know I'm getting attached and actually like this guy. Guilt for every time he says he misses me, and I him, and he still has no idea. Guilt for all the plans we talk about doing once he's back. Guilt for talking to him every day and pretending nothing is wrong. I don't know how My sanity will make it to December. But I just CANT disclose over the phone.
  7. I can't imagine that the majority of people that get diagnosed wouldnt at least take more precautions! Knowledge is power. Just because this isn't life threatening for the most part doesn't mean it can be overlooked.
  8. Yea it was just us staff. And they never used a name. I'm sure it is all fear based. Guess I'll just have to develop thicker skin. Bleh
  9. So recently diagnosed emotional rollercoaster girl here and today sucked. I work at a hospital and I was over in the ER today. I was talking with a nurse and HUC when the conversation turned to a patient that had come in and got diagnosed with many sti's, one of which was H. They went on to say how gross and dirty the patient was and that omg H was forever. How gross. I'm hoping my face didn't turn the brightest shade of shame. But that felt like quite a stab to the heart. They don't know my status so I got to witness how people really feel about H. And it hurts. And doesn't give me hope. Im not promiscuous. I'm not dirty. I wanted to shout all the facts about H in their face. But I kept silent and just wanted to go hide in a hole instead. This is my new reality. This is how people feel. I feel like I'll never find someone to accept me when people can so callously tall like that. What makes it worse is that I know I use to be one of them. So my question is how to deal with this and not let it get to you? Can it even be done?
  10. Oh my gosh I just about died reading "I've seen my whohaa more in the last three months than in my entire life". So true!! Feels like the mirror is a second body part lately!
  11. And this is why we all stay quiet and feel ashamed
  12. She was confused because she expected to see IgM antibodies... And if I was honest I thought there'd be some too. Not sure why its negative? My swab test came as hsv2. I've never had a cold sore in my life but my mom always had them. So I probably picked it up from her throughout the years. But if he gets tested and comes back pos for hsv2, do we have to worry about further spreading it to ourselves? Assuming he takes the news well and decides to stay...
  13. Sooo back story: got involved with this new guy I like a lot. Couple days after we sleep together, I get a flu like experience with painful peeing. Got confirmed hsv2 swab pos by Pcr 4 days later. Doctor calls me today and tells me I'm quite high for IgG for hsv1. Must never have gotten symptoms. Oh well. Not gonna worry about it because it's not the one causing issues. Anyway... She said both IgM and IgG were negative for hsv2. She seemed a little confused about the results. Said we could always test again. But the final thing I'm taking out of this is I got this within the last three months and most likely from this new guy. It kinda gives me peace of mind.. But now I have no idea how to tell him. And I would be absolutely horrified if his test comes back clean. Sigh... Bright note: I don't have to tell every guy I've been with! And I finally got myself back into the gym. No more of this pity party. My life needs to go back to normal.
  14. Change is scary. My waiting game hasn't been anywhere near as long as yours, but just the confirmation has given me this..peace. As we say at my job "it is what it is." It might be scary to leave family for a test, but once you know for sure you can really start putting life back to normal again. I feel for you! I would be feeling the same way in your position
  15. Ohhh I have no plans to get busy. Kinda am repulsed by the thought at the moment, My immune system had been awesome. It usually takes something massive to put it down.. Like the swine flu. Must be why, except for painful pee experiences for 2 days, I've felt like my usual self. Gives me hope that I won't have a lot of future outbreaks or that if I do, they're minor again. Gotta keep some hope, right? I was just unsure how long the first is... So many conflicting ideas on it. So I guess I just didn't wanna give myself hope that this first OB was done in 5 days and then see that I was wrong when another pops up before the rest are completely gone... But really the only sign I need to look for is no more lesions?
  16. So is an OB over when all the lesions are cleared up? Am I still infectious for awhile after? (not including shedding, I understand that) also this is prob my paranoia, but I can't see way up in there so how can I really be sure I'm OB free?
  17. No I'm a girl. Theo is just my dog's name. I called up my primary doc and she's been really great. She put in orders for IgG and IgM antibody tests right away and I already got the blood drawn. She also refilled my rx. I guess I got the H rockstar status. So by next week I should know if it's new or old. I'm hoping new since it fits all my flu like symptoms and the timing with this guy. It sounds bad but I just want to know who to the best of my ability to find out. I need a little closure.
  18. I'm 27 female in WI. It would be nice to have people to talk to too. Because no one else really understands. (Theo is my pup's name)
  19. Reachout2014... You sound just like me. I only got confirmed today but since I've noticed something was up I've been so paranoid. Hand washing, laundry washing, not wanting to touch a thing. It's been all I can do to not throw my bedding in the wash every day. I feel like I'm just rolling around in virus
  20. Couldn't take waiting anymore so I called the urgent care... On hold for a long time. I knew then. NP came on the line and told me pos for hsv2. She said the number was quite high. Does that mean it's new or old? She Wouldn't even entertain the idea of a blood test because as she said "it's positive so..you already know." I knew my answer but a small part of me had hope. How am I going to pick myself up from the ground and get to work in an hour...
  21. I was feeling quite positive today until reading this topic. This makes me think no one will ever want to date me again after a disclosure. I'm sure most people would agree with cityofangels. Why risk your own health? I know if I was put in that situation, I doubt I'd give a positive person a chance just because of fear. Sigh :(
  22. I'm supposed to get my period today or tomorrow. Usually I've gotten it by now... Ugh. But in preparation since this is my first OB, should I not use tampons? I don't want to somehow spread it up there... Waaaaah
  23. When is the best time to get the western blot? Is there a waiting period before you should get that test?
  24. I started acyclovir the day I noticed the first bump and flu symptoms. I was kinda hoping it would stop anything more from happening
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