I'm twenty years old and I just found out on Monday that I have herpes. As soon as I heard those words my heart dropped to my stomach and I felt like I was about to vomit. The doctor sent in swabs for testing just to be sure, but she said she's almost positive that that's what it is. I couldn't hide it from my boyfriend as I felt terrible about it, so I told him everything. He told me that he is going to be there by my side no matter what. But I'm afraid that the test result will come back positive and he'll end up freaking out and leaving. I feel disgusting, guilty, unwanted, I feel as if no one will ever be able to love me now because of this.
Maybe all of these feelings are just something that initially comes along with the news and will eventually fade, but I'm still so scared. I feel alone and I feel as if I have no one to talk to that is going through the same thing as I am, which is why I'm here. I need some advice and guidance from those who have/are going through this as well.
I have a few unanswered questions about herpes that my doctor left me with and I have no one else to ask as my gynecologist office is closed due to a winter storm where I live. So I'm left here to ponder all of these questions running through my mind.
Also, my gynecologist prescribed me Valacyclovir (Valtrex) and I have a couple questions about it. So if anyone knows anything about that, please respond.
Any help, advice, guidance, or just a friend who understands what I'm going through would be helpful at this point. And I'm so thankful that I came across this website.