Imstillme

I haven't received my swab test results yet bu the GP told me its almost certain that it's herpes. She couldn't get me out of her office fast enough and when I asked questions she just told me to read the fact sheet she'd given to me. It was an awful experience which left me feeling disgusting. I've got pain, itchiness and flu like symptoms so I've been missing work for 2 days. I hate lying to my family, friends and work pretending I don't know why I'm sick. I can't tell anyone about this and really wish it hadn't happened. I know that I'm still me and that in time I'll come to accept this and move on but for now I feel so terrible emotionally, psychologically and physically. My headache is bad and I just want to sleep. The worse thing is that i can't tell a soul.