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I've also tried using organic coconut oil and that has worked for me as well for any future sores I would have But happy to hear the swelling has gone down :)

The way you are thinking about it sounds just like me when I found out I have it too The first outbreak is the worst but hopefully if you go on antivirals your body will regulate it Just know even though you got diagnosed with this your life isn't over and you still deserve love that's very fortunate your partner is very understanding keep him by your side :) Feel better!

Personally I would think there was something he wasn't telling you Just seems strange to me I would definitely notify him though that you just got a red bump and he should get tested as well Good luck and I hope this all works out

That's awesome thank you for sharing your story! It's good you disclosed to him before taking it to the next level So happy for you and wish you two the bestest luck

thank you so much for your reply.... and its true we really do have the control to live our lives how we want to&its definitely more healthier and everyone does deserve to live a happy and fulfilling life... i am so blessed to feel how i feel now and what is happening in my life&i do wish the best for others

thank you taurus_lady i totally know that and its so true i have noticed that there have been people that were able to accept me and others who couldn't for some reason. i was and still am hesitate on who i do share that i have hsv because if it is a potential guy i wouldn't want them to know right away and they leave me without even getting to know me so far it has worked in my favor and i can tell if its even worth telling the person because i'd like to know me and that person can have potential.. the guy i'm with now i have a story with him thats in my next discussion but knows my story finally has been able to accept me forgive me and is truly learning to love me but support me as well and i couldn't be any more blessed i'm finally becoming happy again :)

thank you so much for your kind words kristin and i'm sorry for not replying earlier but i did read what you wrote and i broke down it really did touch me so thank you so much for reading my story and giving me encouragement and hope <3

i have not been on in awhile so please forgive me its been too long but I've definitely been meaning to continue my story and let you all know whats been going on with me now....(if you have not read my first discussion please read first before continuing) when my ex and i did break up i moved in with a guy whose name is greg and in the midst of me being vulnerable from a break up before finding out i had the H i got intimate with this guy greg a couple times and stupid me it was unprotected... After finding out i had hsv 2 i had to disclose to greg and i felt horrible when i told him he went off the deep end and shortly after that i found out in the midst of me and greg having something he was still sleeping with his ex so me getting it from the guy from jersey and giving it to my ex i ended up giving it to greg's ex as well >_< i'm sorry i have a crazy confusing story so i was living with greg at the time and he ended up kicking me out i got my place in the midst of that he went back to his ex blah blah blah so i was going through a lot a lot...... BUT i'm happy to say i've finally have found happiness and things are slowly but surely getting better and I'm very optimistic and hopeful :) In this new year i just got re connected with greg and we had a lot to talk about but we have been taking things slow and trying to make sense of everything.... and it honestly has been tough and not easy but i've been happy very happy actually My ex still isn't in the picture and still wants nothing to do with me i've tried to contact him but no luck and i've realized recently i cant hold my breath forever, that i have to let go but i know i will always have a place for him in my heart and i still worry everyday about him. so besides my love life getting better i've been healthy. no crazy break outs. i do notice though that when i get stressed or i'm really tired i tend to have a bump or two but nothing major. still waiting on my medicaid to go through so i can try and be on the daily supressive medicine. AND AND I just recently got a promotion at work. They made me manager and I got a raise :D SOoOoOo for everyone or anyone that is reading this there is hope and i know that now. my life isn't over. i've learned to love my body and appreciate my life and not take things for granted and live life because it is short and isn't meant to be lived depressed or hopeless. so smile because things not only can but WILL get better and thats a promise :D Thank You For Reading! *Please feel free to leave any comments or questions OR anything! i don't mind

- Taurus_Lady(Amanda) John knew he had it and came up to ny to tell me he contracted it from a possible ex... i wasnt worried about it because i felt no symptoms but roughly a week or more later that when everything happened and i felt symptoms. Surprisingly john was there for me and he did help me pay for my medication because i have no health insurance also he told me he would be there for me for support which i did need and i wanted someone to relate to because i had no one to talk to but shortly after that he changed his number and stopped contacting me. After a week later i got a letter also stating i contracted chlamydia from john which julian called me the next day saying he had that but didnt know about the herpes just yet... Pretty much finding that out i was like "well nothing can get worse then this at least chlamydia goes away but im stuck with hsv 2" I had no way of telling john he also had that as well but he did call me 2 weeks later to check up on me with a different number and i told him he might have that as well and needs to get tested as well no surprise at all he changed his number AGAIN so i have no way of contacting which i prefer now.... I'm still in the process of accepting hsv 2 so i do feel like its a death sentence for me i feel diseased and dirty at that.. There are days i just don't think i don't have it and it doesn't bother me but there are little things in my life that its a constant reminder everyday that i will be dealing with this for the rest of my life Julian is VERY upset and its understandable.. Happiness for me i hope can be found soon i would appreciate to really feel genuinely happy.. I passed that phase as to wanting to end my life because it is true its not something to end your life over or over a guy as well.. And I'm really learning from my mistakes BIG TIME... But thank you for your advice and support it helps me very much

I found out I had herpes early october.. I didn't know what was happening to my body or what was going on with me.. I would usually get this wax and after I got that waxing done I was in some pain because I was still a little tender a couple days went by and I was hurting when I went to pee and I couldnt sit down without being in some kind of pain I was so confused on why I was in so much pain then one morning i took a mirror and checked my area and believe or not I see all these blisters and right then I knew what I contracted and I started crying, freaking out because I didnt know what to do then.... To back track though about maybe 4 months b4 I found out I have herpes I was working at a club as a bartender at the time I was in a relationship but I met someone while I was working he seemed like a really cool guy and he was from jersey we talked and right away we connected mind you though i wasnt flirting or in anyway having the intention of cheating but i gave my number to this guy and lets just say his name was John. John was a good guy he was a little older then me but i didn't mind so roughly 2 months later i didnt see him for quite some time and wasnt in any rush to because i was in a relationship with someone i really care about whose name lets say his name is julian. Roughly in august me and julian started to have a lot of problems and arguments which took a toll on our relationship and was a gianormous stress on me i was about to be back in college but anyways to sum it up my boyfriend julian at the time was away late august to a trip to visit family and unfortunately i couldnt go due to me&his financial situation at the time but he got to see family and old friends. I was starting to feel different about him and to say the least i felt like i was falling out of love with him I didnt feel happy and felt all this stress and weight on my shoulders. While julian was away i decided to go see john in new jersey just to take a little road trip there and to give myself a little vaca so i could relax but what end up happening and what im so ashamed and still feel so much guilt to this day was that i ended up cheating on julian with john. i didnt think about the effects it would do to me or julian i was just selfish at the time and thought about my needs. After that happened my boyfriend at the time julian came back from his trip and we tried to fix things between us and it didnt work and i started to turn cold and heartless and i would treat julian like shit literally and i dont why i was hurting him but i felt so out of love with him that i was done and i didnt want nothing to do with him. Sad to say but two weeks later after all that I began to fall back in love with julian but by that time i broke up with him I had hurt him so much by the words and things I would say to him he wanted nothing to do with me and wanted to move on and he said to hopefully maybe one day we could be friends. I lived with him at the time because my family didnt wanted me living with them so I was living with julian and his family. i moved out late september by this time julian didn't know i cheated on him and i finally had to tell him when i found out in october about me having hsv 2 . He came over my new place to give me the rest of my stuff and i was upset and he clearly saw that i finally just spilled it out and i started crying a lot he had this look of disgust and left quickly after that. he told me about 3 weeks later he was diagnosed with hsv 2. Julian told me while being upset if i was happy that i gave it to him and he didn't want to talk to me anymore then he needed to and pretty much wanted nothing to do with me. His mom even txted me b4 he found out he had it, her exact words were "you were the worst thing that happened to my son if my son is infected god will curse you for the rest of your life"...... In the past two months it has been really hard for me b4 i got diagnosed with hsv 2 i was in school and i had to drop out because i got so sick and i was in so much pain. Then there is my ex who i live 10 minutes away from and it kills me everyday knowing he wants nothing to do with me because as stupid as this may sound and i may sound weak for saying it but i still love him so much and i miss him a lot. its been so hard to move on and i'm feeling so alone at this point and I'm struggling to get through day by day. In the beginning of me finding out about my hsv 2 and having to tell my ex I was even contemplating my own life... Idk how I'm living right now knowing i ruined my exs life and mine as well I haven't been able to full accept it and embrace it.. its been very hard and I'm only 19 living on my own and my family hasn't really been there so I've been struggling with this on my own. I want so much for me to wake up and it be a dream me having hsv and waking up to my ex happy. But its not a dream at all........ My ex and i have been through so much together and i guess thats why its just so hard to let go.... BUT BUT I've been doing my best to get through this the best I can and to eventually just accept my hsv 2. I still cry almost everyday thinking about me having herpes and my ex but its SLOWLY SLOWLY SLOWLY has been getting better. Through all this I've been doing my best to keep being optimistic... Thank You for reading my story! I'm sorry if i rambled and I was a little too open but I'm not afraid to share this with all you guys...

Just joined this community i really admire the support&advice.... I'm still learning to accept hsv&its bn really hard i feel alone&i have no one that can relate to me or understand what im going through SO looking for an H buddy :) F/19/NY NEED SUPPORT.. not picky on any other preferences.