Hey guys, I'm new here, I guess I'll go ahead and share my story first.
So for the past month or so, I had a few slip ups and hooked up with some guys since it was my first month of college, etc etc. I never had or never have had any symptoms of herpes or anything. No burning, no itching, no bumps, nothing. I went to my gynocologist for a normal check up about a week a ago and they ran all the normal tests (herpes, hepatitis, hiv, etc). The doctor called me back a few days later and said I had been exposed to herpes. She said something about retesting me... I was so in shock that I wasn't really listening to much she was saying. So my first question is why do they want to retest me? Do I have it or not? And if they say they want to retest me does that mean I may not have it?
Now the second part of this comes to my relationship with my boyfriend. We got serious recently and have been serious for about a month now. We are sexually active so if I do have herpes, he has it now as well. I've told him this and he handled it decently well. He didn't get mad at me, more mad at the situation. But it's kind of upsetting me because he's treating me different. He no longer wants to do oral with me, even tho I have no visible symptoms and haven't ever had any. I'm no different than I was before and I know where he's coming from but the way he's acting makes me feel very disgusting and unwanted.
How do I handle this? I'm trying to be understanding and look at it from his perspective but it's hard on me. He will still have sex with me but sometimes I want more.
Also, last, I don't feel like the same person anymore. I know that nothing really has changed but I feel so different. Like i can't even be myself. I feel like I lost my personality. Just tips on how to handle this. Is anyone wants to be my buddy, you can pm me. Thanks guys.
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