I found out a few days ago that outbreak and extreme pain I was in were in fact my worst nightmare! And all at once the feelings of regret, shame, and hurt all came to me and took me by storm. I wish I could go back and I wish there was so much I could change! From going to an 8 year relationship and being engaged to being betrayed and having to walk away from the most important relationship of my life to being single and lost! I just feel like my feeling of self worth and love for myself was no longer there! Now with this I feel even worse! I feel lost and like I will be unwanted for the rest of my life... I feel not good enough. It's been the longest weeks of my life and I don't even know what to do next or where to start!