ihatemyself

Adrial and Jessikarabbit 89 I apologise to you both and anyone else about the cancer comment. Adrial you seem to be mr positive and your not bad looking so i guess you wont have problems on the dating front with or without H. I on the other hand am not the prettiest girl in the world and sex was somehow my bargaining chip. Now that freedom gone i have no hope, Im not being dramatic but i am expressing my opinions. I know you are all going through the same thing but its not easy for me and i really do wonder if i can be as positive as you. I would need to worry about the talk and rejections. I had enough guy rejections in life and know the H will make that worse.

Cancer is better then herpes. At least ppl wont judge you and if you die you die dignified.

I had sex with a guy (1night stand) on the 14/12.2014 silly me done it without a condom. I started getting really ill on christmas and went to the A&E they said they taught i had herpes and needed to go the clinic to make sure. I went on the 30/12/2014 and got y results on the 7/01/2015....i have herpes types 2. When the doctor initially suspected it the guy said just check it out and when i called him with the results he said its fine don't cry about it just take medication. I know for fact he knew and intentionally gave it to me...how can someone be this cruel. Since NY I have been locked up in my room I hardly eat or drink anything anymore. Im 28 single and nobody is going to want me PERIOD. I don't care about other people happy endings thats them not me. Nothing works out for me and this is proof for me once again. Yes bla bla bla its very common, i'm not alone, 80% of ppl have it and they dont know but who cares my life is over. I was the most bubbly girl and now my family are worried as i'm so distant and locked up in my room. I have taught about killing myself im not going to lie... but I dont know how. My mom is a widow and has lost my dad in 2012 due to a stroke, it would be hard for her at first but she will get over it. I feel that being off a muslim background the whole not being a V before marriage is already a taboo but i am adding the H into that equation. I personally would look the other way if someone told me they had it and now this will be me destiny. The rejected promiscuous girl who was not a V but also has herpes. I told 2 of my close friends and 1 male friend they all like its ok but its easy when you on the other side of the fence.