@beachdude1984 i really just think the "stomach turning" and "shock" is the worst part of the whole thing. Atleast for me. And there is nothing conforting about that room. The thought of it makes me feel very lonely. i mean yes sitting in your thoughts all day and night is pretty terrible but atleast you don't have to hear "bad news" again. And yes i'm trying to be a little humorous about this and maybe its not the most appropriate way to approach this buttttttt this is all so new to me. I'm still figuring out how to handle it.