It's soo hard! To find the good in all of this, I just feel awful, like I'm gonna lead him on just to tell him my "deal breaker". It's been a whole year since my diagnosis. When does it get better? Thank y'all for your comments! I agree with everyone but I guess it's hard for me to believe that a 19 year old college boy would be okay with the H. I remember feeling so great after I attended the seminar, but it seems like slowly all my initial emotions are coming back to me. I guess it just takes time, but I'm sure tired of waiting..