Theoverthinker524

He just told me today that they just did a regular std test and they wont test him for H cuz he's not showing any symptoms. How can he get tested if he doesn't have symptoms?

He hasn't told me if he got the results back or not. He probably doesnt even plan on telling me. I'm scared to ask cuz anytime i bring it up it turns into an argument.

He's going to tell everyone that i have H. He said he would before.

I hate being so caring and giving. I wish i could be heartless and careless like my boyfriend. He doesn't even act like he cares if i were to break up with him. I'm so fucking depressed all i want to do is sleep i have no motivation to do anything. I have no friends! Thats what hurts the most is the fact i have literally no friends. The only friend i have is my boyfriend but we are on the verge of breaking up. I want to so bad but i also want to be with him and try to work things out Ive been tryin but not succeeding because i feel like im the only one puttin in effort. As of right noe he is ignoring me again. Even thoufh i can see that he is online on facebook. Why is it so hard for me to just say fuck it and break up with him? This is exactly same shit i went thru with my ex and it took me 3 yrs to finally break up with him. I need friends bad but its hard to even make friends. I have anxiety and depression and now this stupid H.

Hi i know this has nothing to do with H but i really need someone to talk to. Me and my boyfriend have been doing nothing but fighting lately and i just been feeling really down and can't stop thinking about him and wanting to talk to him when hes not around but he doesn't like to be bothered so i really need friends to hang out with and talk to and keep me busy so i can keep him off my mind. If there is anyone who would like to be friends feel free to message me anytime. My boyfriend always gets this tone with me with everything i do and it really just makes me feel like I can't do anything right like im not appreciated. All i want is some attetion and affection and i tried talking to him about this and he said he would try to show more but it only worked that day i talked to him about it and now hes back doing the same stuff. Gets irritated anytime i try to talk to him when he's not around. He barely even contacts me at all. Ignores all my messages i send him. Denies my calls. I dont want to think this was but im really starting to think he might be cheating on me. Maybe giving another girl that love and attetion that he should be giving me. And i just feel like he doesnt even care if we were to break up. Shouldnt a boyfriend who says they love you be afriad to lose you? I don't understand. Every relationship ive been in ive been unappreciated and just felt like im not wanted or cared about. Am i being too clinggy for wanting to stay in contact? I really feel unwanted and everytime we argue he claims hes going to leave then i try to do everything i can to get him to stay. I've been feeling real depressed thinking maybe i should break up with him but then i stop and think what other guy is going to be with a 22 yr old girl who has herpes?! All guys my age will just think im a hoe or been a hoe and thats how i got H. I dont even know how i got it!!!! It's just hard for me because i struggle with bipolar depression and this has just been waring me down like i dont want to do anything but just sleep. I don't wven want to get out of bed and spend time with my nieces and my dog. I feel bad because they want to hang out with me and all i wanna do is lay in bed because im feeling depressed. Idk what to do. I wish i could just not be depressed anymore. I really want to be with my boyfriend and try and make things work but its hard when he's not putting in any effort to try and treat me better and make me actually feel from his actions how he says he feels about me. Maybe he really doesnt care because people show their true feelings thru their actions. Words dont mean a thing when you cant back up what you say. I really feel like there is going to be a break up happening soon if this continues. I'll be seeing him again in a couple days maybe i should wait to try to talk to him again then? Idk what to say that will get thru to him. He doesnt care and makes that clvery clear to me by always saying it when we argue. Why do i want someone who doesnt even make me feel wanted?! We didnt start arguing like this til we found out i have H in the beginning of july. Could this be the reason why he acting the way he is? He's resenting me and neglecting me. I just want to be loved why is so hard to find someone to love me for me?!

Where can i get some daily probiotics to take?

Is it possible to have another OB in the middle of taking the perscribed meds and if so does that mean the medicine isnt working?

Haha thats funny! I have another question! I've been having this really weird sharp pain in my left thigh that feels like im getting stabbed or a bruise. Its nothing like a sore muscle pain. I tried looking at my leg to see if i had a bruise but there's nothing except i can see my vein where it hurts and its dark purple. Its tender to touch and hurts to walk when i put pressure down on my leg. I was wondering if this was a nerve problem and had to do with me having another OB. I also have been extremely itchy in my vagina and butt! The itchyness is so irritating i mainly feel the most itching when im laying down trying to go to sleep. I also noticed another bump it doesnt hurt nearly as bad as my first OB and i went to the doctor and am now on suppresive therapy with 400mg of acyclovir that i have to take twice daily. I'm not sure if this medicine is going to work because when i was perscribed it the first time i was supposed to take it 3 times daily for 10 days after the 4th day my symptons were gone but then 3 days later i started noticing the really itchy feelings and have been feeling it since i finished those meds so I'm assuming i was having a second OB in the middle of taking those pills. And I'm still in the middle of my second OB but just started the suppresive therapy 2 days ago.

He told me about a small pimple like bump in his penis and i asked him how it was making him feel if he was having any other symptoms and he said it just felt irritated when it rubbed against his clothes but after a couple days the bump disappeared. I'm not sure when the results will come back but I'm assuming in about a week.

My bf is going to get tested tomorrow. They are going to do a blood test. I feel like hes going to come back negative because he's not having symptoms. Is it weird and selfish that i kinda want his to come back positive? For some odd reason i just feel like maybe he won't want to be with me anymore if his test come back negative. And i also wanted to know if im on suppressive therapy and not shwoing symptoms will he still be able to give oral and touch me down there and not get it? Because i feel like he's too scared to even touch me anymore because he thinks he's going to get it.

Yeah i don't think thats right.

I just had a swab done of my bumps, No blood test. My doctor said she won't put me on suppresive therapy unless ive had multiple outbreaks within one year. She isn't my primary doctor though. I only went to her because my primary doctor wasn't able to get me an appointment until September. Should i contact my primary doctor amd let him know whats going on and see if he can put me on suppresive therapy?

He is my boyfriend not my husband.

What if my boyfriends test results come nack negative? How would that be possible if we have been having unprotected sex the whole 6 months we been together? I'm scared He is going to think i was cheating if his does come back negative. I keep telling him to go back and ask the doctor for a herpes test because he didnt when he went the first time. He said he scared and doesnt want to know. Idk what to do to get him to be serious amd go. Everytime i bring up anything that has to do with herpes he gets agitated at me. I'm just scared of having more outbreaks and I had my first one when i was on my period. I have another period comimg in two weeks im scared another ob might happen. On top of all that I think i might be having a second outbreak. I'm feeling a little weak and itching and tingling sore feeling down there. I havent noticed any new bumps yet. But the medicine i was perscribed was only for 10 days and i have 2 days worth of pills left after today.

Is there any support groups in the southern illinois/ missouri area?