YoungOne

I always believed that god doesn't put you into situations that you can handle but I don't know of I can believe that anymore . I know I'm a strong girl but I don't know of I'm strong enough to handle this . It's to overwhelming . I feel like I don't deserve this . I know what I did was stupid and I regret it so much . The pain is unbearabley and there's nothing I can do about it . I'm just another statistic , young and dumb like the rest of them . I know my life isn't over but it sure feels that way . If this is what I have to look forward too then I don't have much too look forward to . The pain is excruciating makes me wanna cry all day . I'm disgusted with myself. I'm such a disappointment , to myself and others. Everyone thinks I'm such a nice beautiful girl but they would probably beg to differ if they knew the real me . They say they wont look at you any different but I know for sure they do . I have noone , I'm in this alone . My whole body hurts inside and out . I'm hopeless . Everyday tasks are like challenges to me now . I alwys feel sick and tears seem to be always stingy my eyes . I try to be happy but the thought haunts me . I really don't know of I can do this . Wish I could just disappear . Will I ever feel the same ?

Your story really spoke to me because I am young too , younger than you I'm 16. My first outbreak was kind of like the one you described and the feelings as well. I had lots of support from my mom and Bestfriend ( not so much my partner) but still felt as if I was alone. the thing that really got me through the pain was to just think about and realize that life goes on and that herpes won't control your life if you don't let it. Also knowing that the first outbreak is the worst and that it does get easier as time goes on . I really hope that you stay strong , you can get through this .. We all did Xoxo YoungOne ❤

I just thought I'd share my story , since I have never done so. I was seeing this boy for about 6 months and we finally decided to do "it". It was great but then the very next day I started to feel horrible. I had a fever and was in so much pain. I googled my symptoms ( I google everything ) and after lots of reading figured that I just had tearing "down there " which was common for your first time. But just two days later in the shower I felt bumps "down there " and broke down in tears in the shower because I kinda just knew what it was. I let week go past before telling anyone because I felt disgusting and felt people would judge me. But soon I was in so much pain I couldn't walk so I told my mom. I went to the doctor and they ran some test and gave me medication for my pain. 2 weeks later the doctors office called me and confirmed that I have hsv-1 . And that's how it all started .