Taytaaaayyy

@2Legit2Quit l Keep feeling like I'm starting my period but it's not blood. Im not sure if it's recurrent with obs because I'm still healing from the initial which I had bumps all over including where my pubic hair is. I wasn't in pain though ...

My main question is with the vaginal discharge that comes with having H. Does the discharge ever stop or will it happen forever? Does anyone else experience this also ...?

@Anna01 you are so right. And I understand all that. I never legitimately judged people that had H before because H never even crossed my mind... Thank you for talking to me. I'm gunna go get tested and let you know what comes of it.

Hi!! I am a 21 year old female from Pittsburgh pa. Looking for anyone in my area to talk to and be buddy's. Or anyone that is a veteran with H that I can talk to having a really hard time. Recently diagnosed and extremely depressed :(

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@Anna01 I'm trying so very hard to get the stigma part out of my head but I joined a herpes dating site just to see what kind of people have H and everyone that I see on there are exactly who I thought would have this. I know that I'm so fixed on physical things, it's hard not to. But I'm not shallow by any means, I adore people with great personality and good values. I have many friends and don't discriminate anyone for anything. I do not know anyone with herpes or any std unfortunately:( before this has happened to me I didn't know anything about herpes I just thought girls that slept around got it and that don't take care of themselves. I am the last person I would ever imagine to get this :( this world is so messed up. I wish stuff like this never existed or that everyone on this earth had it so it wouldn't be stigmatized at all. All of your words are so incourging and really sinking into me, thank you so much for talking to me. Wishing I had someone close to Pittsburgh that is going thru the same and we could go out and have coffee or lunch and just talk and not feel alone

@2Legit2Quit really? I did that at work earlier and everyone I look at seems so happy and I'm sitting there with no smile or caring about anything that's going on around me just trying to get thru the day so I can go home and sleep. I so wish I could enjoy the things I got so happy about like how happy I was to get off work. I no longer even care I was thinking in my head "oh well I'm getting off work cool.. I still have herpes why be happy"

@2Legit2Quit I know I know I know. It's just really hard because I feel most people don't have this :( This is what has been going thru my head. But I have gotten cold sores on my lips before, doesn't that mean I can't get it down there?

@Anna01 I just feel there is no people that I'm friends with or that live in my area have this like me. It's sad to think about how could this happen to me. But as for my boyfriend I'm 100% positive he did not have this he's very respectful and hasn't had many partners. His parents brought him up very good. In some bad way I hope he has it so we can go thru this together... Is that bad for me to think that way?

I can't find any for the Pittsburgh, pa area :(

@Anna01 I will try my hardest to do everything you said I just cannot believe this happened to me. I wish I could feel normal again. I know that life isn't about physical or material things. I just now realize how perfect my life was before this all started. I keep thinking well I would be so freaking happy with my life right now if this wasn't what I have to deal with now :'( My symptoms are H to a tee :( First back in May I had a really bad cough and then lost my voice for no reason Then I thought I was pregnant at the beginning of June because I had abnormal discharge but then I ended up getting my period. The end of June I noticed a bump when I was shaving wasn't red or inflamed or even hurt at all but I just thought it was from shaving so I thought nothing of it and around the 4th I looked again with a mirror and was like wtf is that so I popped it and it hurt and started bleeding after that I started to get worried I kept checking myself down there a million times even at work in the bathroom got on the Internet and started reading. Well from checking myself so much it was spreading, when it spread to my pubic hair line it burned and felt like it was throbbing. That didn't last long but I have had no pain while peeing so then I shaved and got little bumps where i shaved but as of right now I'm still trying to healing everything down there

@fitgirl I was at work when I looked on here and read your comment. Ran to the bathroom and cried, your words are so kind and meaningful. Thank you so much for taking the time out to say all that. i really don't know how I'm going to deal with this.. How do you have joy in life again? Will I ever be happy again? I used to be so happy to do the simplest things like eat food and watch movies, now I just lay there or try to sleep so I can't think. I really need help

@2Legit2Quit he is a very respectful guy and treats women how they should be treated I just know that he wouldn't have this and I'm terrified it's going to ruin our wonderful relationship. I feel suicidal because I am a very attractive girl and very fit. Now I have this, I feel disgusting and nobody will see past it even though I'm attractive. The thought that I won't be able to have sexual freedom with my boyfriend hurts me so much. I just can't live a life with an std I would rather be dead.

I've been reading almost every discussion on this website for the past month. It's helped me in someways but the past week I have had contsant thoughts of suicide especially when I'm at work, I have even researched ways to kill yourself.. I have no told my boyfriend about this or anyone for that matter, I haven't went to get tested but I know for a fact I have H. This depression I have is so crippling. I used to a fun 21 year old be so happy and bubbly and enjoyed life...now that all is gone I have no quality of life and people have notice a change in me.