Hello! My name is Sammy, 20 years old, and yesterday I found out that I have HSV-1 and HSV-2. I assumed for awhile that I had already contracted HSV-1, but it never really bothered me. I was never the type to sleep around or much honestly. I usually just slept with a good friend of mine every week or so, but we stopped talking. I went to this party about a week or so ago and it just happened. It was unprotected and that was it.
The next day I just had a feeling I contracted something, so I asked Google like a moron and immediately thought I was now HIV+. So I paid for the test and made sure they checked for everything. I was a little worried, and then I forgot about it. Time went by and I just lived my life as I usually do dealing with parents, stress, and school. Yesterday morning I got "the call." The doctor seemed as cheery as usual. Took her sweet time with andddd you don't have HIV and the other STD's. Then she finally told me I had HSV-1, oral herpes, and that I was weakly positive for HSV-2. I didn't really know what to say since I didn't know much about it. She said if I start seeing blisters down there to come by and get started on treatment and that was it.
I called my cousin immediately since I almost had a panic attack and she assured me that I was fine and that she knows plenty of people with it that have a healthy, happy, normal life and that she was just happy I didn't get a girl pregnant or contract HIV. I wanted to tell my parents, but she said it would be horrible and they would not take it well at all. I brought up the topic to my mother today to see her opinion on it since she did have chicken pox and her mom had shingles. Of course she said a cold sore was NOT herpes and that only dirty people catch it and what not. I feel like shit, but it is what it is. Until society views genital herpes like they do cold sores, I guess this is just how it is.
I haven't had an outbreak yet, so that makes me a little nervous, but I have my cousin who will help me through this. Should I start on that suppression medication or not? Do creams help at all? How do I know when an outbreak is going to occur? I can't lie, I'm scared.