Blessings55
I know how you feel. I found out two yrs ago that I had it and am still learning how to deal with it. I wish you all the best and if you need someone to talk to I will be more than happy to listen. I still cry about it sometimes because I don't really have any close friends that can or will help me talk about it. The guy I am dating knows about it but when I bring it up he changes the subject. So if I can help you in any way please feel free to contact me.
Lots of Love,
Scorpion74