souljourney123

You're right S123 , at this point I am my own most worst enemy.....and because of what Ive read here, my friend and I still speak because I need to get passed my own hurdles and see where it takes me....

I appreciate that a lot, I re-read my post a little time after and realized that I over reacted because I am carrying negative emotions right now. I am confident that as time goes on and I learn more, I will feel better.

I am recently diagnosed as well, 4/2016. I have felt more negative than positive about this but reading this has helped along with the positive support I have gotten on this forum also. I will try your suggestions for sure....thank you

I needed to read this, thank you

I recently disclosed to someone who asked for a second chance. I was scared and embarrassed along with every other emotion imaginable to someone who was diagnosed 4 months ago. I gave the person time to soak in what was said.....finally the result......I was told "herpes, well if youre gonna get an std, that's the one to get, hahahaha"....... No idiot, I thought to myself, but I smiled cause quite honestly I had no idea how to react. Needless to say that I see why H and disclosure is not a bad thing after all. I still cry and I still try to see the positive, even when my inner girl says otherwise, but I know that if someone could start off being supportive but make jokes after what was said, then that person is not for me.

@optimist, thank you for your words because it was feeling like a confession and that was leaving me vulnerable because I was judging myself along the way, it was like my own personal punishment.

I currently am going through a grieving process, it does not feel like it will change for me though. I was always such a positive woman, learning and loving life. I feel the same as you, how can I date now?. How can I feel the same?....when I disclosed I did get a positive response but the person walks away with a choice, I don't, so I punish myself and lie to myself saying that I don't need anyone anyway, but that's not true, I want my soul mate, but I would have to disclose to him too. morally and ethically the right thing to do...

Thank you both so much, I do feel some relief.

I disclosed that I have herpes to a past partner because he wanted a second chance, saying and hearing myself say those words scared the hell out of me because I'm still in denial. I have a new responsibility now, not only to future potential partners but to myself as well. After my tears and nervousness faded I was relieved because I received support and love/hugs, I felt better. But it doesn't change the fact that I have Herpes. If by chance I don't ever hear from him again I will,sad as it may seem, understand, but I disclosed and for that I'm relieved. It changes the whole perspective and I still cry, if I am meant to be alone so be it. I'm thankful for this forum and the ability to express myself without judgment, thank you.