crm2010

I would love to have a support buddy who if female please! I'm new to the whole thing and just need someone who understands what I'm going through...someone to help lift me up with encouragement. I live in Dayton Ohio!

So when I got my test results back last week they informed me that I had simplex 1.it is gh. I have tried to do research on the internet for what's the difference between simplex 1 and 2. Also on gh in general. Almost everything I read contradicts the last thing I read. How does simplex one affect you differently in the genital area than simplex 2? I'm hoping that the good things I read are true like typically its not as severe because its out if its area. Idk it just all confuses me. Since I've only known for a week that I have it. I'm already starting to come to terms with the whole thing and accept that I have it...I've realized there's nothing I can do about it since we all know that I well have it the rest of my life.there are times I just sit there and cry when I wonder how will I tell people in my life since before my sex life was so open.it has definitely opened my eyes to be more safe and maybe now I will get to know someone before jumping in bed with them.sorry I'm rambling I just need to get it out.I took the valtrex that the doctor prescribed me and I believe it helped a lot.also idk if this is weird but I put desitin on my sores and they were healed up quite a bit the next day.is it better to take the antibiotic everyday got the rest of my life or just when I'm having an outbreak? Id prefer to not have them or have as few as possible...I was in so much pain and I work in the medical field and I could barely walk...I don't want this to undereye with my job

I just found out 2 days ago that I have gh! I actually had no symptoms then one day I was wiping and felt one.I thought oh well its probably just an infected hair or something from shaving the next day I had some bumps around my rectum...the only time they bothered me was at night...they would start itching really bad and I couldn't sleep.it took me several days to admit to myself that it was time to go to the doctor.I was scared and ashamed.now my sores have opened I guess at least that's how itfeels...I'm in so much pain out hurts to move it hurts to walk I just want to curl up in a ball until it passes.I haven't had the courage yet to talk to anyone I know about this issue.I'm dealing with it alone and I don't even know how to feel about it.but I'm with dtlm444...if its true that the first is the worst I will be able to conquer this...hoping that at this point its almost over.I'm about a week into my outbreak...I hope its over soon!

I found out 2 days ago that I have gh! For the past 2 days I have been so completely alone.I feel confused honestly.confused because I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel.I have no idea who to talk to.everywhere I turn I fear that no matter who I talk to they will all find me disgusting.when in the urgent care to get tested the doctor or nurses gave me no time.the doctor said here's your prescription and walked out of the room without allowing me to ask any questions or even telling me what medication he was putting me on...the nurses rushed out of the room also while I sat in tears of devastation. The only thing I can think is how could I be so stupid I've been taught safe sex my entire life and just never thought it would happen to me.well here I am today with gh that I have to live with forever.sorry I don't mean to offended anybody I just needed to vent a little.I haven't told anyone yet.so I have a few questions.is it true that your first outbreak is the worst? How long does it take to get over the way I feel emotionally? What can I do to get rid of the pain because I'm in horrible horrible pain I can barely move. And any encouragement or advice would be so helpful! Thank you!