For me, it has been devastating being diagnosed with herpes. I am one of the most non judgemental individuals I know but.........and this is a big one, most individuals I know are very judgemental. I'm not sure if it is the bible-belt I live in or just the circle of people I know but I always find it so surprising how non-understanding people can be. I have disclosed and been accepted briefly and then they changed their mind after protected sex with meds and I have been rejected as well. After 8 years of having herpes, I still can't disclose without tears in my eyes and shame in my voice choking on tears. Being an educated person and well informed, reading every piece of information I can get my hands on I feel as if I'm as informed as someone can be on this virus. I will always continue to follow information but being an overly emotional individual doesn't help matters at all. So much so, I've been celibate for over 7 years and 3 months. That fear of rejection has cause me to isolate myself, romantically speaking. Being deathly afraid of rejection, I sabotage the relationship before anything can actually develop.
Just be proud of yourself that you are willing to get out there. I admire that greatly.
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