BlueAlexis

I got the HSV 2 less than 3 mo ago with a guy I had been dating steadily for a few months. He never had any symptoms, but my body immediately reacted when it came into contact with it. I had the all out fever and chills...it sucked. Doc said there weren't even antibodies in my blood yet when I went to go get tested. Fast forward, dating someone new. We moved too fast and we had sex before I could disclose. I came clean to him last night, it was our 3rd time meeting up. The look on his face was of pure horror, it's what I mostly remember from the whole ordeal. He let me talk but looked utterly shocked. Before I said anything his hand was on my leg but as I came out he physically moved away from me and I felt like a fucking lepur. He asked for time to think. We texted today and in a nutshell he said he couldn't risk it, that the fun wasn't worth it. He's also freaking out that he got it, I explained the facts. I'm not sure he absorbed it all. This hurts soooo bad. It's such an icky feeling, being rejected for something I was given and can't control having. Please tell me this gets better. I don't want to ever disclose this to anyone again at this point.