Hello All,
Well to make a long story short I got tested a week after having sex with my partner. My result came back Equivocal so my partner got tested. He got his results back today and he is positive for hsv2. When I got my equivocal reading a couple weeks ago I had the most intense mental breakdown. All I could hear was equivocal for herpes and you are going to die tomorrow. Not the case obviously. I confided in my best friend and I began doing my research. I would not call myself a herpes expert by any means but I have become so educated about it these last couple weeks. I am not as stressed about it and I realized my life would continue. :) Now my status is currently not negative but not positive. I tested too soon and plan to retest to know 100% where I stand. I of course hope to fall into that negative range but considering his positivity and even though we were very safe I have to be realistic at the possibility of having it. I am happy I found this site and everyone on here is so helpful and inspiring. I have found so much peace after reading posts and learning about everyone's struggle and life. I went through such a wave of intense emotions at the mere thought of this happening to me. Everything was so surreal feeling and I got stuck in the land of regret and what if. I cannot change my actions and I cannot control what result I will have. What's done is done and now I have to deal with it. I am choosing to be happy and not stress too much over this. Easier said than done, but I stressed myself out to the max with the first week I dealt with this. It is annoying to have to hang out in limbo because I'm dying to know where I stand. A part of me feels I will indeed have it but then again there is hope and a chance that I won't. I just want to thank everyone here for being so honest and real about such a common issue in life. I had my own thoughts on herpes and saw it as a horrible dirty thing only promiscuous people get stuck with. It can happen to anyone and this guy I was with was the 2nd person I've slept with. Scary. Even if I do end up with a negative hsv status I am so much more educated and compassionate to people that have herpes. I see it in a totally different light, and if I am positive I am ready to tackle it. I have the realization of knowing this isn't the worst thing that could happen to me. I also know that I have an extended online family to embrace me. I will keep you all posted as my case is probably an interesting one.