AbbeygaleMc

H for happiness!

When I had what seem to be a scratched skin two years ago down there, well atleast that was the doctor said... I am not sure if I had experienced anything else after that.. Then last March there was flu like symptoms, back and shoulder ache then presto three big blisters down there.. What's so ironic is that I never had anything in three months... I mean sex. So I was like what the hell is this? In the internet, they said that initial attack would include flu like symptoms and muscle pain and that prodrome is tingling, itching and burning. But the thing is, when the doctor put me in Acyclovir...the sores went away quickly like within three days and five days after like I got my period I had one small blister again...so I needed to take the meds again for five days and after that I experienced flu like symptoms again for a few days without any tingling, itching, burning. Then I had unprotected sex. The day after I had the tingling, itching and bumps.. The day before that I went to see the doctor asking her if I am having an outbreak especially because I wasn't well for a few days already. She said I'm fine no sign of lesions she took some vaginal discharge and said that no hsv at the moment just some bacterial infection. So i need to take antibiotics. The sex probably triggered the OB or is it asymptomatic shedding? She said the fever might be something else and that if I feel pain down there then that would be n outbreak? Does that made sense? The bacterial infection was understandable on my part because I have been tinkering with my flower for like hundred times a day always on the look for lesions somewhere else... Really paranoid. I still get low grade fever up until now that the last OB are almost healed. Which i suspect probably from my blood pressure as I am very tensed since March and more since I made a mistake of sleeping with a guy without saying hey I probably can't. I get normal temperature when I try to calm myself.. And please shed some light on me with regards to the prodromal symptoms...would that be flu and itch nd stuff or just the itch. I am a bit confused as I get migraine heasaches since I was 13. But this times, sometimes I'd have severe headache then itching after a few days or sometimes only flu lie symptoms and headache. I'd always suspect for an OB. i just wanna be familiar with my own symptoms. The first time I saw this doctor last March I am not so sure if she made the viral culture or just ocular inspection. And when I suggested what about I take the blood test she said I can but I don't have to because I will get the same result. Sometimes I think I don't want to come back to her anymore...

Thank you so much AllInADaysWork. I really appreciate the time u r giving for me. It's like a big warmth hug. And I badly needed that right now. I guess I am still in denial. Haven't figured out anything. But I've had some piece and period of calmness these past few days compared to last week. The past days even if I was reading a lot of good stuff from here my ears and my mind are just so bloated that it can't hear and can't understand. I was asking myself how were u guys able to do that...be positive amidst all these. Well a lot of people tells me that I am a strong person. But right now I am at my lowest and weakest point. The fact that I might be able to hurt someone these much. Funny as it my seem, I am actually asking for a miracle...for God's miracle so that my friend wouldn't be able to suffer from all these. And guess what I know that if I rise above from here H will give me a new perspective cuz it makes me realize what I've been through, where I was heading. It might be another chance, another life from God. Another miracle. Please pray for me that I get past thru this. And be a happy person again. Thanks 4 d LOVE!

When I had what seem to be a scratched skin two years ago down there, well atleast that was the doctor said... I am not sure if I had experienced anything else after that.. Then last month there was flu like symptoms, back and shoulder ache then presto three big blisters down there.. What's so ironic is that I never had anything in three months... I mean sex. So I was like what the hell is this? In the internet, they said that initial attack would include flu like symptoms and muscle pain and that prodrome is tingling, itching and burning. But the thing is, when the doctor put me in Acyclovir...the sores went away quickly like within three days and five days after like I got my period I had one small blister again...so I needed to take the meds again for five days and after that I experienced flu like symptoms again for a few days without any tingling, itching, burning. Then I had unprotected sex. The day after I had the tingling, itching and bumps.. The day before that I went to see the doctor asking her if I am having an outbreak especially because I wasn't well for a few days already. She said I'm fine no sign of lesions she took some vaginal discharge and said that no hsv at the moment just some bacterial infection. So i need to take antibiotics. The sex probably triggered the OB or is it asymptomatic shedding? She said the fever might be something else and that if I feel pain down there then that would be n outbreak? Does that made sense? The bacterial infection was understandable on my part because I have been tinkering with my flower for like hundred times a day always on the look for lesions somewhere else... Really paranoid. I still get low grade fever up until now that the last OB are almost healed. Which i suspect probably from my blood pressure as I am very tensed since March and more since I made a mistake of sleeping with a guy without saying hey I probably can't. I get normal temperature when I try to calm myself.. And please shed some light on me with regards to the prodromal symptoms...would that be flu and itch nd stuff or just the itch. The first time I saw this doctor last March I am not so sure if she made the viral culture or just ocular inspection. And when I suggested what about I take the blood test she said I can but I don't have to because I will get the same result. Sometimes I think I don't want to come back to her anymore...

@AllInADaysWork: Thank you so much for your comment. I am still down and out and in the drain till this moment. I still haven't found the courage to tell him. It's geting the best of me. :( :-S

I got diagnosed only last March. I think I know with whom I got it from but he never told me or most likely he never knew. I am trying to be in touch with him but no chance...that was two years ago..but I didn't knew all along..especially when the first doctor told me that it was just a scratched skin and it went away quickly. But this year was a shock. I know it is mild compared to another's outbreak..I don't even feel any pain aside from the mild burning feeling that you get if u have a scratch or small wound. But then again it was devastating for me. My doctor said it would go away when I finish my meds cycle which did for a few days then came back again when I had my menstruation so I need to take antiviral:'s again for a few days. It has been a month since but then I always feel that I have the prodrome because I always feel that I have fever inside... so I haven't felt like the same old me...been miserable. There were days that I would just tinker on my v to look for something. A few days back I was with my doctor and she assured me I am not having an outbreak and probably my fever is something else and that I don't have to worry. But wo knows, right?! H is getting the best of me...feels that I am sinking at the bottom of my own sea. :'(

I just learned my diagnosis a month ago... My doctor said I could have acquired it way back... I am still in denial. Since I had the outbreak last month... I have been depressed since then so I guess the trigger for outbreaks are very strong. I haven't told anyone yet... I didn't have the guts yet it's killing me inside... To make things worse... I recently slept with a guy that I consider a very good friend. It was unprotected... Spur of the moment... I wasn't able to tell him that and I am pretty scared that I might transmitted it to him. He told me just a few hours after that he felt swelling/sore in his gums and the pain radiates up into his head. I am so scared... I don't know how to say it, it's like I don't have the heart to tell him and yet I know I need to but I don't know how, the fact that I wasn't able to tell him before that big night.... I feel that my life is going down the drain... I hate waking up in the morning... I cannot even eat properly. Don't know what to do...