Thought I'd post an update on my first week since finding out I have H.
After a very tearful 2 days I finally got the courage to let the ex know (who had been asking to see me again). I did it via text which I know many may think is not the right way to go about it, but our communication was always mostly via messages (and honestly, I had to get it off my chest as quickly as I could; and I just didn't have the strength to do it face to face).
It was agonising waiting for a reply. His response was initially "wtf", "you definitely didn't get it from me!", "I've been faithful", and then progressed to "I don't want to loose you over this" and "I miss you".
I don't think he fully understood what I was telling him (which is understandable as it takes a bit of time) - or what H really means - I think he thought it was an infection which I'd take meds for and happily move along. I've tried to be clear and give him all info I can but I'm still not sure he fully grasps it. And he doesn't realise that its highly likely he could have given it to me!
The possibility that he may not have H has been really difficult to cope with - cause there is that possibility! And then, how I deal with that.
He's since agreed to have a urine test, which I'm not convinced is accurate enough if he's not showing any symptoms. I'm waiting for my GP to get back to me with advice (if anyone here can advise please do!).
We saw each other yesterday, and had protected sex. Him knowing my status and still wanting to be intimate was a huge step forward in this journey but I'm still feeling very unsure and confused.
So, I'm waiting for his results....
Thank you again to everyone who has shared on this forum - so helpful and reassuring.
Fran.