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  1. Thanks again for the replies. I didn't write every detail of my initial infection and diagnosis, but I am 100% sure I have oral HSV2. I'm not questioning which type I have – I just came to share how alone I'm feeling recently. Thanks for sharing your stories with me.
  2. Thanks for the kind response. I'm definitely HSV1-. The panel I had confirmed this. And the hospital probably did swab when I had the throat infection years ago — I think the doctors just danced around how the infection was contracted, since I had the root canal simultaneously. I don't blame them — I was just shocked no one was more clear about the HSV2 diagnosis. I know there are many herpes viruses — I just didn't know until last July that mine was HSV2.
  3. Hey. Visited this site in the past, but just joined today. I'm a professional guy, early 50s, gay — pretty discreet about it — and never acted on my sexuality until about 5 years ago. Met someone I wanted to date last summer, so to be responsible, I got a full STD panel — never slept around much and was convinced I was "clean." I was devastated to learn I'm HSV2+ — and my potential relationship disappeared. Hit me hard. I did have a nasty oral infection about 4 years ago — which I now realize was my first and only outbreak — but no one at the time said, "This is HSV2, which is generally known as genital herpes." I suppose I was very naive. I had a root canal at the same time, and I attributed the infection to that. My immune system is compromised by a different, nonsexual condition — so I understand how I contracted herpes — but I was still shocked by the news. After my diagnosis in July, I joined a paid site looking for support, but most guys there were only HIV+. Made one friend out of state, and we've become good friends — even visited each other a few times. For the last half of the year, I was feeling better about my life and didn't think much about having herpes. About a month ago, my friend discovered he was misdiagnosed. While we remain friends, he's moving on with his life — as he should. I like to think I'm emotionally mature, but I'm depressed — our common connection is gone and I feel more alone than ever. I've tried gay groups in my area in the past, but never fit in — don't think I'm "out" enough for them! (I'm pretty conservative in most regards) — and I'm burnt out in trying to find other gay friends. Not sure where I'm going with any of this — maybe I just need to vent. I suppose I'm realizing my best option is to lead an abstinent life — which has been true for a while — but at the same time, it makes me sad. Sorry to be such a downer. I have a feeling my mood will improve once I post this...
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