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So I just had my second outbreak on Sunday, and it's killing me mentally and emotionally. I still feel worthless and miserable, but I was finally starting to feel better until today. I'm taking the 1000mg twice a day until Sunday, and then my dr prescribed me 500mg once a day for a year (I start it Monday). My spots seemed mostly gone and I'm still continuing my 1000mg twice daily, but today it seems that they have come back?? And I'm still on my meds?! Is this normal? Is this possible? Obviously I think it is since I have it, but does anybody else have this?? It's like an outbreak within an outbreak and I was finally starting to feel better and today I broke down at work and had an anxiety attack. Is my medicine not working?? I'm taking it properly, every 12 hours and I haven't missed a dose! Someone please help me, I need guidance and someone to talk to.. I can't do this.

I just need some help. I'm going through a lot right now and knowing that I have this just makes everything worse. It haunts my sleep at night and it's the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep and it's what I think about the rest of the day. I can't stop stressing about it. I feel so gross and unlovable. I feel disgusting. Is there anything that anybody else does to help them? I feel so alone in this..

Thank you.. I didn't know if I was being "extra" when I threw those things away. I mostly shaved down there because I just wanted to make sure it wasn't razor bumps. But holy crap they burned like crazy. This was also my first outbreak.. Today I end my medicine for it finally and I feel like that's trying to kill me too. They're so big.. Mine went away about 3 days ago but from experience with other medicine when I was sick before, I'm definitely taking this all the way out.

So I'm 18 and a female. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year now and he knows. I am also sorry that this is going to be extremely long. I just found out last Monday that I am positive for HSV. I can't remember which one it was exactly because my Doctor called me with the results and I of course couldn't focus or listen. All I heard was you are positive for hsv and that's as far as I listened. But they are on my genitals (I read you can have both on your genitals apparently) and I just have so many questions and I need somebody to talk to. I got them from my boyfriend, and he already knows. We're very open about things in our relationship and before I even went to the dr I had mentioned that I was going because I had these bumps on my vagina. He's tried his best to comfort me and nothing is working. I'm taking the medicine for it and it ends tomorrow, but I feel like crap emotionally. It's like everything I do somehow relates back to my problem and I just get so upset at him and at life. We've been together for a long time and so I don't plan on leaving him over it, but I'm still really upset that we didn't take many precautions. We both knew he had it on his mouth, and we didn't do anything to prevent it. We also didn't know you could transfer it from mouth to genitals. But long story short, we both knew he had it and didn't think anything of it. We were always careful with not kissing and not doing oral when he had an outbreak and we didn't really do anything else to prevent it though. I recently got a new job and for it, I have to be tested for TB, and on the paper it asked if I was taking steroids or a certain type of drugs and I had asked about them because I wasn't sure what they were and they said what kind and they listed the medicine I'm currently on and they said "well we will more than likely have to retest you after you're off of your medicine. It can give false answers" so of course I felt like crap for that. And now doing more paperwork for that job (it's kind of a big job, a lot of confidentiality papers, finger printing, etc) I came across a paper saying that I should get a HBV shot and in it it was saying that since I will more than likely come in contact with blood, I could be coming into contact with HIV and I read that it's now easier for me to contract that since I'm HSV positive and my mind is just running a million miles a second. I have so many questions. I shave down there often and I thought they were just shave bumps at first so I didn't do anything about it until they became very painful. I eventually went to the dr because it had spread to my butt hole and I could barely even wipe. That's when I decided to go to the dr. So question number 1: Do I have to throw my razors away if I used them during an outbreak? Obviously I won't do it again knowing what it is now, but what if I were to do it right before and then I suddenly break out? 2: Do I have to throw away my wash scrubbie for the shower if I have an outbreak? 3: can it stay like in my laundry even after I wash it? On my medicine at one point, it got to where I couldn't even wear panties or pants because anything touching it bothered it SO much. I don't really know much about this and I just need help. I feel like crap emotionally and I find it hard to do things throughout my day. I'm a full time student at college and I'm about to become a part time worker again.