Andrea

Jessiw- Thank you for your comforting words. It's so sweet of you to reach out a hand and to do that for a complete stranger! Everything definitely has been surfacing, so many ups and downs these past few days. I keep having these moments of vulnerability when things slow down..little breakdowns. The quite moments I normally really enjoy seem to be filling up with thoughts i'd been keeping away throughout the day. Disbelief, betrayal, loneliness, shame, self worth, fear..it ALL surfaces. Its insanely psychological! Adrial- You are one hell of a man! I can honestly count every time someone has uttered the words "I'm proud of you". Each time it has brought me to tears :) . Out of all the negatives this virus has caused, I am getting a little closer to seeing the positives. So far it has been you guys and this part of me that has definitely woken up. I'm not sure if the awakening has brought more good than bad yet, but I guess this is all part of the process I am/will be going through. I know I have so much more to address and understand.

I was diagnosed with HSV-2 one week ago to date. I was lucky enough to find this forum very early on and I can't thank all of you enough for what you've shared. You guys are the only reason I was able to pull it together and get out of bed. I know I will get past this, but for some reason this feels different. Maybe because there's no cure or because I feel like i've let myself down. That light at the end of this road seems a bit dimmer. The disclosing has already gotten to me, even though its something likely far into my future. Its incredibly stressful. I just keep telling myself that life always works itself out, this is new, it will get better. I have loads of hope, but can't help but feeling down.