kaygee

After having symptoms for the first time last week, I was diagnosed with gHSV-1 about 5 days ago. Initially I was in shock the first day or two. The second day I gathered my thoughts, and called the doctor back to ask every question i had and get as much info as possible. I also confronted my partner (who I know I got it from) and he doesn't seem shocked, concerned, or apologetic in any way. I also think part of him knew he had this. (This is a guy I had been sleeping with for 6-7 months, a friends with benefits type thing. Slept with him only for these past months and never had an issue before him.) Day 3 I was more calm in some ways, but still very anxious. I confided in my closest friends, and felt better at the end of the day. Day 4 I started to feel some anger towards my partner (whom I had not communicated with since day 2), but also thought I was coming to terms with the fact I have herpes.Near the end of the day I felt empowered. I went to the gym and was just in a better mood Today is day 5 and I'm incredibly emotional. I've been on the edge of tears all day and incredibly sad, confused and angry at once. Im feeling super anxious and unmotivated. I've been in my room in bed for hours since I got home from work. I've been crying a lot and avoiding interacting with anyone, but at the same time need someone to talk to. I don't know what to do. Is this normal? Is this side effects from the valacyclovir? Is it a combination or something else? I feel alone and I'm scared of being alone. I don't want this to change my life. I feel like no one will want me.

Last week I went and got tested for herpes(1&2) because I was having symptoms in the vaginal area. It started as one sore/itchy bump that looked like a pimple, then over the next few days progressed into a few smaller, almost microscopic bumps that looked like tiny water blisters. The area was red, irritated, and sore to touch. So they took a swab of the area and a blood test. Yesterday they called saying the swab came back negative, but the blood test came back positive for hsv1 (oral herpes). I don't understand this because my symptoms were vaginal, and I've never in my life had any oral symptoms or never had cold sores. Also, how is it that the blood was positive, but the swab they took directly from the sore was negative? I'm going back in today because they want to run more blood tests. Could anyone give some insight on how this is possible or how it works?