Carmensandiego

Hey you! Are you feeling better?

I want to know before! Because condoms don’t always work. And shedding if more people were upfront we’d all be herpes free probably.

I stopped taking the meds because I didn’t have insurance so I had to pay the urgent care fees plus the examine every time I wanted the meds. I got my insurance covered away so now it’s all good.

I got diagnosed with hsv2 in April this year. Sometimes I forget I have it but when I get an OB I go back into depression mode. I have an OB like once a month. When I take my antivirals it’s like I don’t have it but if I slip up I get a sore. It’s just a constant reminder of how disgusting I feel. I was getting one sore around my BH and I’m like ok it sucks but I’m not getting it on my vagina until last night. I have 2 sores on my outter lip close to my inner thigh. I’ve never had anal so I was confused as to why it was only on my BH. But I understand the sores can show up anywhere. I’m really sad and it sucks not being able to tell my friends I have this and to open up. My boyfriend is supportive but he doesn’t have it so he doesn’t know my struggle. I’m also depressed because I’m not sure where I got it. I’ve been with him since Jan and found out I had it in feb/April. Blood tested neg but lesion tested positive. I was with someone in early December but he said he didn’t have it. And my boyfriend has never had an OB. So I think my depression comes from having no idea how I got it and just having it. I blamed my current boyfriend because it just made the most sense. But he swears it wasn’t him. Fml just shoot me in the fucking face. Sorry I’m super emo.

Thank you. Yes it’s hsv 2. It hasn’t gotten easier I’m still sad as fuck.

Hello I would like a h buddy either male or female it doesn't matter to me. It could be from anywhere in the world but if someone is from the Redondo beach area even better. Looking for anyone that is just recently infected or someone I could call and cry to. I'm super sad and depressed.

@hikinggirl it's all good I check on my phone too! I didn't ask the doctor which type. I'm going to call him tomorrow because I'd like to get on suppressive treatment. Yes, I assumed it was a hemmeriod but after lots of research realized a lot of people's first OB are in that area and mix the 2 up. Yes he got his tests done at lab corp. he's going back in Wednesday at 6 for another blood test. We are just trying to narrow it down because if it's not from him then it has to be me. And I would hate to give it to him. I'd just have to be very careful. It's just a fucking mess and I'm not okay right now. I wish I could hit the restart button and make it go away. I wish there was a cure for this shit.

@hikinggirl. I was tested in Jan 2017 for all std screening plus herpes. That all came back negative for hsv 2. I got tested because I thought I had a cyst on my ovaries turned out it was fiberiods. I met my boyfriend back in Jan the first week. We have sex about a month into dating. Shortly after that maybe 2 weeks I get a hemmiroid thing that was so itchy. I knew it was strange because I've had them before and this felt different because it was so itchy and I knew I hadn't went #2 for it to happen. Fast forward a month later I get an ulcer bear my butt followed by the hemmeriod. Then I got tested for herpes. He gave me his std screening papers and it read hsv 1/2 combination equivocal 1.07 high the range of herpes is 1.09 and higher. I was confused by that. Because his paperwork mixed them both. I'm aware he has it on his mouth. But I'm not sure how else I would have gotten it unless he's cheated. Obvious mine is new if my blood is testing negative and my ulcer is positive. The whole thing is messy and I'm feeling emotional and upset. We have no plans on breaking up and he's willing to stick this out with me. He's calling his doctor today to have his lab work clarified. If he's negative to hsv 2 then maybe my results from Kaiser were just faulty and I brought it into this relationship.

Update: my doctor said my swab tested positive for it....just feeling super sad right now with no one to talk to.

I understand your concerns as well. I had an ulcer that I found last week. Got my blood test back that said negative but I know my swab will be positive. Just waiting for the results. I told my boyfriend and I know it was him who gave it to me. It's been hard to come to terms with it but stay strong!

A few weeks ago I thought I had a hemorrhoid on my Bh. It was confusing because I couldn't remember anything to cause it. I've gotten them in the past so I could normally pin point the moment it would happen. This...not so much. It was itchy as hell too and was horrible. Fast forward a month later I'm finishing up at the gym and I notice that I'm sore in my genital area near my BH. I left it alone for a few days thinking it was irritation from me working out. But god it was extremely uncomfortable. So I take a look down there and right near my BH I see a very small ulcer. My heart fucking dropped I just knew it was herpes. And so I started to research and although I had one very small ulcer compared to the pictures in google I was way more mild but the ulcer looked like everyone's else's. Then the hemmoroid on my BH came again! After reading online I found out that most people think there first outbreak are hemmeriods and misdiagnose themselves. If it wasnt for this ulcer I would have done it again. I was a wreck, never cried harder. And I'm still confused because I figured this out less then a week ago. I had to call my bf and tell him the news. He couldn't have been more supportive and actually wasn't upset or freaked out at all. We have been together since January. Before we had sex we showed each other our STD paperwork and he was good and so was I. He had just been tested in December. I had the paperwork so I took a look again. And there it was on his. I hadn't noticed before because stupidly I just looked for HIV and all the other ones that said negative and was satisfied. His results read HSV 1/2 combination 1.07 high equivocal noreactive. The range equivocal was 0.9-1.09 and 1.09 and higher was positive and he's at a 1.07. I called him immediately and told him . He swore up and down that his doctor said he was ok. Call me stupid but I believe him. He told me if he knew of any herpes indication he wouldn't have let me have his std paperwork and let me keep it. Him and I both have HSV 1. Since we have been together we have both have had cold sores on different occasions. He's never gone down on me either. I went to get tested immediately and my doctor was convinced that I didn't have herpes. I am convinced. I just got my blood tests back tested positive for HSV 1 and negative for HSV 2. He also swabbed my ulcer which I'm currently waiting for the results. I believe my blood test came back negative because I haven't built up the anti bodies yet. We had sex for the first time in February. We waited a little over a month before sleeping together. He is blaming himself and is just as distraught at the idea of possibly giving me this STD. He has an appointment Monday to have his results clarified with his doctor. Because he's never had anything appear on his penis so he had no idea. I'm not dealing with it ok. I cry myself to sleep every night and hate that I had paperwork that I didn't read clearly. I'm wondering what equivocal 1.07 means and why was it tested as a combination and not broken down on his results as to what was what. My doctor called me and clarified my results. My doctor gave me 800mg of alvocylr 5 piils a day for 10 days. It's been 3 days and the ulcer is completely gone. No scab no nothing. I never got that initial tingling sensation either. I just hope my future outbreaks are very mild like my most recent one. I'll continue with my meds. I'm feeling pretty disgusting about myself and some anger against my boyfriend. I'm just confused and depressed. I can't believe I have herpes :(