Here is the story, and I'll try to be as concise as possible but I guarantee nothing. I am a rambler.
Me: First off, I get regularly tested whether active or not and I am H (-) (from browsing that seems to be the term, hopefully I get it right). I am male, in my thirties, widower (I'll never get used to that word) with 3 kids. I have been mostly alone and mostly by choice for over 3 years. I have dated off/on, some serious, some not. I had started to believe there was something wrong with me, that I would just not have those feelings again. I am a very objective person, that's just how my brain works, so I don't enjoy dating someone just to date or not be alone or get laid or whatever. I am 100% or 0. I love you or I don't, and if I don't, I don't waste either of our time. At some point I just thought maybe it's not for me. I had my chance at that life, and maybe now it's just single dad life. Then came..
Her: we 'met' (online via social media) several months ago. Quick disclaimer, I have met several people that way, let's just skip anyone's first instinct to warn me or dissuade me or tell me it's not real. I'm new to this site, but not to the planet. ;) Carrying on. Instant attraction in a way I've never felt. Enjoying it as much as possible but with that back of the brain blinker saying it could just be lust, we kept talking and flirting and getting stronger. Skipping the details of everything in between, jump to now. We have been talking all day every day for some time. She told me she loved me first, but I knew I did before that. She also told me she is H (+).
So let's be clear, because I signed up to this site for a reason. I love her in a pure way I may have never felt so strong and unquestionably. This did not dissuade me for one second. What I want to know, from real people in discussion and not google search results, is what am I getting into. What to expect. I want to hear from men and women, any advice, suggestions, questions, anything at all. I have made my decision and I made it well before she opened that up to me. I'm not losing love over this, it isn't even an option. So what I need is to be informed. Supported. And I need to know how to support her as well.
We have not physically met yet, but I plan to make it happen soon. As that nears, it brings me here. When I m sitting in front of the girl of my dreams, face to face and my heart is pounding with anxiety, happiness, fear, every single butterfly that can fit inside there and that moment comes where she hesitates and asks me if I'm sure I know what I'm getting into, I want to say with the proper information, preparation, understanding, empathy and total conviction that I do.
With that, I leave the floor open. :)