w8

Okay so a few weeks into my senior year of high school I was diagnosed . I had been dating someone . When I had felt symptoms , I asked him what was going on . He said he didn't know . He told me sorry but then he would give me half ass stories . Sometimes he would blame it on me BUT I know it was him because I got a phone call from my friend saying he was burning . So I took a break from him for 3 weeks . Got back together . Little did I know he had already slept with another girl unprotected that was much younger than I . And he didn't get treated . I feel so stupid ...I stayed with for so long because I just felt that I couldn't do better . I went off to college and left him in the past but I began to jump from relationship to relationship . I have disclosed before , and he accepted me , but it didn't work out . Now I'm trying to be single and CONTENT . I want to give myself a fresh start and do things differently in my next relationship . I have never had a guy tell me he loved me until AFTER we had sex. I'm trying to forgive myself for the reckless behavior and putting my health at risk . And the person that gave me HSV2 got physically abusive with me and emotionally abusive . It was hard to leave .. but I got fed up. He wasn't gonna change and I got tired of his shit . He is now in prison for 3 year for second degree assault but I still feel like I was in a bad place around this time last year and I get sad easily . No one will EVER understand what this feels like .