I was diagnosed with Herpes about a month ago. The outbreak was the most excruciating pain I've ever felt in my entire life. I ended up in the ER because I couldn't walk, or sit, or even go to the bathroom. It was absolutely humiliating. I'm doing a little better now, but I still feel so alone. I feel like I'm standing in a crowded room screaming, and no one even looks up. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror for a week after I was diagnosed. Who will EVER want to be with me? What have I done to deserve this?
I am a 24 year old female and I contracted it from a coworker who is twice my age...how foolish I am. I had everything going for me. Now I feel like everything has been ripped away from me in the blink of an eye.
My friends have been really supportive, but it's not the same. They don't know what it feels like. I don't know where to turn.
I absolutely LOVE(D) being single and enjoying all the things that come along with that...if you catch my drift. Now I feel like this will never be possible. Why would someone risk getting herpes just to be with me?
I don't know which way is up anymore. I feel so alone.