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  1. @100918 I haven’t heard from him tho. We texted a couple times the next day then he stopped replying and answering my calls. I texted him one last time and told him that I won’t text or call him anymore and I apologize for everything. He never replied back. I don’t know what to think. Why would he have sex with me and tell me that everything was still the same? I felt hopeful about us. I’m trying to stay positive and optimistic but it’s hard.
  2. @glassovy I’m like you right now I disclosed and now I feel like he has rejected me. He told me that he didn’t have a problem with and he still wanted to be with me but he’s acting different. He was very much in shock tho. I feel so awful. I just wish he would have kept it real.
  3. I really don’t know how to feel right now. I’ve been talking this guy, we live in the same but recently got acquainted with each other. Things have been moving pretty fast with us and I’ve been feeling like I’ve been really needed to tell him. Things have been getting hot and heavy lately and I haven’t had sex in about 9 months. I just feel like I was betraying him and being deceitful but I swear I’m not. He’s the first person that I’ve gotten this close too since my diagnosis. So I finally did last night he took the news ok, he was definitely in shock. We ended up having sex last night with a condom of course. But I just feel really weird now. Today he seems a dryer than usual I asked him if he had and questions or concerns, I tried my hardest to educate him too. He claims that he’s ok with and nothing change with us and he still wants us to eventually be together. But honestly I don’t know if I believe him. I’m so hurt but I am really happy that I told him. I also told him last night to please be honest and tell me if he don’t want to pursue this anymore it’s very understandable. I need some input about this.
  4. @[email protected]_hopp thanks for the advice. I just watched the video and it makes so much since. I like his approach. I don’t want to scare him away. I have to approach him the right way I’m looking forward to a positive outcome. I’m about to watch the video again. Thanks!!!!
  5. I finally met someone after 2 years of dealing with HSV. I don’t if it’s a summer time fling or what but it feels so right. I haven’t felt this good in a very long time. I haven’t been a man’s presence that I liked in a very long. I get butterflies when I’m around him. He keep me smiling. We took a really long walk on the beach last night. I felt normal again. We walked and talked about our past relationship and what we wanted in life. I wanted to to tell him so bad but I know it’s to early but I also know I can’t wait for ever and tell him either. How when do you disclose? I hate asking my friends or family because they don’t have it so they don’t get. They just like don’t tell him at all then one was like just cut it off before it gets to deep. I’m like I’ll never find anyone if that’s how I’m going to go about the situation. I don’t know what to do.
  6. I’m a 38 year old black women looking for friends/dating in the Milwaukee/ Chicago area. Honestly it don’t matter where you live I’m trying to leave the mid west any way lol. I’m a single mother and a nurse looking for love, support and new friends. I was diagnosed 2 years ago and I’ve been single every since. I’m a pretty good catch where I live I’m just afraid to disclose the truth. DM if you want to chat.
  7. Hey I looked into meetup I’m waiting on them to accept my request to join. I just want to meet someone in the same boat as me. I feel like we might appreciate each other more. Well I hope that’s the case.
  8. Hey where is everyone from? I’m in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Anyone from the Wisconsin or Chicago area? I’m a single black female that wants to make new friends and discuss what we have in common. I know my friends and family are tired of me. They don’t understand what I’m going through.
  9. I’m so afraid of being lonely the rest of my life. I’m scared I’m going to die alone. I hate myself so much for letting this happen to me I know better. I’ve been praying and praying that things get better for me. It’s been 2 years and I still feel the pain like it was yesterday. I have good days and bad days I’m definitely having a bad one now. I know if I had someone in my life that would accept me I wouldn’t feel as bad. This is a hurting feeling and I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. I know some feel like you don’t need a person to make you complete but it’s more to it. I have no sex life, no date life no nothing just work and take care the kids. I’m happy that I’m in a position that I can take care of my kids provide a nice home and nice things for us. I just want someone in my life to make feel good again. I swear 99% of the women at my job have someone in there life. I’m the 1% that don’t. 😢😢😢 I just want to be happy and love myself again 😔😔
  10. @CestLaVie I’m happy that everything turned out good for you. I’m praying that I will meet someone one day and except me . I’m so lonely and depressed I don’t know to do. I’m keeping it together for the most part but it’s rough.
  11. I told my mother first, then cousin, best friend, cousin, sister, 3 ex boyfriends lol we are still really good friends. I have two teenage daughters and I was going to tell them just to warn them and protect themselves . But they so nosey they saw it in my phone and they knew for about a year and never said anything. But I’m not mad at them for that. They found out on an accident and they hated the guy for it, which they are just now telling about. It’s crazy because know one really cares but me. I treat myself like I’m a different person but they always remind me that I’m the same person. I just wish everybody was that comfortable @My_dog_is_hungry I like what you said people lose interest when the victim doesn’t care. Your so right honestly I never thought about it like that but it’s true. When you don’t care know one else seems to cares. I’m scared to tell my co workers It’s other people I want to tell but I’m nervous. A lot of people always wonder why I’m single. I want to tell them but I’m scared. Just on how they will judge me. My co workers are nurses so the reaction might be mixed.
  12. Has anyone had any success with online dating? Sometimes I feel like that’s my only option . But I’m to afraid to post a picture. I get messages from guys but there not my type. A lot of the guys that I see I’m just not into even when I read their profile. Some just want to hook up and that’s it. And other with potential is so far away. I’m also scared of being catfishes. I think that’s another reason why I don’t have a picture up. I had my pictured up on another dating site years before the virus and this guy saw me in public and called my name I was so nervous and scared.......Should we stick to the same standards we had before our diagnosis? I feel like we should but then part of me says woman be happy that someone is interested in you 😔. I don’t want to lower my standards just because I want love but then part of me tells me that you have to compromise. I just don’t want to settle for less at all. I did that with my giver for a year and half no more! What’s a good dating site that doesn’t cost an arm and a leg. I’m a nurse so, I just want to meet a nice successful guy between the age 32-45. I’m 38 but I don’t look at all. I just want to be happy and healthy.
  13. So I am a Black women from the Midwest and I was diagnosed 2 years ago. I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster ever since. My closets friends and family know about my condition. They all are very cool about it honestly, it’s nothing to them and I’m so happy for that. They love me unconditionally. I live in a small community and I’m scared to death to disclose it. A lot of guys try to talk to me but I keep my distance. I’m so afraid that they won’t accept me and they will talk about me and tell everyone. My Ex gave this to me and he didn’t disclose it at all. It seems like people talk down on this more than HIV where I come from. Every one thinks that your nasty without knowing how you contracted the virus. I’m so lonely and depressed I don’t know what to do. Some days I think I’m going to honestly go insane because I know I’ll be alone for the rest of my life. And I’m only 38. I’m a nurse at a hospital and I work with a lot of women and everybody has someone in their life except for me. Some days I just cry and cry it hurt so bad. My question really is do other races have trouble with acceptance and disclosing? Are Black men accepting of the virus? I’m not trying to make this a racial thing at all I swear I’m not I’m just wondering. Maybe it’s not my race just where I live IDK but it’s horrible. Some days I hate myself so much for what he did to me. I just want my life back and to be happy again . I’ve given up hope and I want to regain it again. 😢😢💔💔
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