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@optimist yes i take them every day....still struggling

My first OB was the end of June. Since then I basically have had constant outbreaks. When the OB's are bad, I will get raised sores that hurt a little on my outer labia. Usually I will get tingling too and all that other stuff so I know when its coming. But even when the "bad" ones aren't happening and I don't feel any of the other symptoms, I always have tiny little white dots on the inside of my labia. They never seem to completely go away. Everything seems to slowly get better as time goes on. But I am worried I will have to deal with this forever. Will I ever get a break? Does anyone have any advice? Similar stories? Tricks? I live a fairly healthy lifestyle. I don't know why this never goes away for me.

I have been newly diagnosed with herpes for about three months. I met a guy around the same time of the diagnosis and he is really sweet and has done a lot for me already. I know he cares for me but I am scared of his reaction to disclosing because we are so young and because of the stigma attached to herpes. Our relationship has been progressing and I know its time for me to disclose but I really am terrified for a number of reasons. 1.) fear of rejection - We have tons of mutual friends and I know I will continue to see him all the time. If he rejects me I know I'm going to be very sad about it. 2.) fear of passing it on - If he accepts me, I would be devastated if I gave it to him. Since my diagnosis, I have been suffering from basically ongoing outbreaks. We would most likely have to abstain from sex for a while. I am taking valtrex and trying to live a moderately healthy lifestyle but these outbreaks will not stop. I'm just so scared of his reaction. We are young and in our early 20's. Why would he want to risk getting herpes with me?

I am struggling with whether I should let the guy who gave me herpes know that he gave it to me. I didn't even want to have sex with this guy but he was so persistent and basically talked me into it. He never disclosed his condition or used a condom or anything. I keep thinking about how he's probably doing this to other girls as well. And I'm absolutely positive this is the guy that gave it to me. How do I go about telling him that he gave it to me? I don't even know where to start. If I tell him I'm probably going to start to get angry and lash out at him. I hate him for what he did to me. But I don't want this to happen to other people. I guess there is a possibility that he didn't know he had it himself but I don't know. I find that hard to believe.

This may sound like a dumb question. My first outbreak ever was pretty bad. Very ugly and a lot of blisters all over. I could barely walk for two days. Everything cleared up in about a week without antivirals. However, for the future, does this make me somewhat more contagious? Like, I got more blisters because more of the virus was shedding or becoming active in my body? Compared to someone that shows little to no symptoms I must be more contagious.

@SPATX919 Thank you for your words. I really really appreciate it!

I am 20 years old. I had a one night stand with a guy that I didn't even really want to have sex with. We had sex for about five minutes before I stopped it and told him that I didn't want to keep going. He didn't tell me he had herpes. And here I am with herpes and I can't believe it. I got the call of my swab results a few days ago. Right before I was about to leave for a mini fourth of July vacation. I ignored it the whole vacation and pushed it to the back of my mind. Now that I'm back and reality is setting in I feel so depressed. I'm trying to think of a way the results could be wrong but I know deep down they aren't. Yesterday I could barely eat. I tried to get myself to leave the house and I couldn't. All I could do is watch tv and sleep. Today I left the house and started to tear up right as I got into the car. I usually like to workout and I can't even get myself to do that. I used to live life in such a carefree and happy way. I feel like herpes destroys that. I have a good education, have almost a 4.0, am starting a new internship, getting a new apartment, have a great group of friends, etc. Yet when I think of all those great things in my life herpes takes the main stage bringing me sadness and hopelessness. A previous love asked me to hangout today and normally I would have said yes but now I'm forced to say no. I can't think of disclosing this condition to anyone. Boys my age are immature and would not understand. They would most likely react with disgust or tell their friends or something like that. I look at my friends with jealousy. (Which I know is wrong.) They are living the life I once had as well. One so carefree, fun, and happy. I am so sad. I have read countless success stories about herpes yet I still can't bring myself to be happy. I know it will probably take time but it just really makes me feel so hopeless right now. And I'm scared to get another outbreak.