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Thanks for asking this question because I often wonder the same. I haven't been able to find any research that gives a clear answer. But I have read that taking herpes medication every day can potentially build up a resistance where the medication stops working as well, same as really any antibiotic. So for me personally I try to take my valacyclovir as sparingly as possible. I am also single and not having sex so I usually just take it for a couple days when I notice symptoms and let my body heal the rest of the way. I am sure every person and every body is different though. Some people Probably take the same medication for decades and it always works great for them

So it is been quite a few years since I posted on this forum. I would say after the first couple years I got to a place where I had accepted my herpes diagnosis and while I will never say I enjoy having herpes, I take it for what it is. A skin condition. My outbreaks have always been very minimal and mild. The first three to four years I maybe had a few outbreaks a year. The last year and a half though, my outbreaks have become much more regular. I have started keeping track of them because it seems like at least every two months like clockwork I am getting the tingly sensation and eventually a sore or two. Sometimes they last only a few days, no longer than 5 to 7. Having to deal with symptoms more often has definitely caused me to be more emotional about it. I start to spiral into the "why me? Do i really have to deal with this for the rest of my life? I did this to myself I'm so stupid". And those are just regular thoughts, when you take into account the dating and disclosing part of it...woah. Man can i spiral in that area as well. Having more regular outbreak though, is also reminding me of how much work I've done on myself and in my journey of acceptance. For some reason my outbreaks like to pop up when i have something fun planned haha. For example last year I went away for a long weekend for my birthday and I had one of my worst outbreaks. I am extremely lucky in that my outbreaks never prevent me from doing anything. That weekend I ate drank hiked tanned swam sat for long hours in a car. It didn't prevent me from enjoying myself. This weekend I am going to Palm Springs and today sure thing...I start to feel some tingles. While it's annoying and a little frustrating, I keep telling myself I've been looking forward to this weekend for months and nothing is going to stop me from enjoying it, not even an outbreak For those of you dealing with severe life altering symptoms, I am so sorry. But I hope to encourage some of you to continue to do the work. If you can, I highly recommend working with Adrial. My sessions with him helped me immensely. And also remind yourself nothing is permanent. Maybe your symptoms are terrible now but go away almost completely a year from now. In my case I went years with almost no outbreaks and am now getting them regularly. Things change but trying to keep it all in perspective can help.

Your symptoms pretty much mirror mine, although mine aren't quite that regular. My outbreaks are always paper cut like lesions in almost always one of three places. My "outbreaks" are so non-herpes like that when I was initially seen by a doctor for the sore she said "I will test you for herpes but this doesn't look like herpes". I will also say I have HSV2. Are you taking daily anti viral medication? I am not and I typically have an outbreak once every three-ish months, sometimes longer sometimes shorter. I am not regularly sexually active so for me personally, I'd rather not pump my body with antiviral medication. Especially since my outbreaks are relatively mild and not super painful. But if you're wanting to test to see if these cuts could be herpes related maybe start taking an antiviral every day, see if it alleviates you're symptoms. Good luck!

I don't know much about the western blot test, but if you have an open sore, a swab test I would think would be relatively reliable. I certainly wouldn't take any more medications for herpes unless you have a diagnosis. Going off symptoms alone with herpes is super hard because there are people like myself who literally have never had a standard outbreak. Best of luck with your upcoming appointments and kick that doctor you were seeing to the curb. Doesn't sound like they know what they're doing

Your herpes symptoms sound almost identical to mine. The only "outbreaks" I've ever gotten are very tiny invisible to the untrained eye paper cut like sores. Almost always in the same two spots. Anyone looking would never be able to spot them. Did the doctor not take a swab of the cut and test that? Seems insane to prescribed medication off of an assumption. Blood tests are also known to be unreliable because it's based off of antibodies I believe, and everyone will have different levels at different times. If you still have a sore go back and ask for it to swabbed and tested. If not see if the sore heals, if it comes back again even in a minor way go back immediately and have it swabbed and tested. But your symptoms alone definitely don't rule out herpes as they sound identical to mine and I tested positive off the swab test for HSV2

@mr_hopp I love the one liner at the end! I will be trying that out when this is all over! I guess for me the trepidation lies in my belief that herpes is still so stigmatize. I have mostly accepted what you said above as fact, “herpes is a simple skin condition and far less significant than something like COVID” (I only put mostly because I still have my good day’s and bad). But forced to make an immediate choice of battling COVID or risking getting herpes my guess is many many people would take the COVID. I am of course guessing and generalizing which I shouldn’t do. I also know from my work with you that how I feel about my herpes and how I present it plays a huge part in the comfort level of the person I am disclosing to. There is always work to be done on this path post diagnosis. I know i still have some work to do in my own destigmatization of this virus

Hey everyone, I haven’t posted on here in quite a while but for those of you who are new to their diagnosis I would highly recommend posting, reading and reaching out to other people on here. It massively helped me. I’m posting today because I’ve been thinking a lot about how the current COVID crisis might affect people’s willingness to be open to herpes. There is a lot of fear right now around this “virus” and while I obviously can’t date or look for casual situations currently, I’m worried that when things do get better people will have an even more heightened fear about herpes. Does anyone have any thoughts on this?

@becominganewme I think i understand where you are coming from here. The thing is...your 20s (especially early twenties) are for experimenting, fucking new people if you feel like it, making mistakes and learning from them. I was never one to be real promiscuous but I do feel as though contracting HSV in my late twenties meant I did get to fuck around some and have some great and some not so great sexual encounters. I learned a lot about my sexuality from those partners and I think maybe that’s what you mean by “normal”...you feel you may miss out on those opportunities because of herpes The fact of the matter is, you don’t have to stop doing that, but you should always disclose. Does that really suck? Yeah. It definitely does. But unless you go to a super small college, in a super small town, you can still do the Tinder thing, you can still do the frat party thing, you can still disclose to whoever you want and see what happens. I haven’t disclosed to any guys in their early 20s, certainly no college guys. But you may find there are more accepting partners than you think. It’s a new world we live in today. Any guy who turns you down and then spreads private information about you will only show his true colors as a complete asshole. Will there be ignorant people who pass judgment on you, maybe. But you need to become comfortable with the fact that honesty should always trump staying in your comfort zone.

@Jules1967 I think we all empathize with your feelings behind not wanting to use the terms disease and infection. Shit none of us want to think of ourselves or to have other feel as though we are a walking infection. That being said I agree that “immunity” isn’t the right word. There are other ways to accurately describe being HSV positive that don’t include those trigger words. Also just want to to comment on your statement that you don’t like to use infection or disease because it makes it sound like you are a “walking blister”. While it’s great you don’t have outbreaks very often, I do hope you understand and have come to terms with the fact that you could realistically at any point expose someone, and therefore we all are to some extent walking blisters lol. We should all know about viral shedding and no medication will ever give you 100% certainly that the virus is dormant. You stated you educate your partners on the facts about being herpes positive, but your aversion to using words like infection and disease worries me that maybe you yourself haven’t fully comes to terms with the reality of what it means to be HSV positive. While our gut reaction is always to downplay and protect ourselves, it’s important to state the facts as accurately and clearly as possible.

@Michgirl73 I totally get it. Disclosing isn’t easy but for me the first few were the scariest and it gets easier and easier every time. I tend to disclose over text if it’s someone I’m only interested in casually. I’ve disclosed in person as well...that was much more difficult emotionally and mentally. But again a wonderful learning and growing opportunity. Feel free to let me know if you have any questions! @Fmals I have a standing prescription. I keep some on hand in case I want to use it and also I’m case I meet someone I’m interested in and want to start taking it in preparation for having sex. To each their own though

Interesting...I see how this works as you being “immune” to herpes has only occurred because you have already acquired it. I guess my only worry with this type of disclosure is that to me, it seems like a game of semantics. Using words like immunity might confuse them and lead to them not really understanding what you are telling them. It sounds like you’re being careful in explaining they can acquire HSV from you, that’s important and hopefully helps clear and question marks up. Personally I've used “I was exposed to herpes and am now a carrier”. It allows me to explain without using those trigger words like STD or infected.

@Fmals of course! I find it’s important for my journey to continue to post even if it’s not as frequent. Happy to help as much as I can! To be honest I’ve never had a stereotypical outbreak. I’ve read a lot of stores about painful initial outbreaks, luckily I haven’t dealt with that. I didn’t even notice anything was off other than a small cut and was diagnosed by swab from that. I’m not in a relationship and don’t have a steady sexual partner so I’m also choosing to not take any sort of daily medication. Every couple of months I would say I get a small sore, it’s pretty regular still for me. But I take medication for a few days and it goes away. Causes very very minimal discomfort. I do hope over the years I’ll see a decrease with maybe only one or two tiny sores a year. But as for right now the pop up every now and then isn’t a huge deal as I’m not sexually active super often and I’ve made the choice I don’t want any more medication in my body than is absolutely necessary.

I just passed my two year anniversary of my HSV diagnosis. I can’t believe another year has gone by. Ive used this site less and less over the two years. Not because I don’t find it helpful, but because as time goes on my HSV weighs on my mind less and less. To those new to this is does get better, if you let it. Work on accepting your new circumstances and try to recognize it changes nothing about you. For me it also helped to put herpes in perspective and compare it to other possible circumstances. Or ask myself if I could never travel again but I got rid of my herpes, would I take that trade? For me the answer was usually no. It showed me that the things I enjoy and value in life are still there and still important. Herpes isn’t a reason to stop living. Early on I was blessed with counseling and it helped immensely. I have sought and received wisdom and advise from many people on here who have been going through this way longer than myself. If you’re struggling reach out to other members. Respond to their posts. If you wonder about something in particular, how someone overcame disclosure or a rejection, it doesn’t hurt to reach out. One thing I will admit is I still have my good and bad days. Just the other day I had a wonderful disclosure to a guy on tinder through message. He asked a bunch of questions, seemed very open minded, thanked me for my honesty, even asked if I was interested in a casual situation. When I answered I would be if we met and there was chemistry, he unmatched me. Do I know why he unmatched me for sure? No. Do I think my disclosure played a big part. Totally. Did it hurt my feelings and plunge me back into that sad, lonely, self stigmatized place for a couple days? It did. But its a work in progress. All I can say to those of you struggling is that things can get better if you make the effort to work on it. Herpes does not make you a leper. People will still want to sleep with you. Im still figuring some of this stuff out myself. And possibly always will be. But I can say without a doubt herpes has taught me I am FAR stronger than I ever imagined.

In my opinion you havent done anything wrong, you didnt expose him in any way to the virus. The only thing that could maybe be considered insensitive is that you took your relationship to a physical level with him (which can also sometimes advance peoples feelings emotionally) without giving him all the information to your circumstances. He may have preferred he had that information mentally before he brought the relationship to any sort of physical level. But I wouldn't stress over it. And to answer your question dating does have an added level to it, but you most certainly can still date and get laid with herpes haha

I have no idea if they do, but maybe contact your local Planned Parenthood or if there is a community clinic in your area contact them to see if they offer valtrex at a low or no cost to you. IMO if you don’t have health insurance you should definitely be signed up with a community clinic in case something does come up. For me I always feel better knowing I have a bottle of valtrex on hand in case I feel any tingling