rosie8

It's early days for you, 64th. It does help to own it; and to forgive yourself for whatever you are judging yourself for from your past. I have found it invaluable to have ways of releasing emotion, highly recommend you (and everyone else here) check out EFT, loads of free stuff on youtube; or www.emofree.com; or The Emotion Code. Easy to learn stuff and very effective for clearing the emotion we go through on our journey. It's helped me enormously.

You know what I was surprised to notice recently? 80%+ people have the oral herpes virus; yet not one man I have ever kissed has ever asked me "do you have the cold sore virus?" or confessed that he has, before we kissed. It's not so different folks! A man I was very interested in recently walked away from a relationship with me after I shared about being diagnosed with HSV years ago. It took me quite a while to get past my disappointment, as I felt we had a real possibility of long-term love. However I was always clear that it was the virus he was rejecting, not me. Then I remembered this thing about kissing.............no one seems to worry about getting HSV kissing, only having sex. My upsets totally disappeared then, I just thought, we are a bit crazy about this. I'd never had anyone reject being with me because of the virus before, so that was new; but then I thought, I could never be with anyone who was afraid of my body. Yet needless to say, this man and I had kissed passionately and long in the past. So while we all have our journey, have confidence that as you keep accepting your feelings, reaching out for help, and knowing you are not alone, and there's plenty of other challenges in sex and relationships, you will evolve with this and so will your thinking.