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  1. Lilux723: Thank you so much! I will have a blood test done right away. The fear and the shame of it all has made me avoid the whole thing -- I am a 'runner,' for sure. Just ignore problems and hope they go away...you know, cause that EVER works! Thank you for your time and input, babe :) Hope you keep doing well.
  2. Hello :) For background, I am a 30 year-old female. Sexually active, have a child, divorced, work full-time, lots of stress. I had my first genital herpes outbreak at the beginning of this year, in January, when the divorce process began. It was *very* severe; at least 15-20 sores all over my vagina and anus in the most sensitive spots, I had to take time off of work due to inability to sit comfortably, constant pain and burning (and therefore constant application of creams and sprays). I was so scared to touch my body, I showered with vinyl gloves, removing them only to wash my hair at the very end of my shower. I was looked at by two female doctors who agreed I had herpes, I can't remember if any swabbing was done and want so deeply to never think about this again that I can't bring myself to look at the discharge paperwork to find out. I was prescribed Valtrex and took care of myself the best I could. I am not taking Valtrex anymore, and haven't since I used my prescription up at the beginning of the year. Each tingle I feel [i get them on a regular basis] sends me into an internal panic -- or had, until recently when I decided to instead tell myself "it is what it is...might be an outbreak, might not" as I haven't had any subsequent outbreaks! About a month ago I had a small bump on the opening of my vagina, but I am not convinced it was herpes-related as it went away rather quickly, never "oozed" [so sorry to use that word]. I think it was an injury from intercourse which was aggravated by shaving. Maybe two months ago, I found my vagina very, *very* sensitive...but still, no outbreak. I am wondering -- how could this be, that I've never had another outbreak? How is it possible? I'm literally waiting in dread for the day I wake up to another nightmare like my first OB. Could I never have had herpes? Do I have to live in dread or not? If it wasn't herpes, what could it have been? I know better than to believe it isn't herpes, I know it is. But, why no outbreaks? Believe me, I feel very relieved that my experience with herpes is the way it is -- even the first outbreak being so severe, it taught me not to trust so easily. I am happy that I haven't gone through this again since the initial outbreak, but I'm so confused as to why I haven't had another. Is this normal?
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