Pikachuhasherpes

Doesn't sound like a herpes lesion to me hun. Definitely sounds like an ingrown hair!!

This is very curious. My doctor won't even do the igG blood test for me. It's ridiculous..

Thank you all for your help. This should really be much easier. Btw while I have you all here, do you happen to notice that your other skin conditions or just skin in general seem to be so much more irritated now that you have this? Especially with the extreme heat or extreme cold?

This is super important guys...

This shows up on Google for anyone who searches my username. I want it deleted because I thought this was a more private thing. Seriously it shouldn't be this difficult to delete.

I told him if I knew what kind of a man he would turn into I wouldn't have tried so hard to protect him. I mean he keeps saying he doesn't care and that he wants to have sex with me but I can't risk it because it I pass it on I'll never hear the end of it. And he's suicidal as well but it's like join the fucking club. If I left especially if I passed the virus on, I would have to live with that guilt forever.

@beautyintheugly22 I actually had to stop taking the antivirals because they put me in the hospital. It was quite serious. I should be taking lysine as I have an outbreak right now but they for some reason rot my stomach pretty badly. I am taking probiotics for vaginal health right now but i also still using what's left of the prunella extract and then just switching to teatree on a cotton pad due to financial difficulties. I also have jaw surgery next month so I'm scared shtless about that but also about how far back herpes wise that will send me. I know that's the last thing I should be thinking about but it just adds to the pile. I'm still getting to know this virus but having an outbreak after going almost a month without one is so disappointing. It's like my skin down there feels much thinner and way more painful and sensitive. I got giant lesions from a tampon so needless to say I'll never use them again. I haven't had sex with my boyfriend in almost two months and we've had serious issues lately. I don't want to air out my dirty laundry here but in an argument with him when he was being such an asshole and trying to break up with me for the third time in 4 months, he pretended to be on the phone with his Mom telling her to get him out of the house but apparently made that up; and in that mix up shortly afterwards he threatened to tell his entire pretentious family, even though I hadn't passed this virus on NOR was I intending to hense the lack of sex, that I have herpes. Something that isn't their business by ANY means, and since then I question what the fuck I'm even doing. I know he didn't mean to do or say what he did and he is trying to make it up to me but... I don't see this magically getting better. It was the single most disgusting thing anyone has ever said to me.. and at any point he could snap again. I can't trust he won't and I'm about to have jaw surgery and have to rely on this man to take care of me so I'm basically freaking out. Is this not emotional abuse? I hate to have to ask here but I don't know what else to do...

I use Ultimate Flora vs for women 50 billion capsules. It's a godsend. Expensive but worth it. I promise you that.

I too feel like one of those people.. And while I haven't had sex since my last outbreak, I have faith. My obs have died down quite a bit since changing my diet to a mostly vegetarian vegan diet.. although I do mess it up a lot lately. My advice to everyone so far is in a comment on another thread. "Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped." I also use a mix of prunella vulgaris and watered down tea tree oil twice a day on a cotton pad. Honestly, though, I think what's helped me is the moment I decided to stop examining myself constantly with a mirror and to just accept what I can't change. I know it's easier said than done, but as soon as I stopped constantly obsessing over it is when thing finally calmed down. I take precautions whenever necessary and whenever I feel sketchy i do this routine. Not looking forward to my next outbreak but i won't let this define me anymore. Thank God I grew up with oral hsv1 because I have obviously developed some antibodies to the virus itself. I hope this can be of some inspiration. :] And I know I've said this in a couple other boards but I want to make sure this reaches as many as possible. Thank you all for your help. :)

I too feel like one of those people.. And while I haven't had sex since my last outbreak, I have faith. My obs have died down quite a bit since changing my diet to a mostly vegetarian vegan diet.. although I do mess it up a lot lately. My advice to everyone so far is in a comment on another thread. "Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped." I also use a mix of prunella vulgaris and watered down tea tree oil twice a day on a cotton pad. Honestly, though, I think what's helped me is the moment I decided to stop examining myself constantly with a mirror and to just accept what I can't change. I know it's easier said than done, but as soon as I stopped constantly obsessing over it is when thing finally calmed down. I take precautions whenever necessary and whenever I feel sketchy i do this routine. Not looking forward to my next outbreak but i won't let this define me anymore. Thank God I grew up with oral hsv1 because I have obviously developed some antibodies to the virus itself. I hope this can be of some inspiration. :] And I know you may all see this post in several different boards but I just want it to reach as many as possible. And thank you all for your tremendous help.

I too feel like one of those people.. And while I haven't had sex since my last outbreak, I have faith. My obs have died down quite a bit since changing my diet to a mostly vegetarian vegan diet.. although I do mess it up a lot lately. My advice to everyone so far is in a comment on another thread. "Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped." I also use a mix of prunella vulgaris and watered down tea tree oil twice a day on a cotton pad. Honestly, though, I think what's helped me is the moment I decided to stop examining myself constantly with a mirror and to just accept what I can't change. I know it's easier said than done, but as soon as I stopped constantly obsessing over it is when thing finally calmed down. I take precautions whenever necessary and whenever I feel sketchy i do this routine. Not looking forward to my next outbreak but i won't let this define me anymore. Thank God I grew up with oral hsv1 because I have obviously developed some antibodies to the virus itself. I hope this can be of some inspiration. :]

Get vagisil wipes for the itch. Immediately. These have helped me tremendously. And a probiotics that specializes in vaginal health. It'll probably benefit a penis as well :p shit has calmed down so much since doing this and I haven't had an outbreak when they were constant.. And this is coming from somebody who has multiple autoimmune disorders. Still too afraid to have sex but I'm working on that part. :) I hope this helped

I've tried every kind of antiviral but they all drain the life out of me, not to mention being on disability doesn't entirely cover the insane price of the medication and it's expensive as you all know. The only thing that works for my anxiety are benzos but thanks to people abusing them i can't even get then prescribed at all. I do use condoms but i haven't had much of a break between outbreaks for sexual encounters to be a reality with him. Not to mention condoms hurt like hell. This is all shit I've been told before, and while I appreciate somebody responding instead of just reading it and letting it fall down the list, I asked for all natural ways to fix this.. and what's worked for them, and the side effects. All I wanted to do was have a conversation about all of this and I can't even get one going on a website with thousands of people who probably do know how to help. It just sucks, man.. because autoimmune conditions are always going to get in my way now where as before they were at least somewhat manageable. My last attempt is therapy but I have serious jaw surgery on March 5th and won't be able to even speak. Definitely can't swallow an antiviral then but i can mix all natural supplements in warm water and squirt it into my mouth with one of those giant plastic syringes. It seems like everything is hitting the fan in my life all at once. Seems I have to make very big decisions soon. I'm okay with that so long as they're the right ones. I was approved for financial compensation after witnessing my best friends murder that led me down the path of extreme crippling depression and they wanted me to file another claim for the sexual assault that led me down the path to herpes, but I couldn't make it stick because the cops here are bullshit and basically made me feel like I was making it up. It would be more humility than j ever needed. I get it... we all make risky decisions and we all make mistakes but my diagnosis wasn't supposed to happen. My choice to stay or leave wasn't a choice at all. It was taken from me. It's not as simple as taking an anxiety med because if it were i wouldn't be on the forums at all complaining or begging for help because I'm at this point entirely suicidal. That's why it hurts when I'm told to do something that I already knew about because it's page one in the diagnosis manual of herpes and using condoms is a no brainer anyway, but because it wasn't even remotely what I asked which makes me feel so unimportant that it wasn't even read. So I'll do my own research and probably won't be posting anymore.. to save myself more humility down the road. And anyone who thinks I'm too sensitive or anything else negative I welcome to take a walk in my shoes for just one day.. because I can just barely do it and I've been doing it my whole life. I'm exhausted from life and the tremendous loss I've suffered.. I just want to sleep and never wake up.

I guess I'll just fend for myself as usual. Can barely ever get a response as it is. I might as well delete my account at this rate.

I quit taking the strong dose my doctor told me to go on of 1.6g per day because it was actually making me extremely ill and fragile/weak. It nearly sucked the life out of me. Now the itching has come back and I don't know if my skin is raised and just looks like a mild outbreak because of the trauma, or if it is a mild one. I'm now on 3000mg daily of lysine which seems like a lot but I hope it works, and on probiotics that to be honest I don't feel are working at all. I need an all natural treatment but I don't want to waste my money on something that simply won't work or isn't strong enough without severely compromising my life entirely. I've heard of cats claw and I also haven't tried olive leaf extract because I'm afraid that it'll make my condition worse before it makes it better.. not to mention I am on disability and have limited funds. My cat almost died Wednesday night and I had to pay roughly $1000 to save his life and that took what little emotional energy I had left after this diagnosis away. I want to be physical with my beautiful boyfriend and I don't want something as silly as having auto immunity stand in the way forever. So any all natural products would be great that don't trigger asthma or bad liver activity.. oh and that are heart safe.. but I also have to ask.. Has anybody else had sleep paralysis from high doses of antivirals? I did and that was quite the experience. Not to mention I had major panic attacks for the last two nights and couldn't fall asleep. It's been hell and I just want some kind of relief. I don't have the luxury of waiting 7 to 10 days after an outbreak before engaging in sex because I'm lucky I have that long before another comes on. I am really suffering and so is my relationship. I cry literally every single day.. and I just want it all to stop or calm down without poisoning myself.. I really do. I even let the hair grow out but I feel like it's making it worse but shaving also does.. It's like no matter what I do it's never good enough for this or anything else in my life..