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  1. hi fellow herpetites, its been a rough couple of emotional months, 2 months and 15 days to be exact...first outbreak went trough, fatigue and nerve pain linger for 3 weeks and now i been starting to feel better despite some itch and some tingles and nerve stings and a weird dotted appearance on the skin of my gland, looks like it has celulite when is erect...but at least i got laid finally. back to the point, i went to the best dermatologist in town, an experienced lady with a lot of experience in the private and public sector, shes seen a lot of shit and treated a lot of skin illnesses. the main reason i went is because i was convince i had a constant mild outbreak with the itch and my penis head funky texture.... She saw me, checked my penis with a magnifying glass and light and told me i was fine, told me i had no outbreak and to not worry about anything. She say alot of people have it and very few develop symptoms...she told me i shouldn't even worry about spreading it and it was up to me if i want to disclose or not. When i ask her about suppressive therapy, she only prescribed me three 7 day cycle of antivirals, one every 3 months, total of 3 cycles...after that she told me to repeat the cycles again every 2 years. according to her, that should be enough to keep the virus dormant and proceed with my sex life ...i am from mexico and she assured me that here in mexico genital herpes is treated lightly and isnt a big deal to people, americans just make it a big deal and remain on drugs. Im an inquisitive person and i like to investigate and find answers and hear other opinions. Few days ago i disclose to this girl that kept calling me wanting to see me. she came over and i told her, surprisingly she still wanted to fuck me, as long as i wore a condom. so i did and felt like a schoolboy again...for some reason despite the doctors calming opinion and little rigorous suppressive prescription, there is still noise in my head about being contagious, since its only been 2 and a half months since my initial outbreak and still confused about my iGg test results (1.84 , everything above 1 being positive, igM was negative, which is weird since i got the test when i had the full initial outbreak). i dont know when i contracted the virus. what should i do? wait some time until time passes and im able to control the virus to be sexually active again? follow the docs orders of suppressive therapy and keep going with my life and lusty ways? or go on daily antivirals just to be safe for possible casual sex, i dont have a steady girlfriend? i dont mind disclosing since im pretty shameless and know how to smooth talk, but i dont want to give herpes to no chick. i already gave it to one girl right before my initial outbreak because i didnt know i had it (we where having wild, dirty, ruff unprotected sex and because we had he outbreak the same day theres a possibility she gave it to me).
  2. i liked reading these posts, its a candle in the dark. Lately, my life is being like drinking a lemonade with no sugar ... is not sweet anymore. Im kinda new to this virus, only 2 months, 30 years old and single. Dreadful thoughts of permanent loneliness linger in my head right before i fall a sleep and as soon as i wake up, i shake em off and get busy to distract my mind ...i havent disclose to anyone yet and i feel like i still need a little time for the virus to settle in and my body to handle it, but ill wait...and after, when im done licking my wounds im going for it harder than ever, ill meet someone and im going to tell her my story...
  3. my penis head looks the same, after the initial outbreak it started to get like that, i thought it was a secondary outbreak, but the dermathologist told me is not, is normal... i dont know what to do, guess i have to live with it, i wonder if some of the cream i put on it trigger it, it doesnt hurt and my erections are hard as ever, but i can see the little dots, no texture put it looks dotty and wrinkled. i wonder if its still sheadding? time will tell.
  4. i have them too... my dermathologist told me is not an outbreak, its just a rash, but i feel like im still shedding because i know my dick well and it doesn´t look the same as before my first outbreak... i hope it goes away, i dont care about being possitive, but i want my penis to go back to normal texture so i can rest my mind and seek a relationship without tripping out about shedding virus
  5. living in cabo is weird bro, its not exiting at all, i was born and raised here, and for some reason i leave and always end comming back, i just work when im here and then go to travel after... now im kinda stuck here running a boat, but definitely is boring to me, it feels like I've seen it all in this town, plus waves aren't that great besides a couple hurricane swells and you got to be super on them. the fishing is good, i cant complain about that... i been to a lot of countries, surfed peru, ecuador, colombia caribbean, panama, nicaragua(really good surf), indonesia, then got a job in new zealand on a boat and we took it to tahiti, and because we had 2 month on/ 1 month off rotation i got to spend 2 separate months there on south swell season, is my favorite place in the world and i would love to go there, the people is so kind, lots of mana in those islands...and lots of good waves...pristine barrels ...hopefully i can keep doing it for a long time...looks like i will because im not getting no chicks pregnant any time soon lol, as a matter fact i havent met anyone with h yet... its too of a small town and people dont talk about it. God i miss hooking up with a girl and having fun, i cant even recognize my outbreaks yet, such a kook on H still, guess im just gonna put my head down and make money till the summer then split for a surf trip, i need some time for myself, its so hard to try to act normal on social situations now, nobody knows what im going trough, so i prefer to be somewhere far where no one knows me and relaxed. but ill get to do that again, i have faith... thats cool you live in oc, i did a sophmore year in laguna high school when i was 15, got adopted for a year by a wealthy family and took me up there to learned my english, lots of beautiful girls...miss it, session at thalia street and gina pizza after....good times. good luck on life man, hope all works good for ya and find a special lady that wants to be with you, you deserve it...btw my name is Pablo.
  6. Yea bro, is good to cry sometimes... I held it quiet for like a week, heart cold as ice , till my mom ask me what was wrong with me, she could tell... them I just started to cry like a baby and had to tell her about it, i was so embarrassed to break her heart but she was very cool about it and supportive. There's not a lot of dudes that comment on this group, so it's good to support each other... I feel like dating wise, with hérpes, the girls have it easier, because guys usualy make the first move and can hold up a little before disclosing covering up as they are prudes. as a dude, if you heasitate or don't attack quick you just get friendzoned or portray as insecure, I used to be a dirty dog and had my fair share of chicks all around the world (i guess if you charge barrels sooner or latter you Gona hit the reef)... I guess now I have to change my game plan... haven't hook up with anyone in 2 months and it hurts my ego, despite waking everyday with a boner I eel like I lost my mojo, the one that I had build up high After breaking up with my ex,, before it I wouldn't pass even 2 weeks without a shagg... I'm nervous about disclosing but I'm so willing for it to happend regarding of the outcome... need to keep living, working and chasing the dream. I'm just Gona play it casual and sell my disease the best way I can. Maybe I'll train me good and I'll become a real state broker after a while, haha, if I can sell hérpes to a chick, I could sell a 4 millón dollar house... do you live in a big city, it should be easy to find other chicks with h and get back in the game, Or more options of chicks willing to try. I live in a beach town in Mexico, it's not very big, so It's a little more harder and I don't wanna give herps to no chick...Have you surf Honolua bay? Heard that wave is insane... always wanted to go surf Hawaii, but got lucky last year with a job and ended up in Tahiti.... surfed teahupoo and other reef passes. Any job options after graduating? As an electrical engineer I suggest you go on boats and yachts, its good money, you can do it around the world and it will keep you surfing some good spots... if you ever in Mexico hit me up, I'll give you some good spots.
  7. welcome aboard dude, your a pirate now! hahaha....joking, i got my first outbreak 2 months ago outa the blue and was totally freaking out, dick looking like a corn cob, went to the lab and got tested and my IGg said i had the virus for a long time to... started reading shit on google and just got me more worried and eventually found this blog...thought me a lot about the virus and made me realize is not that of a big deal. yesterday i went to a good dermatologist and she told me a lot of people have the virus and will die of old age without knowing it, she also told me that Americans and Brits are the only ones that make a big deal about the virus, when the reality is just getting cold soars on your dick...she told me its not necessary to do do the suppressive therapy... only a good acyclovir treatment after outbreaks to keep the virus dormant. hopefully the ob dosn´t com back...anyways. good that your keeping a positive attitude, id lie if i told you im positive all the time, still get a little down, specially because i got an outbreak and every time i shake my dick after i take a piss and see the marks im remind about it.
  8. i guess time will tell...just trying to keep life going the best i can.
  9. Gave it to the girl i was sleeping with, i never had an outbreak before in my life and we both outbreaked at the same exact 13 days later after we started fuckin around...i know i gave it to her because the iGg said i was positive with 1.84, she never got an iGg and to tell you the truth i dont care, i met her on tinder and she was fuckin around with other dudes before me...so we both were on risky buissness...i dont feel anything now except love and hope towards myself, no remorse...lifes a risk.
  10. Any athletes with HSV2 out there? need advice...just wondering if performance can be affected by H virus. Is physical effort a trigger of outbreaks? i am a freediver/spearfisher and avid surfer, like to be under the sun and elements for a long time...been experiencing fatigue and feeling weak at times, didnt feel like that before the outbreak...im new to this virus and dont know if im still having a minor outbreaks or not, and if the flu like symptoms linger on the secondary outbreaks too. appreciate any advice someone into performance and sports (maybe a sport physician) can give me...thanks.
  11. Need an H buddy, girl or guy, doesnt matter, im here in Cabo San Lucas, Mexico. found out 60 days ago and still feeling confused with my sythoms, ready to move forward and disclose if i have to, just need to feel good again... still feel weak sometimes and experiencing fatigue. i cant recognise an outbreak yet, dont know if i still have a minor one or not, or im just paranoid...i am a healthy person and surf and freediving...hardly drink alcohol. hopefully i dont have to change my lifestyle because of H...anyone knows about sport performance being afected by H? be nice to get a dudes opinion on the subject, theres not many dudes advice in this group. feel free to DM, always keen to hear a story about life. PS sorry about my spelling and grammar. lol
  12. I havent diclosed to anyone yet...30 years old and just found out i had H2 + two months ago, blood test say i was a carrier for a while but never had an outbreak till then...a flu, a hung over and 2 days of intense separfishing at 60 feet deep dives welcome my fist outbreak. Herpes never crossed my mind as a risk, i was totaly unaware of the virus and how it works, no doctor ever suggested to get tested and school doesnt teach it ... My body feels fine now and i have sexual desire again, but that desire goes a little deeper than before now, i guess im a hopless fool LOL. Havent seen anyone yet, it has slowly sunken in my soul and brain the condition im in right now, and has made me think of how shallow i was, i treated sex as a sport for a long time besides the few women i really loved, i was good at doing it, i felt good about myself after i did at least for a day or two. The only thing i would disclose to woman was my intention to just have sex and not get emotionally attached...then proceed to fornicate. Deep down i wanted to find the girl of my dreams, selfishly, the one that share the same dreams as i, but my lack of patience and boosted ego would have me trying partners like a bee try different flowers...searching for that one. I come to realize i was as unhappy before i knew about my condition as i am now...i was living one big lie, fueled by ego, hedonism, and fear of loving a person for what they were...but no more, i refuse to live in fear and denial. Its hard to have a secret and pretend to be the same in social situations, now im speechless in man conversations about girls and how we handle them like cattle, living in my macho town these conversations are common...yes, i am a knuckle head and learned the hard way, slap on the wrist from the universe for being a fuck boy. i havent disclose to anyone yet, i think i just going to be me and do what i like, love me, love my virtues and try to make amends with my character flaws and eventually...i will have to disclose to someone...i cant wait till that happens, looking forward to it regardless of the outcome...feel like a lot of things clicked in my brain that never clicked before because they where blocked by my ego and i was to "mighty and undestructible", yet i was already destroying myself, hopefully after my first disclosure allot of new things will click in my brain and finally become the man im suppose to be. Thanks to all the wise people in this group that kept my chin up and not kill myself, making me realize im only human and i make mistakes.
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