So, I was recently diagnosed about 6 months ago after receiving from my ex. I have disclosed to 2 people, one that was a fling and one that we had a short relationship. They were both in person and we’re both okay with it. Neither of them got it from me. I have been talking to this guy online after meeting through a similar festival we go to. We have been texting and talking for about 8 months now.
Sometimes we do talk very sexual and flirty towards each other and have been very excited about meeting. He asked me a month ago to finally come and visit, so I agreed and got a 1 hr flight to where he lives. I was torn between telling him I’m persom, or over text for awhile. I decided to tell him in text so he wasn’t mad or anything, as I didn’t know how he’d react.
I’m the text I explained I don’t have many symptoms, that I take suppressive medicine, that I had sex with someone else and they never got it, and explained how low transmission rates are. I said it didn’t affect me much but that if it changed his opinion I’d understand.
Long story short his response wasn’t too thrilling. Mostly a “I don’t know what to think. I can’t rake a risk of getting an incurable STD.” Which I completely understand. He said he wasn’t mad but mostly disapppinted. He said he still wants me to come and he’s still excited to meet me..
It’s only been about a day but I’m just really upset and feeling awful about myself. We haven’t really talked much since that convo and I can tell things are different. I’m feeling really weird about going now because I don’t know how to act exactly. From where our relationship was before to where I guess it is now I’m confused. I wish I would have let him really meet me before I told him. I feel like it would of been different. I’m not gonna know how to act when I get there. I feel like maybe I should give him time and see how things go. I hate feeling like a decision. I feel gross and really down on myself a lot these days. I wish it didn’t have to be like this. Sorry for ranting