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  1. Who on here has infected other parts of their body???? Like their hands or face I have GHSV1 so I obviously touch myself when I shower and sometimes I masterbate. And lately I have these under skin bumps that I can't tell if they're an outbreak or just boils /cysts so i clearly touch and see if they're getting any better its like unavoidable to not touch my private parts! Am i suppose to wear gloves for the rest of my life wth! I wash my hands over 30 times a day because I just feel dirty and contagious. My hands have been peeling because of the over washing I got diagnosed in November. So it hasn't been more than 4 months that I've had this. ( I haven't been consistent with the acyclovir either its just hard to take everyday) I hate myself I feel like I'm a walking infection. I've been taking care of my baby nephew and I'm afraid to even touch him..And when I have touched him I soon remember i carry herpes and i start to overthink and beat myself up for touching him! this cant be life. I'm tired of everyone minimizing this when it clearly affects your physical & mental state I'M NOT OK!
  2. I was diasgnosed with GHSV1 in november My 1st outbreak I had cluster of sores with clear liquid that went away about a week later with acyclovir 2 weeks later ( December) a under skin bump popped up on my groin area The bump got red and painful but i could only feel it if i touched it since its under the skin. I've asked on other forums if this could be herpes showing up differently and got mixed answers. Over the past month 3 under skin bumps have formed ( i kept wanting to believe these are some sort of boils) BUT the fact that ive got one right after the other makes me think differently. Ive ive never got so many back to back like this. ive had boils/ cysts atleast once a year but 3 in one month??? I've read that some herpes show up differently so which is why I keep doubting this could just be boils One of them has almost gone way (not red anymore or painful ) because I squeezed white dry puss out When I touch it my skin feels flat now. Today I poked a whole on with a needle on the 2nd bump and ALOT of yellow puss came out along with blood. The bump is still there to touch and still red and it hurts. I can feel a 3rd one forming on the other side of my vulva. I'm so drained what is this! i currently dont have insurance so i cant go to the Doctor right now. My question is can herpes produce YELLOW puss like this???? Or are these boils / cysts/ abscess??? If they are boils i don't understand how I've got 3 back to back. That's never happend to me before. I wonder if herpes has triggered something down there. ( I haven't shaved in months so it's not that either)
  3. This is a complicated and depressing story, so I apologize in advance for the length and how emotional I am. I am a 29 year old American woman. I had my first cold sore OB when I was 9 or 10 years old and have had multiple oral HSV1 outbreaks over the last couple of decades. I have always been very careful when it comes to my sexual health and in 2018, I became even more neurotic about it. My last serious relationship ended 3 1/2 years ago. The guy cheated on me, contracted HSV2, dumped me for the girl he got it from, and then lied to me so he could sleep with me again to try and pass it to me so that he could cast doubt on who he got it from (she confessed everything to me and was almost gloating about it). I’ve gotten the IgG multiple times in the years since and I’ve never had a positive HSV2 result, though I have had a positive HSV1 results. Since I’ve had cold sores since I was a kid, that was not at all surprising nor concerning. After the experience with my ex, I did not date, have sex, or even kiss anyone for over 2 1/2 years. Last year, I had a guy who is a superior at work start to pursue me (I work in concert production so the typical HR rules do not apply) and after 6 months, he wore me down and I gave him a chance and slept with him. About 5 days afterwards, I started to feel flu-like symptoms with a sore throat, swollen lymph nodes in the neck and groin, body aches, and chills. Three days after that, I developed what was clearly a herpes lesion on my labia. As soon as I noticed the sore, I went to an urgent care clinic that visually diagnosed me with HSV2. The doctor who owns and runs that particular clinic does not run actual STD panels or swab tests and I told the doctor that I have had cold sores most of my life. I told the guy (and flipped out on him as anyone would in that situation), he insisted he doesn’t have HSV2, and ghosted me until I had to see him again at work (the pandemic pretty much shut down our line of work until this past June/ July). (Unrelated to my HSV diagnosis but still relevant to the story): the guy in question is a production manager/ lighting designer and video tech. I’m a sound engineer/ tech. We were both working for one company, he left that company earlier this past July, and I left that company not too long after. I contracted genital herpes in April. At the end of August, I ended up being offered a job at the company he left our old company for and initially wasn’t going to take the job (even though it was with my dream company) because of him. I ended up having to work with him as a freelancer on a gig at the beginning of September and he cornered me to tell me that he had put in a good word with the company owner for me. I was still not going to to take the offer, but the freelancing deal wasn’t working out and the company owner called me the following week telling me to be in the warehouse the next day. I don’t regret taking the job because I love the company and I’m making more money than I ever have before with some really big clients. But having to see the guy and work with him is really hard because most of the time he gives me the silent treatment. Fast forward to the end of October and I went and got another IgG test for confirmation (that allotted enough time for the antibodies to develop) and I have a negative HSV2 result but a very positive HSV1 result that the doctor said looked like a relatively recent infection based on the viral count. I am not majorly immunocompromised and I do not have any autoimmune issues. I was always told that if you have had HSV for over a year (let alone 20 years), the antibodies will protect a different part of your body from contracting the infection. I know for a fact that the guy in question is positive for HSV1- we talked about it prior to being intimate and he did perform oral sex on me that night. When I got the results, I sent them to him and apologized for flipping out on him. He did not reply and is still giving me the silent treatment at work for the most part. When we do talk, it’s short and not about anything that I feel needs to be talked about. I have been struggling with this diagnosis ever since I had the genital OB in April. I have seen all the posts from various sites online from people who have GHSV and say it’s a minor skin condition and does not reflect on your character, but I have to be honest- I strongly disagree. I know a lot of people who have GHSV and every single person I have met who has it contracted it by cheating on or with someone. I was once friends with a girl who told her boyfriend at the time that she contracted it when her ex had cheated on her but then confided in me that she actually got it from cheating on the guy she was seeing at the time and that she didn’t know which guy that she was cheating with that she contracted it from. She was flat out proud of it. Obviously, I did not continue the friendship because to me, that behavior is disgusting. I also once worked with a girl who contracted herpes from her boyfriend and then turned around and intentionally gave it to the next guy she was with because in her mind, that was “taking (her) power back”. Again, I think that’s very sick and messed up. After the relief of finding out that my ex was not successful in his attempt to give me an incurable STD, I vowed that this would never happen to me again because I would be even more crazy vigilant going forward. Contracting genital herpes, even if it’s HSV1, has psychologically destroyed me and my faith in anything worthwhile happening in my life- especially since it happened the one time I let my guard down and gave someone a chance after 2 1/2 years of being completely single and celibate. And I’m a closet freak- I LOVE sex. Now I will never get involved with anyone again because I would NEVER forgive myself if I passed it on to someone else. There is absolutely no sure way of knowing when you are or are not asymptomatically shedding and condoms don’t completely protect because it’s passed via skin to skin contact. I shouldn’t have even been able to get HSV1 on my genitalia when he did not have a cold sore outbreak and I’ve had cold sores myself since I was a young child and I do not have an autoimmune disorder or any other issue like that. The only thing I can think of that could have messed with my immune system to let myself get re-infected with something I’ve had for decades is that I got the COVID vaccine 8 days before I was exposed and contracted it. I’ve heard some anecdotal stories of people being vaccinated against chickenpox, getting the COVID vaccine, and then getting a nasty shingles outbreak. Since chickenpox/ shingles are types of herpes viruses, that’s the only logical explanation I can come up with, though I can’t even ask questions about the COVID vaccines regarding this without having people shriek at me that I’m a crazy anti-vaxxer and that I’m trying to kill people. I’ve struggled with self-image, self esteem, and self worth throughout my life due to a lot of trauma and abuse. However, I really turned a corner on those issues towards the end of 2019 and I actually started liking myself and feeling good about myself for the first time ever in my entire life. I was able to maintain that until I saw the lesion on my labia this past April. Now all the work that I did on myself was for nothing because I know myself and I’ll never be able to feel good about myself again with this diagnosis. My own mother won’t even give me a hug anymore because the virus can asymptomatically shed on your lower back and upper legs- not just your genitals and buttocks. I get where she’s coming from and I don’t resent her for it but it’s just the icing on this awful cake that life has served me. I apologize for how long, rambling, emotional, and depressing this post is but I needed to tell my story somewhere. I tried to kill myself over all this back in August and obviously failed. I most likely won’t try again because I’m so bad at trying to end my own life that it’s embarrassing, but I still don’t know what I did to deserve this happening to me or how it’s even medically possible when I had oral HSV1 for 20 years prior to getting the GHSV1 infection.
  4. I just got diagnosed with HSV1 on my genitals on thursday. I'm truly devestated I was watching this lady on youtube and she was talking about the difference between prodome and shedding. She mentioned something that kinda scared me (more than I already am ) She said that outbreaks don't always look like cold sores or bumps on your genitals. That it could also be a feeling like body aches, rashes, itching, tingling. But I thought that's was what prodome was??? So how am I suppose to be more cautious and know if I'm having an outbreak if there's no actual real physical symptoms like sores Ugh all off this keeps getting more confusing by the minute. She also mentioned to not have sex before or after your period because you're shedding or something like that... I'm so overwhelmed I HATE THIS!!!!
  5. I took the IGG test for HSV1 and 2 2 weeks after I believed I was exposed to HSV1. The results came back negative for HSV2 but positive for HSV1 with an index value of 3.87. Not wanting to believe the results I took the Western Blot 6 weeks later. The results for HSV1 and 2 came back negative. My doctor insisted that the infection had to be old since it showed up so quickly on the IGG but if it was already an established infection why didn’t it show up on the Western Blot? It’s been 6 months now and I have not experienced an type of outbreak. Should I assume that I don’t have herpes or should I take the Western Blot again since I didn’t wait 3-6 months to take it the first time?
  6. Hello, Everyone ❤️ Today was a really rough day. I had a nervous breakdown and just really hit a low. I vented everything to my mom, and explained my OCD, herpes fears, and feelings of guilt and shame around having my herpes. My mom was kind and understanding. It is really awkward to talk to your mom about herpes, especially when they are strict. I told her that I constantly feel afraid I will give my family herpes by sharing food, doing laundry, even touching objects, even though the science says that is not how it works. Honestly, the times when we feel like we will be harshly judged and should keep quiet are actually the times when we NEED to talk and actually won't be judged. The people who really love us will be understanding. I told my mom that I was afraid she would judge me or be disappointed in me, but she wasn't. She said, "You trusted someone and they ended up giving this to you, and that isn't your fault." And she is so right. She told me I'm not dirty or less of a person, and this really really meant so much to me. Please know that disclosing your HSV to someone close to you who is kind and accepting can help release SO much pressure and secrets, and I feel so much more free and able to heal. My feelings of guilt and shame disappeared and I gained a comforting resource, my mom, to help me through my journey. ❤️🍀🌼☀️ Yay for kind understanding humans! I love my mama bear 🐻❤️!!!
  7. Hello all! I hope everyone is well, happy, and healthy. I am sitting in my yard right now staring at a large rose bush in my garden. While some see this plant as a plant with pretty pink and white flowers, I see it as a reminder of herpes. The not nice ex who gave me herpes and was not respectful to my body or feelings gave this rose bush to me on Valentine's Day of 2019. The next month I would get herpes. I was 19 at the time. One day I came home and saw my mom had planted this rose plant in the garden. At first it reminded me of the trauma, the tears, the blisters, the embarrassment or walking around my college campus waddling like a penguin, the holes in several pairs of my undies because of the giant rough sores from my first outbreak. However, seeing this rose bush grow into a large blossoming plant has helped me come to peace with herpes. Through struggle we blossom. Through suffering we rise. We are so much stronger than we realize; so much more than our HSV. I hope that this helps people see the light at the end of the herpes tunnel. Love and blessings to all! Let your soul bloom and your spirit blossom ❤️
  8. Hello, Friends! 😊 First, I want to say I came across this website during a panic attack, and immediately I felt a rush of calmness over me. Thank you all so much for sharing your stories and hopeful advice-- it really means so much to me and so many others. God Bless You All! 😇 My story consists of a few odd variables. I have had anorexia since I was 14, and although I am physically recovered, it is a mental illness that stays with you basically forever. I still have my struggles and I have anxiety about food and exercise, but it is not as bad as it once was. After intense therapy, it seemed my eating disorder was directly related to my abandonment issues of my father. My feelings of being "dirty" and "unclean" also came from this, but more from a memory of having an inappropriate encounter with a male, whose identity I do not know. My anorexia coupled with my OCD, which resulted in counting obsessively, having to do rituals for everything from eating and chewing a certain number of times, to how i brushed and flossed, to how I said my prayers at night. It caused me to be late for school, gain unwanted attention from classmates, and interfere with my friendships and family relationships. As a started to date, I noticed I would cry at the sight of a penis because of the childhood experience, which obviously was both embarrassing (although I laugh at it now) and made me uncomfortable with sexual relationships. However, I dated many people for company, as my mental health issues made me feel sad and isolated, and I craved connection. Although a lot of people don't like to admit it, having "daddy issues" is 110% a real thing, and as I look back on my teenage self, I see that I was trying to fill so many voids through boyfriends. As I entered college, I found myself struggling with my eating disorder and OCD, and now family stress issues. After problems with my family home led to me moving back home at the end of freshman year, my mental health drastically lowered. At 19 I started dating this guy who was about five years older than me. He was basically the exact opposite of me in every single way; politically and morally, he drank and smoke while I did not, etc. He was a "bad boy". My family did not approve of him so we dated in secret, which made me feel guilty and wrong, but I did it anyway, because I felt that maybe through this relationship, I could achieve something. One day while we were having sex, he took out his phone and started taking photographs of me. I immediately covered myself and told him to stop, but instead of stopping he laughed at me and held my wrists so he could continue taking pictures. A week or so later while having sex, I told him to stop because I felt a horrible pain in my vagina. He begrudgingly stopped, and then a few moments later asked if he could finish. I declined because I was in so much pain, but instead of accepting my answer he asked again, and then just decided to put his penis back inside and finish. I was confused and a little shocked. The next day I woke up with about thirty red boils all over my outer and inner labia. After two painful days I saw a doctor who told me I had herpes, later tested to be HSV-1. The doctor told me I had sores inside my vaginal cavity, too. I explained to the doctor that my boyfriend had no symptoms, and that he said he didn't have herpes. The doctor explained that he was my sexual partner, so he had given it to me regardless of what he said. I told my boyfriend the diagnosis and he told me it was my fault from probably sleeping around with dirty people, and he became angry and said that I better not have given him anything because he had "come into this life clean and was going out clean, too." He refused to kiss me goodbye for fear of me giving it to him orally (which we all medically know doesn't make sense) and I went on my way. For about ten days I had excruciating pain when walking, sitting, going to the bathroom, and dressing. I felt embarrassed walking to and from college classes like a waddling duck, and it interfered with my job, too. Another "bonus,"... I got my period the day I got the sores, and I had a sinus infection... so needless to say, I was a hot mess. Eventually I broke up with the jerk and confronted him about his actions. Dating with herpes is difficult, and I have been rejected so many times for having HSV1 on my genital area. I always explain it to people right when I meet them/first date, and a few men have been very accepting. I appreciate when they ask questions, because it shows they actually want to understand it and are not immediately judging, and because they care about health and safe sex. When I got my next outbreak, only about three sores, I cried, not because of the sores but because of how I got the sores (from the cruel and disgusting ex-boyfriend). Already feeling dirty and unworthy because of my childhood-related trauma and addy issues, I felt even more dirty and disgusting, and my OCD kicked in on overdrive. Until about a week ago when I found this website, I was constantly paranoid I would give my genital HSV1 herpes (and COVID, of course) to my family members just by touching a shared object with my hands. I am afraid to prepare food, wash dishes, and touch anything that my family will use/touch. Although I know that HSV1 on the genital area can only be passed through skin-to-skin contact with my genital skin area, I still was convinced it was just all over my body and would hurt a loved one. There is so much mixed messaging about herpes, and I have found website saying herpes can pass through food, through towels, through a handshake, and other say the exact opposite! I love this website because it provided guidance from those with herpes; who can relate and share the realities of herpes (which really helps combat my OCD fear and anxiety). I am happy to say that I am learning to peacefully coexist and make harmony with my OCD, anorexia, past memories and hurts, and herpes. Yes rejection hurts, but I don't let it slow me down, because I deserve someone who is kind and understanding, not judgmental and only focused on my physical body (remember-- you are MORE than your body, too!!! SO MUCH MORE!!!). ❤️To all those out there who think you are ugly, worthless, dirty, or are ashamed... just be and live as you are, because you deserve to be happy, well, and in harmony with your mind, spirit, body, and soul. It will get better. You are beautiful and strong! God loves you and made you, and God doesn't make mistakes. You matter and the world needs you! ❤️❤️❤️
  9. Hi guys so I’ve had genital HSV-1 for over a year now and now all of a sudden I’m starting to get little white bumps on my lip. Can it be herpes? I’m so confused because I thought if I would have an outbreak it would be on my genitalia not my actual lips 👄 . I’m freaking out and I just need answers. Has this happened to someone before? Can you get it on your face and your genitalia??
  10. SKIP to questions if you don’t want to read background : Hi I was diagnosed with herpes in December 2019, I got the virus from kissing a guy who didn’t disclose his status to me but thinking back I know that he knew because he would always take some medication randomly, like he would jump up to run get them but never showed me so I guess that was him experiencing Prodrome symptoms and attempting to catch it Before the cold sore erupts. I still have not confronted him about what he did to me I’m so angry, we work together and he still acts like everything is ok flirting with me etc. anyway I came down with mild flu symptoms while on vacation in December , body aches, low fever, tired But just for 2 days and a few days later my lips started tingling. I googled and herpes immediately came up I was scared shitless. I waited and waited and waited but never got a cold sore. I also experience itching down below but never a sore I went to my doctor who checked my lip and mouth and said it can’t be herpes if there is no sore but she swabbed my lip anyway and a few days later she called to confirm hsv1. I felt my world shatter I kept trying to wake up from this nightmare. Of course it’s not so horrible having this virus but I would prefer not to have it. My outbreak seemed to have been lip tingles which lasted weeks and I have a few painless lesions in my mouth inside my cheeks and lips like small paper cuts that didn’t hurt, I also had bad headaches almost everyday. fast forward I think I am having another outbreak but again no sore and I am waiting for one to pop up. I have the headaches, itch down below, lesions all in mouth , lip tingles . I also see tiny bumps around the border of my lip barely noticeable but I have discomfort such as burning and tingling There QUESTIONS 1. is this typical for an outbreak in the beginning ? Will I ever get cold sores ? (I’ve only gotten sores inside my mouth) Does anyone only experience tingles as an outbreak? 2. the tiny bumps forming around my lip are they permanent has anyone experienced this? 3. Am I still contagious after the sores in my mouth are gone but my lip still tingles ? (Current situation) . I don’t want to pass this to my partner Even If you cannot relate to this please share your experience with oral hsv1 I feel so alone and don’t know what to expect I’m currently taking 3000mg of L-lysine 3 times a day during this outbreak and I normally take 3000mg once a day to prevent. I have valacyclovir that I take for 5 days during outbreak I don’t want to get suppressive therapy until I learn this virus and how it affects me. i take vitamin c, probiotics, vitamin d3, vitamin b6 as well. I’m also pescatarian only eat fish occasionally. No meats I use herpecin lip balm and also abreeva on my lips when I think I am having an outbreak but I’m not really sure if I am please any input would be appreciated
  11. Hi all, I find myself very emotional typing this but I thought i'd ask this question because I am so so worried. I was recently diagnosed with ghsv1 in December.. after my primary outbreak I had another tiny outbreak exactly a month later (so weird) so i asked my Dr. to put me on antivirals because I am under a lot of stress with graduate school and i have been ok since and no outbreaks since jan. I also wanted to go on antivirals because I am TERRIFIED to transmit this to anyone. My question is how likely am I to give ghsv1 to someone from sex being I am on antivirals ? Is there anyone out there that has had sex plenty of times with specifically ghsv1 and hasn't transmitted?
  12. I was diagnosed with HSV1 in May by the IGG ELISA with an index value of 3.87. This past Friday while washing up, I used a bowel filled with soap and water to wash my genitals. When I went to turn on the faucet the pressure from the water coming out of it caused the water from the bowel to splash into my left eye. If I have HSV1 on my genitals (I believe it’s just oral but I have never had a cold sore nor a bump on my genitalia) could the water and soap getting into my eye cause ocular herpes? Any feedback would be greatly appreciated.
  13. Recently diagnosed with hsv-1 and find myself paranoid everything is a pre-OB symptom. Need some help. first diagnosed about 2.5 weeks ago with painful lesions on my labia. They cleared up about 1.5 weeks ago and I’ve been taking daily suppressing valtrex since. Since they cleared up though I’ve been having tingling feelings, especially on my butt cheeks, and then the last four days I’ve had increased discharge again like during my first OB and lots of itching and feelings of anal fissure. I’ve been inspecting compulsively though and no bumps or lesions, and no pain. Is this just after affects of the first OB? Is this a second OB? Is this signs a second OB is coming? Looking for some reassurance. I’m worried I had sex too soon after. I had sex a little over a week after the lesions cleared and that’s when the itching and tingling really started.
  14. I am a newley 20 year old college student. As you can see from my display name, I'm not taking this news well. What makes it worse is, I'm still trying to pin point who I got this from. Not because I've had multiple sexual partners, but because my past 3 recent partners made it seem as if, everything was okay butt I can't blame anyone for not knowing. I recently told two friends who are extrememly supportive but I really want a friend who can relate so if you're in your 20s, female, and a college sttudent, please contact me, I need someone who can relate in my life. It's really hard trying to cope and acceot this, I can't help but think this was a mistake in the labs or maybe a cure will happen. I can't go through a day without crying or contemplating suicide. I know this is something not worth losing my life for, trust me, I've had thoughts like this in the past and never went through but not being able to feel like my old self again is so hard. I have HSV1, I'm not sure which but I think genital, I plan to go back to the lab for more questions. Will i ever find love? how can i watch relationships on TV without feeling inadequate. I've never been in a relationship so this diagnosis only makes matters worse. I'm young and I can't even really experince or live my life I feel. Does anyone have any advice about moving forward or any coping mechanism?
  15. Hi all, This forum keeps me sane, thank you for all being so brave for posting stories, feelings and concerns! This is my first proper post, so here goes... I have HSV1 genitally from an ex who gave it to me orally over 3.5 years ago. I had no idea this could happen. Anyways at the time it wasnt the worst thing in the world, I was actually pretty ok with it! It prob helped that the first 2 years I got very minor OBs every 6 months following the primary outbreak. We didnt use condoms and it wasn't ever on our minds because we were happy! Until then he randomly started drinking, locking me out and I found out he cheated on me, it was the strangest thing and I'll never understand. We then went through a horrible break up so I dont think this helped me with anxiety and stress... I was always so positive and optimistic until this time so anxiety was new to me and definitely overwhelmed me. Over the few months following this break up, the stress took its toll and I had regular outbreaks so i went to my hospital and got put on Acyclovir meds and took Lysine with advice from this site. (Thank you!) During 4 months after this, (2.5 years after being diagnosed) I disclosed/dated with meds+condoms with two people, it didnt stop me dating as I had confidence, but they didn't work out... and THEN I met the most amazing guy and we have been together nearly a year! Living together and have our future plans set! (There is a love life with someone H- after herpes, believe me!! never been happier!) He doesnt judge what I have, he knows the risks when it comes to everything, and was there for me when I went to a therapist for 10 sessions to help me accept what happened to me and move forward with my life again! Which i have 🙂 ((Side note, I found that after 6 months on Acyclovir just a couple of months into my new relationship that my hair was beginning to break, that I was becoming nauseous, achey and had strange prickly feelings in my legs and genitals. We decided together that I should stop the meds and instead use condoms.)) Anyways getting on to the main part of my post! Since then, in this 1 year period, I have only had 2 real OBs in this past year. The odd tingle but not true OB that I can physically see or usual OB cycle. We also agreed we want to be together long term and want to feel each other better so decided as I knew when I am on an OB and that I know my early sign symptoms we wouldn't use condoms (since about 5months ago). We have many very open honest conversations as much as I dont like talking about it (as I get embarassed) we know the risks, we know this means more likely transmission of 4% female to male, no meds or condoms etc. But he is happy to take that risk so we agreed to go ahead with nothing but me taking Lysine. Since then...my question is... how can "I" stop myself worrying about it STILL after each time we have sex, when after everytime we have sex I feel that maybe maybe maybe I feel the odd tingle! The past few months of feeling super confident that yes no condoms no meds, i know myself, sex has also left me feeling super frustrated. When I do feel confident, and we have sex, that tingle down there always makes me worry after.. we go not having sex for 2 weeks because I say No we better not just incase if I do feel concerned, and as I say also confident I've only had 2 OBs in the last year. We try again and then I worry again. Ive started to lose trust in my body over the last month with every time we have sex. The reason why I am posting is because Im worrying again! I guess its maybe my anxiety coming back playing with my mind that im not on meds or using condoms 😞 ? I find myself looking through conversations on this site every now and again trying to find answers to what I know are probably impossible questions... Does anyone else feel like this after sex? Anyone else not using condoms and meds with a H- partner? Has anyone had issues with Acyclovir like mine? I feel like the only thing we can do is go back to meds to help us enjoy sex still without condoms and to give me that peace of mind. The past 3 years I have known how my body works when it comes to OBs and trust it, but its always at the back of my mind now the past month or so, plus my boyfriend has been absolutely fine after each encounter the past few months. So why am i doing this... I really hope its not just me that questions everything I do when making mutual decisions with an incredibly accepting H- partner. Your thoughts, stories, etc are welcome please. It can't be just me struggling with my H- partner being so great and me still feeling concerned about his health/triple checking how I feel everytime. Thank you x
  16. Where do I even begin. Prior to my first herpes outbreak, I have always been very health anxious and because of this it really makes dealing with Herpes worst. I was diagnosed the beginning of March, with genital HSV-1. I was happy because this was not the type where it was more reoccurring, but still understood that it is genital herpes and it is not certain that I will not have another outbreak. I shaved myself for the first time since my outbreak last week and to add on got my monthly friend. So I am unsure if it was a combination of the monthly friend and the shaving irritation that could have potentially triggered another outbreak. However on 4/19, I felt that tingling sensation down there and I had an itch (like a yeast infection) and I panicked and took the Valtrex just in case. I have finished the Valtrex 2 days ago, and I am still very itchy down there which to be honest I feel like ever since my outbreak I have had some type of itch. I feel as if I am never going to be normal down there cause it has not been 100% since my initial outbreak. Like I said I know HSV-1 is less severe of the types, but is it common that 1 month after my initial outbreak, I feel as if I am getting another one? Because of my health anxiety, it makes me believe that anything out of the ordinary, such as a little itch, is going to be an outbreak. On top of the itch, I do feel myself still getting shooting pains, and I was told that was nerve pain, but does that settle? Also I feel very achy in my legs at times. I am very new to Herpes, and I may be a little uneducated, but my gyno said that my first outbreak could be my only one/may have another years from now. Has anyone else had this issue with HSV-1 genital? Or does it not matter what type you have, an outbreak will happen with whatever triggers it?
  17. Hi guys. I don't know what to do with myself. The only care advice my doc has given is preventative meds and acyclovir ointment. Everything else I have read online. I take 3mg of l-lysine now daily along with Acyclovir pills. I have anxiety and IDK if that is a factor. I'm also overweight and wondering if that contributes to friction. Laying down with an ice pack on my crotch now. Can't exercise or it hurts. Looking for a seasoned vet who has overcome similar issues.
  18. Ive read some scare stories online and I've frightened myself silly!! Need some help desperately! -do lots of people just forget about this diagnosis and get on with a normal life? -can ladies with hsv genitally (age got hsv1) still give birth one day? Ive come across some horror stories online and It's made me really anxious and worried. Would you reccomend keeping off the internet? Do you find you look online and on the forums less over time? -myself and my partner plan to be intimate for the first time soon. He's been very accepting but I'm very nervous and want to protect hin as best as possible. We plan to use protection and I'm on anti virals but he doesnt want to use a dental dam. Is this safe? I know there is some risk. I feel worried about hurting him and causing him and suffering. Thanks in hope for any helpful responses
  19. Hi everyone, hopefully someone can help me out a little. Okay so I have genital hsv2, do I need to worry about sleeping with someone who has genital hsv1? Will I have another OB like the first one I had? I’d rather not have that experience ever again thank you very much. Can someone help me out with this? I’m trying to navigate who I can potentially consider for dating. Thank you! This forum has been really helpful.
  20. hello everyone, first timer here and pretty scared. oral herpes is very common i know, but im not sure if i have it. for months i’ve been having this stinging feeling on my lips, like there are tiny cuts since i have dry lips, but nothing ever comes up. its always continously tingling off and on, most of the time in the same spot but sometimes in another, it usually happens during the evening and when i go to sleep and wake up it stops. only two times i’ve gotten like these individual tiny tiny red dots on my lip that didnt hurt nor did they have fluid filled heads, i only noticed bc i looked in the mirror and if i put apple cider vinegar or peroxide on them they start to go away and are basically gone the next day. usually cold sores are painful right? even when they are small? im just very confused bc of the tingling/stinging sensation, i bought lysine (both pills and cream) to see if it would help but im not sure if it does. i went to get tested but they said that they dont test unless i have a cold sore, so im not sure whats going on. any thoughts?
  21. I had two blood test done. Each came back positive for hsv1. First test value was 51.80 two weeks after the second test value was 34.40 why is that?
  22. Hi, This is a rather long and convoluted story so I'll try to simplify it as much as possible. In December of last year I was dating a girl and we were proceeding to have unprotected oral and vaginal sex throughout our relationship, however at the start of February we decided to part ways, our last sexual contact was the end of January. I then had no sexual contact with anyone else until I started having some difficulty whilst peeing, not stinging just uncomfortable about 5 weeks after our last sexual contact. I decided to visit my local GUM clinic and was tested for the normal panel of STD's, in the week whilst I was waiting for the results I started to notice a small spot on my chin which I thought looked like a coldsore. Having never had one before, I began to panic that what I was experiencing genitally could also be herpes so made an emergency appointment with my GP. She said she was unsure if it was a coldsore or not, but even if it was, the best course of action would be to start me on a course of Acyclovir to which I did. The small spot on my chin disappeared within four days or so and nothing appeared on my penis (I forgot to mention that the difficulty peeing subsided before I started taking Acyclovir) and my results for all other STD's came back negative. Everything was fine, until about a couple of months later when I noticed a red spot forming on the foreskin of my penis. This began on a Friday and the local GUM clinics only operate Mon-Fri in the UK, again I panicked and ordered a home swab test from a private clinic that would PCR test for herpes. I completed this on the Saturday and sent it away and visited my local GUM clinic on the Monday. The Dr told me she thought it looked like a blocked pore (I thought it had healed over by then) and said I was worrying myself into a complete panic about having herpes when clinically I hadn't really presented any symptoms of it. I received the swab test results and they came back negative for both types. Not satisfied with this outcome, I decided to have blood testing done. My IGG at 3 months, 6 months and 8 months post exposure have all come back negative for both types of herpes however I know that herpes is generally not a straight forward diagnosis in that the blood test is generally accurate for HSV2 but misses up to 30% of new HSV1 infections. And what complicates it further is that I'm likely to have little to no outbreaks for genital HSV1 but can still pass on the virus so there is nothing that I can really do about my situation but sit and wait for something to show up. For the past 9 months I've been inspecting my genitals like crazy in the shower for any signs but nothing turns up, but I'm also scared that my symptoms are so mild that I completely miss them. I thought I could complete a Western Blot with Terri Warren, but my financial situation as a student in the UK just makes that impossible at the moment. What complicates my sit and wait situation further is that I've been dating a girl for the past two months who I'm completely enamoured by, and we've been getting so close that I know that sex is on the horizon. She's 22, I'm 23 and she told me that she's still a virgin and expressed an interest in having sex with me. I'm completely terrified by the thought of dating this girl and then 7 months down the line she contracts genital herpes, especially with the knowledge that I know of my situation. Having to tell her this whole story that I'm writing now would just make me feel like I've been lying to her the whole time. I would hate for her first sexual experiences with anyone to end in contracting genital herpes. I've spoken with my GP, a student councillor at my university and also the Herpes virus org here in the UK. They've all given me a very straight forward answer in that it's a harmless virus, I've not been diagnosed therefore there is no reason for me to disclose to any partners about my situation. However, from all the herpes literature I've read I know that Dr's tend to downplay herpes therefore I'm unsure as morally what's the correct thing to do. I want to be completely honest, but I'm terrified that she will reject me but on the other hand I almost agree with the Dr's in that I haven't been diagnosed but I'm unsure if that's me just wanting to believe what I want to hear. I agree that Herpes is a harmless virus after all of the stories I've read on the internet, however I would never want to take someone's decision away from them. Admittedly, what's caused me the most angst about this whole story at the moment is the uncertainty of whether If I do have it and if I'd pass it onto this girl. If we do decide to have sex, I of course will use a condom but if the relationship progresses further, she may be want to use the pill instead of condom. I guess I was really just looking for some advice from real people on my situation and what I should do. Any advice would be greatly appreciated, I just don't know what to do.
  23. hey everyone, i'm not sure if i have oral herpes or not. for months i have been feeling stinging in different areas of my lips, like it'll be on the right side of the bottom for a few weeks, and then of the left for a few days, then back to the right side, stuff like that. i also have dry lips but am not sure if its the dryness (since they get real chapped and might be splitting) or what, but every time i feel a sting or tingle i always put on apple cinder vinegar or hydrogen peroxide and then go to sleep, sometimes i also take lysine. when i wake up the tingling is gone and it doesnt come back till the next day and repeat. i believe i could have been infected a few months ago, so this would be my first outbreak. i want to know if there was anyway i could be stopping a sore for popping up for the first time because this stinging has been continuous for weeks and weeks but nothing has surfaced. and i havent felt any flu like symptoms, like fever or swollen and tender lymph nodes (maybe a little since im always poking at them tho) or sore throat, and i hear that the first outbreak is usually the worst so????? help lol
  24. No insurance--seeking answers! I was given a positive test result for Hsv2 a couple of years ago. Ever since then I've had an immense amount of mystery ailments, leading my drs to believe that I may suffer from an immune disorder. So far, however , I have only had normal test results in regards to immune disorders, leaving me without answers. In the last several months I have also had monthly recurring symptoms of hsv1 (prior to this time I've never experienced cold sores) along with other mystery symptoms at the same time in my menstrual cycle, which I have found a way to control. But now that I have gotten rid of all those symptoms, I suddenly have herpes zoster (shingles of the eye). I'm at my wit's end and looking for some relief! I'm uninsured for the moment and am trying to get answers without the ability to see specialists. Has anyone experienced multiple strains like this? It seems like when I get one type of the HSV under control it rears its ugly head elsewhere. Any insight is appreciated! Thank you
  25. I’ve had HSV1 probably for a few years now but I got my first outbreak 10 months in my genital area. Since then it’s got worse and worse. I’m at the point where there’s a constant pain down below. I’m taking valtrex now for the last month, daily. It’s helped with the outbreak but I still have constant pain in my penis. I used to get 3 to 4 outbreaks a month for 10 months. I don’t know how HSV1 can cause so many outbreaks. I thought that’s what HSV2 did? Part of me wonders if it’s even HSV1. I had red marks around my groin area that appeard around the same time as my first outbreak. Not sure if that was related. I don’t really care that I have HSV1... heck 90% of people on this planet have it. Most people don’t know because a lot of people will never know they had it because they get no symptoms. I just want to know for sure what it is. Having 4 outbreaks a month is not normal. So to my questions: • is it normal to have HSV1 outbreak 3 to 4 times a month. • should I still feel pain on my penis even with taking valtrax but no visibal symptoms. • is anyone else getting so many outbreaks with HSV1? I’m going to go back to the doctor and get retested. I haven’t even given a urine sample so I wonder if it’s some bacterial infection. Can anyone else think if it could be something else?
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