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So I finally started dating again after my ex, who gave me the beautiful present of HSV2. We have been broken up for a while but the thought of having to tell someone terrifies me and I held back because of it. Fast forward, I finally decide I'm ready to date. Met a guy who I completely fell for. He was smart, sweet, attractive, honest. Just everything. When it came time to tell him, I could tell the air just changed. I told him I'd give him some time to think about it and to please ask me any questions. Well, he texted me the next day and ended it. Said he couldn't take the chance. I'm devastated. I'm scared of being alone forever. I'm scared of never having great sex again. I'm scared of never being loved. Please please share your positive disclosure stories because I couldbuse some cheering up..

Hi everyone! I know so many people join this forum bc we all have been diagnosed and we are afraid and feel lost. I haven’t searched to far back in the forum but there are plenty of topics of every one feeling like their lives are over and even contemplate suicide which I have thought about. Not Necessarily physically harming myself but thinking if I never woke up I would be fine with that. Just to not not deal with these emotions. I would like to read positive messages about moving forward, Living a fulfill sex life (maybe some sex tips) and eventually coming to terms with something we have no control of. Please leave a positive message so when people come on here looking for advice they see that this is not the end. We have to let people know that there is life after our diagnosis. I hope to see encouraging messages and positivity. ❤️

my ex and I recently started messing around but were still seeing other people since we felt as though we wanted to gradually get back into it. so I shaved one day and then we knocked some boots lol it burned when I peed that day but it turned out to be just the "friction burn" if you know what I mean. 2 or 3 days later it started to hurt again. & I was on, lets say, a camping trip. so I was not at the liberty, nor had the privacy to look down at my vagina in all its glory. & I honestly didn't even think to check because of the environment I was in. I kept praying and praying that the burning would go away, but it wouldn't. some times peeing wouldn't hurt at all, and then one fateful night it burned like hot acid was being poured on my lady parts. It was all I could do to not let out a blood curdling scream. tears flowing down my face. that morning I decided to head to the ER after finding two red bumps on the top of my labia in the shower. this "doctor" at the ER had the bedside manner of an iguana. he was constantly insinuating it was my fault and couldn't manage a kind word to save his life. so after spending all day in the ER, this terrible ass doctor sent me home with some Valtrex "just in case" it was HSV2, saying it was not characteristically developed enough for him to give a diagnosis. My ex came and saw me and gave me some encouraging words. Since I did not receive a diagnosis, I decided to NOT take the Valtrex since I typically dont like taking medicine for nothing. I had to go back out to this camping trip and try to save face. but friends would ask, why are you walking like that and would wonder why im not helping out as much (& they were probably more upset than anything). I tried to do what I could, but I could not keep up the farce emotionally. & begged to go home, and was. I then decided to go to this clinic for a second opinion/more help. I had to wait a day because she didnt have an appointment slot the day after I left the camping trip. So Monday ER, Friday was my clinic appt. Thursday night though, the pain got worse and worse and worse. The only reason I didnt go to the ER again so I didnt have to run into this same jerk face doctor. In the mean time, I tried Epson salt bath, oatmeal bath, it gave me no relief. My appt Friday was SO much better. She was educating me on everything I wanted/needed to know and told me she thinks I MAY have a really bad bacterial infection down there. So I started to have hope. Although, when she took the swabs down there, I swear it felt she was trying to swipe my skin off with a lava knife. (dont ask) unfortunately I had to wait a very long time to get the results of that swab test, so I was researching everything that it could be instead of HSV2. She sent me home with Keflex (one 4x a day, for 10 days. forget the dosage rn), 800 mg Ibuprofen (one 3x a day), I started to take the Valtrex, and Lidocaine 5% and Bactroban (topical, 3x a day). In about 3 days, the lesions that covered almost my entire vagina started to close. I had my ex there the entire weekend holding my hand whenever I needed to pee (I was of course traumatized by peeing), he applied the Lidocaine and Bactroban for me (with gloves on of course) and was such an emotional rock for me when I was at my complete lowest. he is currently waiting on his results as well since he waited a while to get tested. I received some oral action from other people and he's had sex with someone else, but as for right now, we're not playing the blame game. He constantly is saying we're going through it TOGETHER. so for now, we are ok and still working towards a relationship. I finally got my concrete results Sep 7th and I was honestly devastated. The doctor stated she thinks it was a bacterial infection on top of the HSV1/2 There was no distinction on whether it was HSV1 or 2, so I still have some unanswered questions. He and I had sex recently and I think I am currently breaking out. I wasn't aware of the 7 day period to wait after everything is clear so I think im about to go through another scare. & we did use protection if you wanted to know. Anyways, I wanted to write this to get it off my chest to people who would listen and understand. so if you're still reading, thank you. you are a gem. Maybe someone can read this and somehow gain strength from it. now, im just trying to move on.

Weve all felt stressed, hurt,crushed by this thing we all share. Well. One day it will look up. Todays my day. Im so proud to say after almost 9 full months of constant outbreaks. Im finally clear! Now. I think ive posted my story a few times on here. But ill write it again. Well im 24. And female. And I gave myself the gift of hsv 1 on my geniltals. My fiance and i (been together 5 years) wernt thinking of the slowly starting coldsore on my lip. And as the night progressed it transferred to his beard and his beard to my ladybits. Well. Thats my new years gift to myself.. I hated myself, ive felt so down. I personally thought he was going to leave. But as weeks passed after my diagnosis, he never left my side. He helped me with research and trying different methods to calm my outbreaks. Well. Needless to say we haven't been physical since the day we found out but he says hed rather live with it and get it than not be able to be with me Weve tried Lysine, famciclovir, valacyclovir, and acyclovir. Weve tried salt baths. Epsom baths, essential oil baths. All of it. Finally. After months of searching and scrounging for something that made the outbreaks bearable i read into essebtial oil blends. Now they may not help for everyone. But oh sweet glory it helped me Ive finally been clear for over a week. And proud to say. Weve finally been intimate again. Ive told family, and some friends. At first everyones concerned. Then after a bit of information is shared, the people ive told have all been there through my journey. The point of this story is, no matter what happens. Dont give up hope. Things will get better. Someone will love you unconditionally. And they wont care about the little things. Try everything you can, listen to your doctor, if it doesnt work. Dont get discouraged. Just think, theres so many other options to try out there. And be proud of who you are. Regardless of the weight we have on our shoulders, we are worth it to someone. Thank you guys for all the support over the past few months. I felt alone before i found these fourms. And it feels amazing to know your never alone in this. I love you all!