Hello, Everyone ❤️
Today was a really rough day. I had a nervous breakdown and just really hit a low. I vented everything to my mom, and explained my OCD, herpes fears, and feelings of guilt and shame around having my herpes. My mom was kind and understanding. It is really awkward to talk to your mom about herpes, especially when they are strict. I told her that I constantly feel afraid I will give my family herpes by sharing food, doing laundry, even touching objects, even though the science says that is not how it works. Honestly, the times when we feel like we will be harshly judged and should keep quiet are actually the times when we NEED to talk and actually won't be judged. The people who really love us will be understanding. I told my mom that I was afraid she would judge me or be disappointed in me, but she wasn't. She said, "You trusted someone and they ended up giving this to you, and that isn't your fault." And she is so right. She told me I'm not dirty or less of a person, and this really really meant so much to me.
Please know that disclosing your HSV to someone close to you who is kind and accepting can help release SO much pressure and secrets, and I feel so much more free and able to heal. My feelings of guilt and shame disappeared and I gained a comforting resource, my mom, to help me through my journey.
❤️🍀🌼☀️ Yay for kind understanding humans! I love my mama bear 🐻❤️!!!