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my ex and I recently started messing around but were still seeing other people since we felt as though we wanted to gradually get back into it. so I shaved one day and then we knocked some boots lol it burned when I peed that day but it turned out to be just the "friction burn" if you know what I mean. 2 or 3 days later it started to hurt again. & I was on, lets say, a camping trip. so I was not at the liberty, nor had the privacy to look down at my vagina in all its glory. & I honestly didn't even think to check because of the environment I was in. I kept praying and praying that the burning would go away, but it wouldn't. some times peeing wouldn't hurt at all, and then one fateful night it burned like hot acid was being poured on my lady parts. It was all I could do to not let out a blood curdling scream. tears flowing down my face. that morning I decided to head to the ER after finding two red bumps on the top of my labia in the shower. this "doctor" at the ER had the bedside manner of an iguana. he was constantly insinuating it was my fault and couldn't manage a kind word to save his life. so after spending all day in the ER, this terrible ass doctor sent me home with some Valtrex "just in case" it was HSV2, saying it was not characteristically developed enough for him to give a diagnosis. My ex came and saw me and gave me some encouraging words. Since I did not receive a diagnosis, I decided to NOT take the Valtrex since I typically dont like taking medicine for nothing. I had to go back out to this camping trip and try to save face. but friends would ask, why are you walking like that and would wonder why im not helping out as much (& they were probably more upset than anything). I tried to do what I could, but I could not keep up the farce emotionally. & begged to go home, and was. I then decided to go to this clinic for a second opinion/more help. I had to wait a day because she didnt have an appointment slot the day after I left the camping trip. So Monday ER, Friday was my clinic appt. Thursday night though, the pain got worse and worse and worse. The only reason I didnt go to the ER again so I didnt have to run into this same jerk face doctor. In the mean time, I tried Epson salt bath, oatmeal bath, it gave me no relief. My appt Friday was SO much better. She was educating me on everything I wanted/needed to know and told me she thinks I MAY have a really bad bacterial infection down there. So I started to have hope. Although, when she took the swabs down there, I swear it felt she was trying to swipe my skin off with a lava knife. (dont ask) unfortunately I had to wait a very long time to get the results of that swab test, so I was researching everything that it could be instead of HSV2. She sent me home with Keflex (one 4x a day, for 10 days. forget the dosage rn), 800 mg Ibuprofen (one 3x a day), I started to take the Valtrex, and Lidocaine 5% and Bactroban (topical, 3x a day). In about 3 days, the lesions that covered almost my entire vagina started to close. I had my ex there the entire weekend holding my hand whenever I needed to pee (I was of course traumatized by peeing), he applied the Lidocaine and Bactroban for me (with gloves on of course) and was such an emotional rock for me when I was at my complete lowest. he is currently waiting on his results as well since he waited a while to get tested. I received some oral action from other people and he's had sex with someone else, but as for right now, we're not playing the blame game. He constantly is saying we're going through it TOGETHER. so for now, we are ok and still working towards a relationship. I finally got my concrete results Sep 7th and I was honestly devastated. The doctor stated she thinks it was a bacterial infection on top of the HSV1/2 There was no distinction on whether it was HSV1 or 2, so I still have some unanswered questions. He and I had sex recently and I think I am currently breaking out. I wasn't aware of the 7 day period to wait after everything is clear so I think im about to go through another scare. & we did use protection if you wanted to know. Anyways, I wanted to write this to get it off my chest to people who would listen and understand. so if you're still reading, thank you. you are a gem. Maybe someone can read this and somehow gain strength from it. now, im just trying to move on.
Hi everyone, This is my first post on this site. I feel like I have no one to talk to, only my boyfriend knows so it would be nice to talk to other people about how I feel. A part of me really wants to tell my closest friends or my mom but I just fear that they’ll be in shock and never look at me the same again. I don’t want to be treated like a leper because that’s how a lot of people view people with herpes. It’s sad but it’s true. Anyway, here’s my story, I’ll try to make it as concise as possible. Back in 2015 I was diagnosed with HSV 1 genitally. The only outbreak I ever had was my initial outbreak and I took Valtrex 500mg daily for about 1.5 years as suppressive therapy and then just decided to stop taking it because I never got any outbreaks. I really felt like I didn’t even have herpes. Fast forward to July 2018, I kept having this recurring vaginal fissure (little cut below the vaginal opening) every time I had sex. It also happened back in April of this year. I just thought my skin was weak or not properly lubricated during sex so that’s why it was happening. I decided to go to my gynecologist and see what he thought and if there was anything I could do to keep this from happening. He looked at it and said it was a vaginal fissure, gave me some cream, but also did a swab test to test for HSV2. He said he didn’t think it was herpes but just wanted to do a swab to be sure. I got my results back a week later and the swab test came back positive for HSV 1 (which I already had) and HSV2. I was completely devastated, my stomach dropped and I felt like I was going to throw up. Now I have both types of herpes?! I went into a state of panic. I went back to my gynecologist and got a full std panel done and got an IGG blood test because I really just wanted to confirm that I had HSV2. It came back positive with a value of 3.02 so I guess it’s a pretty recent infection. I’m still so shocked because I got an IGG text for HSV 2 in April and it was negative and another one in September 2017 and it was negative and I’ve been with the same person since September 2017. He swears he hasn’t cheated on me so I guess he just didn’t infect me until he was shedding or something? Idk. He also went to get tested because he noticed he had some bumps and they did a swab and IGG blood test. He’s waiting on his results but the doctor is very certain it’s herpes and she already gave him Valtrex to take daily. This may be wrong but I can’t help to be a little mad at him and I even question if I should stay with him. He didn’t know he had herpes but he’s always been very ignorant when it comes to his health. He doesn’t go to yearly checkups, doesn’t get tested, he just assumed he was clean because he had no symptoms and because I’m clean. He did say he had a bump one time when he shaved but thought it was an ingrown hair because he actually pulled a hair out of it, who knows. I make my health a top priority and he doesn’t so it just angers me. Anyway, I don’t mean to rant but I’m just trying to cope with this all. It’s been about 3 weeks since I found out I also have HSV2 now. Some days are better than others but some days (like today) I feel depressed and I have anxiety. I still love myself and accept myself, I’m just afraid others won’t. Now I just feel like I’m harboring this horrible secret, is that weird to say? Thanks for taking the time to read my story, any advice will be greatly appreciated 🙂